What do u mean he s dead ? he s got to be okay I mean if I m okay he should be come on hotaru stop joking I pleaded
I desperately asked her for an answer but all she gave me was a shook with her head
My world shattered … hotaru hugged me but I pushed her away…. I didn't know what to do.. I just couldn't subside the fact that he s gone
' I m sorry mikan please its okay to cry ' he wouldn't want to see u suffer like this
Suddenly my voice turning cold I spat out like venom 'He s not there to see me like this he left me'
Don't be stupid Mikan u know that's not true !
Shut up hotaru he said he s gonna take care of me always and he left me now all alone in this world. 'Tears threatening to fall '
Am I no one to you mikan ?
Hotaruuuuuuuuu and I ran to her crying into her chest and she hugged back
He left me hotaru !!!
Normal pov
Mikan he s there in your heart isn't he ??
I let out a small smile and gave a nod
She smiled back at me
Later she came over to my place to spend the night with me so I wont be alone
We had dinner and went to sleep
I lay wide awake all I could think about was kyuu
When I closed my eyes I see his smiling face
Tears were sliding down my face I checked to see if hotaru was sleeping then turned to the side and cried harder
Flashback
he looked at me a bit seriously and asked me what I would do if he was no longer with me I didn't know why but I felt hot tears pouring out of my eyes and i said that I would kill myself… he laughed then smiles mikan always smile ok ?
end
thinking about that I quickly wiped away my tears and smiled a true smile and soon fell asleep
next day morning
we bid goodbyes and I went back to live with my parents
few months later
mikans pov
RIIIIIIIIINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What the ???? that s new ????
BAKA BAKA BAKA
Huh hotaru ???
BAKA BAKA BAKA
What s that for ???
For being so slow !!
HOTARUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
Baka stop shouting I cant hear properly you know
Sorry !!! " pouting "
So what are planning to do again ??
I gave her a small smile
BAKA BAKA BAKA don't tell me you are gonna waste your life doing nothing
Looks away
Baka do you think kyu would want you to waste your life like this ???
But hotaru
No more BUT S you better get doing something aiming the baka gun
'Sweat drop '
okay I said giving up
she is right I need to start doing something I thought
maybe that will help me forget him…. Or atleast be happy a bit atleast
she gave me a nod
after a few hours
mikan have u decided what you are gonna study ?
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mikan ?
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MIKAN ?????????
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BAKA BAKA BAKA
Huh sorry hotaru I said rubbing my poor head
So have you decided ???
Well I was thinking about joing art school
She gave a nod
Alrite I better get going bye mikan
Bye
Aftersome time
I picked up my bag and left the house for a walk after reaching a park I sat near a sakura tree where we both used to sit
Tearing s starting to form i lifted my hand and held on to the chain in my neck with a small heart
Flash back
You are lateeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I m sorry baby you know I didn't mean to be
I m not talking to you I said turning away
Will this change your mind he said fishing out a beautiful chain and I smiled and said yes
Can you help me put it on ? I asked
He smiled and gave a nod
Its beautiful just like you he said and leaned and gave me a kiss…..
End
As the wind blew my hair was dancing to the wind I just smiled remembering the thought
later after reaching home lying on the bed the last thought I had before sleeping was 'So tomorrow I m going to start at flamingo ' after that I dozed off