What we find in a soul mate is not something wild to tame but something wild to run with. - Robert Brault
Chapter 2:
I was pulled out of my train of thoughts when Keona jerked the car to a stop. - Can this Bitch even drive?
I usually carpool with my freinds, Luna and Allison but I was a little early today and they are always late. So today I got a ride from my bitchy sister and her three minions - Reese,Chanel and valentina. They are complete air heads but they are great freinds, although their exterior is in total bitch mode they got a heart of gold. They love to shop and dress me up and try new styles for which I willingly agree - It is actually quite fun. They both have the native american looks although Valentina got a fake tan over her already tan skin - for which I laughed my ass off and she also has light blue contacts. Reese had died her hair blonde and has light blue eyes as well whereas Chanel has died her hair a rich red and has her normal light brown eyes enhanced by the smoky black eye shadow.
I stepped out the black Chevrolet cobalt and proceeded to make my way over to Christian and his friends - Ryan, Sean, Brett and Blake they all had pretty much the same looks with cropped or shoulder black hair and golden russet skin.
When I finally reached them a strong smell of smoke and whiskey hit me. This always happens. My boyfriend just happened to be an alcoholic.
Christian smiled his drool worthy sloppy smile while his boys just grinned and wolf whistled at me. Christian made his way over his sleek black hair jelled back and his button up grey shirt swung casually over his blue faded jeans. He waved slightly while chucking his bottle on the floor causing it to shatter.
"Hey baby, how you doin'" He grabbed me when he reached arms length and placed a wet sloppy kiss on my lips forcing me to open my mouth and go deeper but I couldn't stand the stench and going at it, at a public parking lot does not look good on my records.
"Chrissie stop" I tried to wriggle out of his grasp but he held tighter.
"You know what I want, Bitch" He growled, his eye's filled with lust as he leaned towards my chest.
"Not here" I hissed at him, he pouted then dragged me over to his freinds who were eyeing me like a piece of meat.
It was disgusting but I learnt to live with it. It was one of the prices I had to pay to get a boyfriend around here.
"Hey babe, missed us?" they all cooed in unison while flexing the small amount of muscle they owned. I laughed at that and slapped them playfully on the head.
"Hey guys, have you seen my girls? " I asked Just to make sure that they weren't already here.
Just then Luna's red ford mustang pulled over and I sprang to my feet sprinting across the parking lot and slamming into them. We all screamed in delight and jumped around like peppy teens.
Luna was always teased by girls and boys for being so called ' fat ' but I didn't see it, She was beautiful in my eyes. Her eyes were to die for they were beautifully shaped and had a light caramel color to it and it was almost topaz in the sun. Her lips were full and her hair was thick and curly and she died it dark red. She was wearing leggings that had tribal markings on it matched with camouflage shorts and combat tank top that matched her curves perfectly.
"Hey tall bitch" she slapped me on my back.
"Hey I'm only 5'7' and A few inches taller than you" I said in my defense and slapped her back.
Allison is the prettiest out of us, I have to admit. She has luscious curly brown hair that reaches up to her back and has big brown eyes and can do the cutest puppy dog eyes ever!
She sometimes complains about being to pale because her father is a paleface and what not but she even with the whole pale face thing she is still really beautiful .She knows this though she hates to admit it.
Allison was wearing a pink floral skirt matched with a nude top and nude ballet flats, she was wearing a light blue leather coat and was carrying her matching Gucci bag.
"Wow honey, I'm speechless" was all I can say.
"You too sweetheart" She giggled as she motioned me to spin around. "I sure hope you win the heart of a certain boy" She giggled again. Allison knew my secret and Luna. It was hard not to tell.
"My clothing will have no effect on him, he hates me remember" I said motioning to where Christian sat. They all nodded their heads in agreement and I looked down at my clothes,as my thoughts started to swim around my head. God I hate my life.
My clothes were nothing special. I was wearing black skinny jeans and a black chiffon button up, dress paired with my signature brown leather jacket and my cozy glossy black ballet flats. I didn't like wearing heels, I was already one of the tallest girls in school, It didn't have to get any worse. I had my leather backpack and had some of my notebooks and diary in my hand.
My diary, should not be shown to anyone. It was one of my treasured belongings in the world. It had secrets that should never be opened by anyone.
Their were usually just doodles of Jared and me, Jared+Kim 4ever and Kim Cameron and other personal things. Sometimes I stuck a picture of him in here from the yearbook and also draw him and me holding hands and looking at the sunset. I love to draw. Especially manga and anime and I've gotten quite good at it over the past few years.
I ended up getting more and more detailed as the pages of my diary flew by. I even decided how many kids I wanted with him - Two - and where I want my honeymoon - Hawaii -
I even drew my wedding dress, a elegant strapless cream dress with blue roses on the side and draped with a blue lace and tulle. Wow I'm so pathetic.
"After you stop your little fetishes about Jared, maybe we can head over to class now" Luna snapped me out of my thoughts with a slap. It was just me and her in the parking lot now, well except for my boyfriend and freinds who were still prancing around with bottles in their hands.
English passed in a blur with Christian rubbing small circles on my back and Luna talking about something to do with her sister and her mom. I kept on fantasizing about Jared. Walking hand in hand down the beach, sharing ice cream while watching the sunset, going to the movies and having a hot make out session in the back seats of his car and - wow I was getting wet. I must stop my thoughts and get my head out of the gutter.
I wasn't technically cheating on Christian since I wasn't actually with Jared. Christian hasn't always been faithful to me, I knew he cheated on me several times. I've even witnessed it, but I was too desperate to actually have someone love me. Too desperate to forget about Jared, I knew Jared hated me because of my associations with Christian and I don't blame him, Christian is a jerk.
Jared has always seen me as the vulnerable slut of christian Evans. He knows the rumors, I know he knows.
Every time I sit next to him in History he gives me a hard glare while snorting in disgust and turning to some of his slutty girls near his desk. who keep pushing their breasts higher and fluttering their eyebrows, in hopes of getting laid.
I wondered if that was the type of girls, Jared goes for. The slutty, air headed bitches. Who lash their tongues at each other and only talk about sex and boys.
I would never be that type of girl, I'm never that outgoing. I can never hunt a man and take him as my prey. I've always been this stupidly vulnerable Kim always shy when around boys.
I can never make Jared mine, I can never claim him. I always had Christian even though he was a sleazy two-timing dirt bag, He actually cared, actually paid attention. I could never tell christian that my heart belonged to Jared, He will kill me.
But a women's heart is a deep ocean of secrets and no matter how long it takes the secrets will still remain a mystery.