Gravitation
Title: Silent Yet Deadly
Chapter 1: For Better or For Worse
Disclaimer: I only own the plot because Maki Murakami-sama owns Gravitation. TT
Summary: Yuki's a simple romance novelist and Shuuichi is a cold-hearted, blood thirsty assassin part of a gang by the name Bad Luck. Shuuichi's had a rough past and trusts no one except for his gang members and would never find himself in a relationship especially not with a guy because he's homophobic. Yuki accidentally discovers him and falls in love but with Shuuichi the way he is what is Yuki to do? The story is better, I just suck at writing summaries so please read! Thank you.
Warning: In this story Hiro has long brown hair (refer to the OVA), Shuuichi has long, red, messy hair (refer to the manga) and Fujisaki has black hair pinned back into a small ponytail (similar to Miroku's from Inuyasha). Strange I know. But it's a cute image I came up for them. Personally, I think they look cool together like that XD. Also, Yuki and Shuuichi do not act like themselves, I think its called Out Of Character o. O? But if anything, their personalities are switched. laughs nervously Well I hope you enjoy it anyway.
Note: This font means flashbacks, memories, dreams, etc.

Normal POV

Shuuichi slowly opened his eyes and felt too comfortable to get up. He wondered what time it was and moved his head to look at the cable box. A quarter after nine. The day seemed to go by so quickly, probably because he slept through most of it. Yuki shifted under him to make himself comfortable and let out a soft moan. Shuuichi jumped up from the couch and off of Yuki and was blushing a deep red. He couldn't believe he fell asleep like that and allowed Yuki to hold him that way. He must've been very tired. Then he felt a hand pull him back down on the couch and he screamed. "Calm down, Shuuichi. I'm not going to hurt you. Why are you always so tense?" Yuki paused. "Why is your face all red?" Shuuichi didn't turn to look at him and was still flustered from the way he had found himself a few moments ago. Now he wasn't too sure if he could trust Yuki. "Who the hell said you could touch me? And why were you asleep next to me? You better not have done anything while I was asleep!" Shuuichi yelled, his voice shaky as the thought occurred to him that Yuki might have done something . . . dirty to him. "So your face is red because your embarrassed that you fell asleep in my arms? It's nothing to be embarrassed about. I liked it and I thought it was cute. And don't blame me, you fell asleep like that and didn't protest. And no, I haven't done anything to you. I'm not like that, although I should've while I had the chance." Yuki said more to himself, thinking about how he lost his opportunity and was disappointed. Saying that only made Shuuichi blush deeper and he ran off to the bathroom to splash some cold water on his face.

Yuki got up from the couch and went into the kitchen. He was felling kind of hungry and decided that he should put dinner up. "Shuuichi, are you hungry? I'm going to make dinner." He yelled loud enough to make sure he was heard. There was no response. Yuki sighed and walked to the bathroom. There he found Shuuichi sitting on the toilet, holding the wound on his waist. This time, hat one reopened. With his other hand, Shuuichi was struggling to take off the bandage. "You know you could just ask for help." Yuki sighed. "I don't need help." Shuuichi grunted, annoyance clear in his voice. He was annoyed that Yuki was treating him like a baby. "You complain a lot. Why do I put up with you?" Yuki sighed again, helping Shuuichi untangle himself. "I never asked you to put up with me. You decided that o your own so don't blame me. And if I'm such a bother, then why don't you kick me out?" Shuuichi said, trying to hide the hurt in his voice. He looked up at Yuki who just smiled. "I'm just kidding around with you. I wouldn't kick you out because then who knows if I'll see you again." Yuki said innocently. "You can't keep me here. As soon as I heal, I can kill you if that's what it takes to get out of here." Shuuichi said confidently. "You won't get better if you keep opening your wounds which means you'll be here with me for a long time." Yuki smiled evilly. Shuuichi didn't like the look in Yuki's eyes and didn't like the smile he just flashed at him. Since Yuki just finished bandaging him up, he pulled away and ran out of he bathroom and into the bedroom. Yuki walked out of the bathroom and into the bedroom to find Shuuichi sitting on the bed, looking for something. "What are you looking for?" Yuki asked. "My shirt. I'm cold." Shuuichi lied without hesitation. He just wanted it so he would feel less vulnerable. Yuki walked over to the dresser and pulled out a shirt. "It may be too big for you but it should do. Unless, I can always warm you up." Yuki chuckled as Shuuichi's face turned red again.

