Erin's POV
Thomas was actually trusting me enough to show me his house.
I wasn't going to judge him or anything but I felt good knowing he loved me enough to show me something so hard for him.
It did send flashbacks of Eli and Clare's problems on Degrassi..
I'm now Clare and Thomas is my Eli. Just like I always imagined…
Well.. Without all the black clothes.. and guyliner.. and Morty.. But still!
Now all I have to do is convince him to get his ear pierced and wear a little guyliner then it'll be all the more perfect.
I scooted a little closer to him in the car and interlaced my fingers with his free hand.
He smirked a little and pulled into the driveway of his house.
It was pretty big. Like one of those fancy houses you see on private golf courses.
He got out first and quickly came to my side to open the door for me.
I giggled at his attempt to be a gentleman and watched his face go from worried, to happy then back to worried.
I got out and looked up at him. He closed the door and turned towards me.
His eyes were dull and still carried the worried tint in them.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him down for a quick kiss.
He sighed and pulled away leaning his forehead against mine to stare into my eyes.
"Are you sure your ready to show me.? You don't hav-"
I was cut off when his lips crashed over mine kissing me so sweetly.
"I'm ready." he murmured against my lips and wrapped his arm around my shoulder to lead me too the door.
He slipped his hand under the 'Welcome' mat and grabbed the spare key. He finally got the door unlocked and closed his eyes as he opened it, stepping out of the way for me to go first.
I peered into the cluttered hallway leading to the kitchen. On the right side were stairs leading up to the 2nd & 3rd floor, and on the right was a family room connected to a dining room.
It wasn't as bad as i thought.
Quite similar to Eli's. But not quite as bad.. I don't think.
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"Erin!" I called and watched her walk out of the kitchen carrying 10 cartons of ice cream and 10 spoons. Everyone ran over and grabbed one, leaving her with mine and hers.
She dropped my spoon and carton in my lap and took her place beside me again before responding.
"Yea?" she shoved a spoonful of the icecream in her mouth and raised her eyebrow signalling for me to continue.
"I've been meaning to ask you since i got back.. how are you? Since your brother died and all?"
She pushed her eyebrows together and took another bite. "He isn't dead."
I looked at her strangely. "What do you mean..? When i stopped by Aveda in Iowa.. Kelly told me he died..?"
"What..?" her eyes filled with tears, and her spoon fell to the floor.
"I'm sorry Erin.." i tried to pull her into a hug, but before i could even get my arms up, she had her coat on and boots and was out the door starting her car.
"Erin NO!" Everyone called out. But by the time we all got outside she was gone.
We all stood there. Staring blankly at the street covered by a thin layer of snow.
Watching as the snow lightly fell covering her tire tracks.
"What the hell just happened?" Tricia demanded.
"I-I asked her about her dead brother, because when i was in Iowa, Kelly told me why she's so nervous and stuff over people who are hurt or dieing is because she has lost so many people in her life. And i thought she knew he was dead when i asked!" i looked down guiltily.
"Meg.. you know she's weird with death.." Tricia sighed heavily.
"Whoa guys.." Brooke spoke up and walked over to a black folded note laying where her tires used to sit.
"What is it?" Nicole and Meli said in unison.
Brooke picked up the slightly damp note and opened it. Her jaw dropped and tears started running down her cheeks.
"What happened?" Val asked while hovering over Brooke's shoulder to read it.
"Erin's going to kill herself." she whispered and choked on a sob and started bawling into Val's shoulder.
"No. No way.." i retorted and snatched the note from her hands.
"Read it out loud!" Kristiana mumbled.
I cleared my throat and started reading..
Everyone,
I hope you know how much i love all of you. Even you Nick. I thank you for how much love and support you've given me through out these years. I will cherish them no matter where i end up. By the time you even come close to where my body was, it will be gone. The knife, and rope will be gone as well as everythnig else. Don't waste your time on me. I love you all so much and i hope you can forgive me. Tell Thomas... and everyone else i love them.. I'm sorry it had to come to this. Goodbye..Forever.
-Erin Marie..Chambers.
"She was planning this..?" Nicole choked out.
Tricia's mouth was gaping and tears were running down her cheek.
Kristiana as a mess.
She was laying on the hood of her car, sobbing, and pounding her fist on the windshield.
"Kristiana stop. Your going to dent your car.." Meli said.
"What's going on?" Nick crept up behind us carrying a bottle of beer.
"Erin's commiting suicide."
"What..?"
OH EM GEE! ERIN'S COMMITING SUICIDE? SHOCKER XD
I hope you liked it.
Well probably not.. but uh.. yea.. Sorry it twas all about Erin.
I had to get her outta the way before i could get any more shit started
FORGIVE ME!
-RealizeHerPast