Hello again, I am under a great stress because of my university work and my head is about to explode…I still managed to get this done so you would better pat me on the head ;) Well, I decided to make a SasuNaru story again but I reversed their roles as "top and bottom" on mental level. I surely hope you enjoy this one and delight me by telling me your thoughts :D If you have brilliant ideas for my new stories, please tell! I am open to new ideas but off course in SasuNaru/NaruSasu context :D
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Pairing: Sasuke x Naruto
Summary: Best friends form a garage band and suddenly they have a record deal. Then why does it feel that the other does not enjoy it? Jealousy, what a wicked little game…but what if all he needed to do was ask - open the door into summer? SasuNaru, M for SEX
Disclaimer: I have no rights over the characters or whatsoever (do not sue me Mr. Kishimoto), I am just loaning them and returning to the rightful owner (Mr. Kishimoto).
We had our first big gig at Sunlock Stadium and hell, was that something! There were masses of people with banderols shouting our name. My ears rang with the sweet sound of voices yelling "Autumn Fall" and my heart raced like it was about to explode. This was us, they shouted our name and they wanted us. All I can remember is that I walked on to the stage and after it everything went white. I played like the devil himself and I saw Sasuke smiling faintly too behind the microphone. I bet no one else saw that, but I am glad he did not really hate this.
The gig was awesome and we had to play encore over and over again. I was all sweaty when we came off the stage. Sasuke glowed like a star after the gig and I had really hard time distinguishing him from an angel…
Suddenly Sakura shouted my name and ran to me hugging me really tightly. It was awesome, she smiled and kept holding me. Yeah, I said and I lift her up into the air. She giggled and it made me smile. Then I let her go in order to talk to Sasuke, but his face was all crumple. What is it, I asked him. Nothing, he said and turned away and left. What the hell was his problem?
It was about the time to leave for the after party that was held in our hotel, but no one had seen Sasuke. Where the heck was that bastard? We could not just leave him here so I asked the others to go ahead - we would follow afterwards. So they left and I had to find the little princess. I started out with the dressing rooms and after awhile I found him in the small storage room.
The room was dimly lighted and all I could hear were little snuffles and sobs. Sasuke? I asked. He coughed a little but did not say a word. What are you doing here, I continued as if we were a having a real conversation instead of only me talking. I got closer to him and I saw him sitting with his hands around his thin legs and shoulders slumped. He was shaking like an autumn leaf. He was crying.
I could not help that my voice got softer and I asked what was wrong. No answer. I lowered myself before him and I laid my hand gently on his, tell me, I asked concern in my voice. Nothing, he said and slapped my hand away. I took him by the shoulders but he just kept resisting until he burst out crying again. Before I could tell him that he was a cry-baby, he had already pressed our lips together.
I was too amazed to do anything; instead I just watched his eyes flickering behind his shut eyelids. My body started to melt as his tongue ravished my mouth and before I knew, I was already responding to his kisses. His lips were so soft, moist and rosy…and…what the fuck was he doing?? His hand had snuck inside my sweaty shirt and he was fondling my chest. I was sure his hand would sink through me since I felt like goo at that point.
It took some time for me to register everything and I tore us apart. Huffing and puffing I watched him as he chewed his bottom lip. I did not have the strength to say anything and my mind had shut itself, so all I could do was stand up and leave without saying a word. I went to the after party not knowing that someone dear to me had wrapped himself into a bundle and stayed where I had left him.
Everyone noticed that Sasuke was not at the party and they also noticed that I was not in the mood to talk about it so they let it slide. Good for them. I decided to drink my sorrows away and at some point I ended up dancing with Sakura on the table - without my shirt on. I drank as much alcohol as I could in order to forget the making-out but his taste stayed on my lips.
I felt his hands on my skin and I had to keep watch that it was not really happening. I was practically hallucinating until I threw up everything I had ever drunk. I sat next to the toilet, my legs sticking out abnormally. After I had threw up enough I just laid my cheek on the toilet seat and cried my eyes out. Unbeknownst to me, Sasuke was doing the same thing somewhere in the night.