Shuuichi tried to grab the shirt from Yuki but missed and tripped almost landing on the floor if Yuki hadn't caught him. The next thing he knew, he was sitting in Yuki's lap and their faces were dangerously close. Shuuichi looked at him nervously as Yuki pressed his hand to Shuuichi's cheek. "Are you all right?" Yuki asked with a low voice. Shuuichi could only manage to shake his head 'yes.' Yuki wrapped his arms around Shuuichi's waist and pulled him closer. Shuuichi blushed deepened as his lips brushed against Yuki's. Shuuichi's heart began to race as he realized Yuki was about to kiss him and had to get away before it happened. "Yuki, didn't you say you were going to make dinner? I'm starved!" Shuuichi yelled, standing up and running out of the room with such energy. Yuki just laughed and followed after him. He was disappointed but he's definitely get Shuuichi to kiss him.

After dinner, Shuuichi went back to the couch and sat down with a cup of hot chocolate Yuki made. Yuki walked into the room after cleaning up in the kitchen and Shuuichi had placed the half-full cup down on the table. The right sleeve of the shirt Yuki let him borrow fell down his shoulder and he cursed to himself. Yuki just stared. "What?" Shuuichi screamed annoyed at Yuki who stood there smiling. "Nothing. I'm going to bed. That is, if I can fall asleep after I slept most of the day. You shouldn't have a problem though. Good night." Yuki said and walked out of the room. Shuuichi didn't respond and waited to hear the door before he relaxed.

The following morning, Yuki walked out to the living room to find Shuuichi awake, tightly wrapped in a blanket and watching the TV "Why are you up so early?" "I didn't sleep last night." Shuuichi said harshly although he didn't intend to. Yuki gave him a questioning eyebrow. Yuki decided to let it drop and went in the kitchen to make a cup of coffee. He came back in and went to sit next to Shuuichi but Shuuichi moved enough to leave space between them. Yuki pulled Shuuichi close to him and looked him in the eye. Shuuichi gulped and Yuki chuckled. "How are you feeling?" "I'm fine." Shuuichi sighed in relief when his phone rang. "I'll be right back." Shuuichi said happily as he ran out of the apartment to take the call.

"Yuki. I can't stay tonight." Shuuichi said when he came back in, trying to sound upset when in fact he was happy about it. "Why not?" Yuki asked immediately. "I have to be somewhere tonight." Shuuichi said seriously. "You got to kill someone." Yuki said and looked away. "It's my job. I don't care if you disapprove." Shuuichi said angrily. "One day you're going to end up getting hurt really bad. You might end up dead." Yuki looked at him. "So? I don't fear death." Shuuichi folded his arms over his chest. "I'm going to wash my clothes and I should be out of here soon." Shuuichi said as he walked out of the room.

Yuki's POV

I was kind of disappointed when he told e he'd be leaving tonight. I knew Shuuichi would leave eventually but I didn't want him to. I wanted him to stay just a little longer. Not only that, but he was happy when he told me that although he tried to hide it. The main reason I don't want him to leave is because if I let him go now, I may not see him again. Then one day on the news I'll hear that he's been murdered or caught by the police. I don't want to lose him.

