Dearest Kurt,

Don't hate me! Yes, I did it. I cut my hair. It's not a buzz cut but it isn't anywhere near what it was when I left. I had to do it, health and safety and all that. Oh well, it will grow back. Didn't the girl from The Secret Garden say that it continues to grow even after you die? I don't think that's accurate but it's quite appropriate in this situation, don't you think?

How are you doing? Is everything still okay? We move to our new location tomorrow. I can't tell you anything about it and honestly, I don't know very much to tell you anyway. I've still not heard any news about the other boys, or the girls. I tried to check the system solider ID files that they keep, but I only had time to check your name before I nearly got caught. At least you're safe. You should think of moving soon so let me know your new address. I can't go without writing to you if I can't see your face.

Skipper, that dog from the road, has turned into a natural born army dog. He's also going to be the dog I work with. I've been put into the bomb disposal unit, which isn't that bad actually. I have to carry a gun. I had to be taught how to use a gun. I hope every day that I will never have to use it. Yeah, I could get blown to bits, but losing an arm or a leg is nothing compared to losing you. I would trade my life a billion times just to make you safe.

There is a new guy in our unit, only just eighteen and fresh from school. He's so much like you, Kurt; it hurts me to look at him. He is so fragile and delicate. You even look similar. I heard his voice before I saw him and, even though you only sound the tiniest bit alike, I span around to look for you so fast I tripped over my own feet. I'm thankful it wasn't you but I can't help but avoid him. My heart breaks every time I think about losing you. I pray you are safe every morning and night. If something happened to you, I would never be the same man again.

I was
I thought

We went of this sort of party thing; we went paintballing in the forest at the back of our training ground to promote everyone working together before we actually go. Everyone seemed so happy. It seems so sad how we can be that way when we all know not all of us will come back. I look like one of those pieces of modern art that you like; the one with paint flicks on? I have so many bruises that it actually hurts to sit. But I guess this is the price you pay.

You're the only one who writes to me. Everyone else seems to have forgotten me. Has Finn been called in? He has experience and that's what they are looking for. He only left so he could be with Rachel, but none of us have a choice any more, not with how bad this is getting. They keep saying that they will make sure as few people die as possible, but how can they say that? We could all die, every single solider in the whole US army. I want to see you again before I die. I want go through that adoption with you. I know I was on the fence before but I want a family, Kurt, and I want it with you.

I miss you every second of every day. I will never stop missing you.

I love you, Kurt, I wish I could tell you in more than this stupid letter.

Sergeant Blaine Anderson- Your Blaine
xxx