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Matt's POV

I could hear two people talking. One of the voices didn't seem unknown to me, I had heard it somewhere. I didn't know where. I still was behind that door, crying silently and trembling still more each passing minute. I had to make myself feel alive. I had to find something to feel alive and good. My eyes fell on the only thing I saw in the room: the mirror. I had to break the mirror. I made a considerable effort to stand up without making noise, but the pain went through my body. I ran on the mirror and knocked over all my strength to break it with my fist. A new pain tore me and ice fell on my feet. I was finally relieved. The pain was there, I was alive. I was not dreaming. My blood joined the pieces of broken mirror. Where did this blood come from, I couldn't say precisely. But I felt alive, and to me, that was the most important. My head ached, my chest too. I was hot, very hot. The sweat continued to flow afloat. I had to do something. I couldn't stand the heat that enveloped me. I turned my head and saw the shower. Damn, a shower... A real shower... I missed that. That's what I needded. I took off my gown, dropped it to the floor and walked over to this famous shower. I felt a few more pieces sank under the soles of the feet, but it doesn't hurt my hand. I was even more alive. I didn't care completely. It was absolutely necessary that I take this shower.

External POV

"I'll do it."

Dr. Charles and Dr. Bennett turned in surprise to meet Gabby and Kelly. They both look worried. They had heard the entire conversation between the two doctors.

"Gabriela Dawson and Kelly Severide right?"

"Yes".

Kelly clutched the hand of Gabby, she was shaking. Dr. Charles seemed intrigued.

"You are Casey's friends?"

"I'm his best friend and roommate."

"I'm... I'm his ex-fiancée, and... And he is the father of my baby."

Bennett opened his mouth but no sound came out. Kelly looked down and continued to caress Gabby in the back and on the arms.

"Since you followed me from the waiting room, I can assume you've overheard our conversation..."

"He was tortured for four days without interruption. We know that... Anyway, I think that if I woke up in a hospital surrounded by doctors, including men looking like my captors, I would react the same way."

A sound came from the bathroom. The doctors turned their face to the door.

"What? What is this?"

"The shower..."

"What, he has no right to take a shower? It is probably to relax him!" Gabby tried to explain.

"This is not the problem. As I explained to dr. Bennett, there are two possibilities: either he is shut here because there were no other places close to enclose, or..."

Dr. Charles didn't know whether to continue. He saw the distress of the two friends and took a deep breath.

"Or he was also sexually tortured and the only place where a victim of this kind of torture feels safe, it is in the bathroom. And especially in the shower. Usually hot, to the point of burning the skin. This is to wash, clean feel after being soiled."

"Matt ... Matt was raped?" Gabby asked, completely frightened.

"We don't know, I didn't do tests when he arrived. There were no visible signs of sexual violence."

"Oh my God..."

Kelly was totally distraught. His best friend, his brother had been through hell, but he didn't know everything. He felt guilty, guilty for not having been there to protect him. Neither help overcome this. He knew that Matt was afraid, he was alone and he was panicking. He knew it as if he and Matt shared the same body.

"Let me talk to him. Please. I need to talk to him."

"He locked the door from inside."

"You... You can't reopen it? You have a special key, don't you?"

"Yes, we have one. But I think it would be a bad idea to enter the room if he is in panic. This might make things worse. Above all he has with him enough to kill himself if he wanted."

"What? What do you mean?"

"We heard the mirror shatter. I think he had to hit it and..."

"And you believe he make attempt on his life?" Gabby asked.

"It's a possibility, yes. In a panic, after what he went through, many people would end as soon as they have the opportunity."

"No, YOU don't understand! He was attached to the hands and feet with a rope very special: if he was struggling, it clasped her wrists and lacerated it to the blood. If he had really wanted to finish off his life, he would have done during his captivity."

"It's the truth Bennett?"

"Yes. The rope used to tie him up consisted of a single rope surrounded by barbed wire and iron wire. If he was struggling, it could kill him by piercing him radial arteries."

"So... Something kept him alive while he was tortured. Dawson right?"

"Yes? Uh, sorry, you scared me. You can call me Gabby."

"Okay. Gabby, is Matt still love you?"

Both Kelly ans Gabby were surprised by this question.

"I... I don't know... I... No, I don't know."

"He still love you Gabby."

Gabby jumped in Kelly's arms. He moved away from her but still held her hand. He opened his mouth.

"You broke up because of work. But he still loves you. He said nothing, but he didn't want having relations with another woman after you. It is me who have driven to do so. But..."

"But he was fine with that woman, right? Pridgen's if I remember correctly!"

"Gabby listen to me! He knew nothing of this woman before engaging a relationship. When he found out who she was, when she first came to the firehouse, he broke up right away. He would not risk his career because it meant he could no longer protect you."

" Protect me? About what?"

"He's worried about you. He knows the work and its risks. He knows it is dangerous and he doesn't want anything to happen to you. One day he told me that you were a great firefighter, the best he had to train for years. But he doesn't want to lose you, not like he lost Hallie."

Gabby was now in tears. Matt protected her, even after their break. Because he still loved her.

« He loves you Gabby. He would be ready to give his life to save you. And even if he is not aware, he will have a new reason to live ».

Gabby rolled her eyes and understood. She dropped to her hand to her belly and stroked it.

"He... He always wanted to have children. I don't know if this is the right time for him."

"Gabby, if it can afford to bring him back to reason, calm him and help him through this ordeal, we have to try".

Gabby took a few seconds before nodding and smiling slightly.

"You're right, Kelly."

He smiles. Then he took a serious tone, turning to the doctors.

"I'm going to talk to him."

Matt's POV

The wall of the shower was cold. Almost frozen despite the condensation. The water was just the opposite. It burned me, hurt me, but I didn't care. I still chattering teeth, I shivered. I had to keep warm with hot water... I was there, back against the wall, water dripping on my shoulders, eyes closed. On the floor, the water mixed with blood. I was bleeding? It was not a big deal. I just wanted to be under water. Feeling alive. My head ached, hammer banging increasingly strong inside, my vision became blurred a few minutes ago, my breathing fast and shallow. I slid to the ground. I had no strength in the legs anymore, or the rest of the body. I felt I still cried. I was crying? I didn't know.

"Matt?"

I didn't move, my breathing was more or less cut off. That voice... I knew it.

"Matt, it's me... This is Kelly."

Kelly...

"Matt, please open up to me."

No... I knew he couldn't see me, but I shook my head. My teeth were chattering again. It came back to me: fast and shallow breathing, cold, blurred vision... It was like a shock.

"Matt?"

I listened to this voice carefully. She seemed friendly. I heard a discussion between that voice and another.

"And if he is injured and can not open the door? You thought about it?"

"Kelly, he is panicked, probably in shock. He will not want to leave the bathroom, especially if he is in the shower. He has to do it himself."

"And if he can not! You said he had broken the mirror. And if he was injured or breaking when the chips have fallen, or to go in the shower?"

"That's a possibility."

"A possibility that you don't take into account I see! I knew Matt for much longer than you, I live with Matt for nearly a year. I know what he has in mind. If he doesn't open the door, it's because he is injured, and not a little. Either you'll open up that door now or you will have a death in your arms and I will attack you to court for failure to assist a person in danger and manslaughter!"

Kelly didn't laugh. It was... I don't know. My body no longer responded to my commands. I heard the lock and the door opened slowly.

"Matt?"