Shuuichi may be an assassin, the worst as they come, but if he hadn't told me who he was, I wouldn't have known and it really wouldn't make a difference about how the way I feel for him. He's completely different from how the rumors described him. For an assassin of his status, he's pretty clumsy, and he does have emotions and he doesn't really kill anyone he meets otherwise I would've been dead by now. Or maybe it's just me. But, when I first met him, he really was cold-hearted and the more I got him to talk and the longer I spent time with him, well, maybe I changed him. I smiled at the thought of such an accomplishment. Me changing a cold-hearted, blood thirsty assassin like him into a normal person. It seemed impossible but I guess it was easier than it seemed.

I haven't been as lonely since I brought him here and I'm happy that I was able to meet him. I just couldn't resist from the moment I laid eyes on him. His cold personality and attitude goes perfectly with his looks. Long, messy red hair that fall over his face and over his eyes so beautifully and convenient for me so I can brush them aside, soft skin and such tempting soft lips. When our lips brushed together, it took all I had not to pin him down on the floor and have my way with him. I really wanted to and I was so sure I'd end up kissing him, but he just had to ruin the moment and run away. But at the same time, I'm glad I didn't. If I did, he would've ran to the living room, grabbed his gun and shot me to death when he escaped. His looks and personality draw me too him and I can't control myself. But I think his eyes is what draws me the most. Violet orbs that pierce the soul when angry yet can looks angelic when he's playing around which is quite rare. Not only that, but they seem to be filled with such a deep sadness that couldn't be explained. I hadn't noticed the first time I saw his eyes, but it suddenly became noticeable as if he had kept all his emotions hidden and now that he's met me, he was able to show them freely. His actions may show one type of emotion but his eyes say something completely different which is why I can tell when he's lying or when he's hiding something. His eyes tell a whole other story that wants to be kept hidden and forgotten but at the same time can't be because it's a big part of him and his past and maybe the whole reason for who he is today. And ever since I realized this, it's as if he's struggling. Stuck between what to do, stay the assassin he's been for years or become a normal person.

Or maybe I'm giving myself to much credit and getting my hopes up but it would be nice if he left it all behind for me. I would give anything to kiss him just once. To feel those silky soft lips against mine. He may look innocent, but with all the people he's killed, he's not. Although he seems nervous each time I touch him or sit near him or wrap my arm around him. Maybe it's instinct because he can't trust anyone in the position he's in, but he's been with me this long, long enough to know I won't do anything even if I wanted to because it may not be the right decision to lose my life over that but it'll be worth it. Maybe he doesn't want to be in a relationship or maybe he's not into guys? Well, I can fix that, I got him to change this much. I hope it's for the better.

At any rate, he was leaving soon, and I had to make sure I would keep in touch with him. I got up off the couch and walked to the bedroom to find him sitting on the edge of the bed watching the machine in the bathroom, waiting for his clothes to be ready. "Hey." I said calmly. He turned to look at me and didn't seem as nervous or upset as he was before. "Before you leave, I want some sort of contact information from you." I said demandingly. "Why? What for?" He asked annoyed. "To keep in touch with you. What else?" I said as if it were so obvious. "Why would you want to keep in touch with me? And who says I want to keep in touch with you anyway?" He said it so stubbornly. But I wasn't going to let him out of this one. "Yuki?" He looked up at me and looked like he wanted to ask me something but was hesitating. For some reason, the look on his face didn't suit him and it bothered me to see him like that.