The next morning I woke up and I had the worst hang-over ever. Good thing we did not have gigs until the next weekend so I locked myself inside four walls until that. I so did not want to see Sasuke and I also ditched practise since I already knew how to play the songs by heart. I needed time and more booze to get over this.
The feared Saturday came as expected and I practised alone as much as I could although it was only a plan to not to think about what was coming. He seemed quite normal when we met. We did not really exchange any words but it was not necessary.
The black eyeliner around his eyes made him look a little sinister but I did not give a comment on that. We stepped on to the stage and all worries fled my body. All the tension culminated into a pure bliss and freedom; I was doing my thing - playing my guitar and electrifying the audience. Why do they not have ventilators on the stage? I was sweating like a pig again.
It was time to play our last song but it seemed that Sasuke and others had made little modifications. Sasuke took the microphone and his voice came out like cream on top of an apple pie. We were going to play a cover this night and he said it held a special meaning. What the heck is he saying? Then, when the first chords were out in the open, I knew what we were going to play.
Off course I knew this song; I could play it blindfolded. This was the first song we practised with Sasuke, just the two of us. My fingers started to move along the neck of the guitar without me even realizing it. His eyes were glued to mine and I was sure his gaze would burn holes in me. He opened his velvety mouth and the words drowned me into a sweet oblivion,
"Please tell me why do birds
Sing when you're near me?
Sing when you're close to me?
They say that I'm a fool
For loving you deeply
Loving you secretly
But I crash in my mind
Whenever you are near
Getting deaf, dumb and blind
Just drowning in despair
I am lost in your flame
It's burning like the sun
And I call out your name
The moment you are gone
Please tell me why can't I
Breathe when you're near me?
Breathe when you're close to me?
I know you know I'm lost
In loving you deeply
Loving you secretly
Secretly
But I crash in my mind
Whenever you are near
Getting deaf, dumb and blind
Just drowning in despair
I am lost in your flame
It's burning like the sun
And I call out your name
The moment you are gone
Tomorrow
I'll tell it all tomorrow
Or the day after tomorrow
I'm sure I'll tell you then
Well I crash in my mind
Whenever you are near
Getting deaf, dumb and blind
Just drowning in despair
I am lost in your flame
It's burning like the sun
And I call out your name
The moment you are gone
The moment you are gone "
Saybia: The Day After Tomorrow
Was he singing this to me? He kept his eyes on me the whole time and my chest started to hurt so much. Why? What do you want? I wanted to ask so many questions but his stare pained me too much and I had no other choice but to turn my gaze away. I am sorry. After the gig I was exhausted and Sakura came to me worriedly saying she could not find Sasuke anywhere. I sighed.
What the hell was wrong with me? With that song he made me feel guilty of things I did not even know existed. I really needed to talk with him; I wanted to know what I had done to him, why he was so messed up. Did he have troubles with girls? I remembered that Michael Nesmith song "…'Cause when someone breaks your heart, you cry your eyes red…". Did someone break his heart?
I was ashamed to admit but I had not been a very good friend, I was all too wrapped in this whole band thing that I forgot that Sasuke was my best friend. I needed to tell him that, so he would remember that I was always there when he needed me and he could tell me everything. A smile formed on to my lips as I started to look for him, wait and I will come, I thought.
My smile faltered away the moment I stepped into his dressing room. I saw the pills lying around on the table and panic raised its head in me. What the fuck was going on? Sasuke, answer to me, I ordered but he just lied on the sofa. Sasuke, I shouted a little louder now with an angry voice but nothing happened. I ran to him and took out his hand trying to find needle marks on his perfect skin. I almost thanked God there were not any until I looked at him. His face was emotionless, pale and he did not respond to any of my attempts to wake him up. His chest arose a little from time to time but it was fading too. Sasuke, what have you done!?