I yearned to kiss him especially if it meant not staring at the painful expression on his face. But if I did, it would make him angry and I would be untrustworthy. But at this moment, I couldn't care less. It would be my last opportunity, so I took the risk as I leaned down to kiss him softly. At first he struggled a bit but gave up after realizing I wasn't going to let him out of it. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer. The minute he allowed me entrance, I deepened the kiss and he let out a soft moan. His hands were clenched around the blanket on the bed as I kissed him. The feeling of his lips against mine, and the sound of his voice as he moaned made me want more and I went further as I pushed him onto the bed and pinned him down. He immediately clutched my sleeves and wasn't expecting this. I let my hands roam freely around his body, careful not to put to much pressure and open up his wounds. I slowly moved to his neck and nipped at it. "Ah, Yuki. . ." His voice was so sexy as he moaned my name in pleasure. I looked at him, he had a satisfied look on his face, it almost seemed like he didn't want me to stop but I could tell he did, so I stopped. The way he looked just then, his yes, I won't forget that and I would definitely like to see that look on him again. As I got off him and sat on the bed beside him, he sat up and hung his head down, trying to hide the blush with his bangs. "I'm sorry, Shuuichi. I got carried away." I said, trying to catch my breath. "Yuki." He whispered so low I could hardly hear him, but I knew he wasn't mad at the very least. "Why?" I looked at him, confused and h picked up his head and looked at me, tears forming in his eyes. "Why would you do that to me? Do you realize who I am? I could've killed you for that! But I'm not mad I'm just confused. Why would you kiss ME? Of all people? I'm not worthy. And I don't understand how you can put up with me especially with the way I treated you the past two days. Any normal person would have thrown me out of the house unless they were too scared to mess with me. . . But you. . . And why would you care for someone like me? I can't possibly return your love. I never been loved before and I never loved anyone either. I don't want to be involved with someone that way and if I did, it wouldn't be with a guy. So, why?" He cried, tears freely pouring from his eyes and it pained me more as each drop fell. I couldn't stand to see him like that and I didn't want to. Even though he might have just told me there's no hope for us to have a love life together, it didn't bother me. I just wanted to comfort him so I pulled his close to me and rested his head in my shoulder and held him tight, never wanting to let go. At this moment, I felt so guilty for all the dirty thoughts I might've had about us.

"Shuuichi, I don't care who you are or what you've done. You may not have been the nicest person, but you treated me as nicely as I treated you. And most of the time, you were just joking around. I could tell. I don't know how you are around others, but you're different around me. As long as you are you I don't care. Even you can be loved by someone, it's not impossible, even if your loved by a guy, you shouldn't be upset, you should be happy." I said as I pulled him off me to face me as I wiped the tears from his eyes and he sniffled as a bright blush covered his face.

Normal POV

Shuuichi clung back to Yuki and buried his face into his shoulder and took in the scent of his shirt. It was the first time anyone had showed him that kind of emotion. Most people looked at him with anger, disgust and pure hatred. It's the first time he's been showed love, especially that kind of love. Too bad Yuki was a guy but perhaps they could be friends although Yuki wouldn't give up on Shuuichi. He was happy that someone was able to love him and it made him happier that Yuki did, despite the fact that he was a guy. Why? Because Yuki was the first one to treat him with kindness and take care of him and treat his wounds and didn't look at him the way others did, the face he was so used to. Instead, Yuki just smiled and thought he was cute and often laughed at him. Yuki was the first person that hadn't feared him. Yuki released him and told him to go wash his face. When he let go of Shuuichi, he felt cold. Yuki's embrace was so warm and he didn't want to let go.

Then, a sudden wave of nervousness washed away all other emotions. What was he thinking? What was he doing? This was not a good sign as the words Hiro once told him, came to mind.

"A good assassin is able to master any technique but even if he has done so, there's always a possibility that he could lose if he shows any type of emotion. Why? Because emotions is one's greatest weakness. If you want to succeed, discard all emotions. However, if you do that, it will mean you are no longer human and you will truly be a blood thirsty killer. If that happens, you might lose yourself, as you are now and succumb to your evil side, the one thirsty for revenge. You may not be able to turn back to your normal self. You just wanted to be a temporary assassin but like that, you may end up one for the rest of your life. Although you may think it's a good idea because you will never feel any kind of pain and you can forget everything that's happened to you up until now, you are giving up the opportunity to live that normal life you always wanted." Hiro paused before continuing.

He took a deep breath. "And so I want you to remember this. One who does not feel pain, physical or mental, is not human especially one who forces himself to be immune to it by cutting himself over and over to drown out the mental pain thus beginning to feel numb when cutting himself because he's grown used to it the way you have. One who is immune to feeling such as cold and warm is not human. If it is one or the other, they can be considered human, but for you, there's no hope as both apply to you. That is why you are considered the devil, because both of these apply to you and you have skill that is said to be the devils own. Should you begin to feel any of this and falter between emotions, I advise you to run from battle as it can cause your greatest defeat and permanent death. You may not fear death, but if you die the way you are, there's a possibility you may not be reincarnated and granted that second chance. So if you want to live that happy life, don't let this happen. Even the slightest, I want you to come back to me and Fujisaki."

It wasn't something Shuuichi could easily forget since Hiro is the one who taught him everything he knows. His phone rang, startling from his thoughts and he picked it up. "H-Hello?" Shuuichi answered the phone hesitantly. It was Hiro. 'Speak of the devil.' Shuuichi thought sarcastically at the ridiculous figure of speech since he knew he was the devil. Unfortunately for him, Hiro noticed the tone of voice and asked if Shuuichi had been crying. Shuuichi tried to hide it and put on his normal attitude and tone of voice and acted his usual way. Of course, Hiro couldn't see the truth in Shuuichi's eyes over the phone unlike Yuki who listened the whole time. After he hung up, Shuuichi told Yuki that Hiro was coming to pick him up.

"Before he gets here, can you tell me why you are who you are? I want to know what pains you so. I want to know everything about you. What are you hiding about your past that lurks in your eyes and makes you suffer so much?" Yuki asked seriously, with a cold voice that startled Shuuichi as he didn't think Yuki could sound that way. "Some things are better left unsaid. If I told you, it might put you in danger." Shuuichi sighed. "I don't mind. I want to know no matter what because I care for you." Yuki looked him in the eyes and Shuuichi looked away trying to avoid his gaze. "Maybe another time." Shuuichi said simply although he had no intentions of telling Yuki. "I'm sorry, Yuki." "No, I'm the one whose sorry. I'm sorry you had to go through something so bad it made you suffer so much. You're not the assassin you're rumored to be. No, you're really a lost boy trying to find an answer, seeking the revenge he deserves and in the process, wanting to find someone who can truly love him so that he can live a normal, peaceful life." Shuuichi was shocked. Yuki had just read him as if he were a book. "How did you know-" Shuuichi asked astounded. "I'm a romance novelist after all. I should be able to tell these things. But, I'm mostly sorry that you had to get stuck like this. It's my fault you're having these thoughts and even crying and becoming clumsy. You might end up dead because of me. So for that. . . I'm sorry." Shuuichi just stared at Yuki and an awkward silence fell into the room not too long after Shuuichi said, "Don't be. It's not your fault. None of it is. . ."

A/N: I'm so sorry that this chapter was so slow and so long. It probably bored you all to death but I promise the next chapter is going to be awesome as Shuuichi reveals his dark past to Yuki (which makes that one of the two dark chapters I mentioned in the summary) and he begins to fall apart causing Fujisaki and Hiro to get angry and try to pull him back together as they find out Yuki's the one responsible. Then they prohibit Shuuichi from seeing him again and Fujisaki gets his cousin, Tohma dun dun dun to break them off and in the process, finding out that Yuki is Tohma's brother-in-law. So would he really use the powerful connections he has to destroy his beloved brother-in-law's happiness for the sake of an assassins reputation but not just any assassin, Shuuichi Shindou's! He could end up dead if he does and all sorts of problems rise up in the next chapie. I thin it'll be too much drama to fit into one chapter so it might be extra long. Anyway, review and give me any suggestions you may have they're highly appreciated and I will definitely give you credit at he opening for it! I promise to update tomorrow although it may be kind of late because I'll be getting home late from art school. So the next one may not be posted until late tomorrow night which gives you all enough time mwahaha. Oops, sorry for babbling XD I would also like to thank Morlana for the helpful suggestion to include Yuki's POV so I did in this chapie just for you. : )