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IMPORTANT! I forgot this yesterday because my mind is everywhere with work, and music and the works, but the little "alone time" scene was written by SMCKI10 and the credit for that goes to her not me, so I wanted to let everyone know and thank her for the work.
Chapter Two: What If.
A week had passed since the party, since the slip up in protection, and Rachel and Finn were distant from their friends, if they were together in a group they seemed detached, but the two of them were inseparable, there was barely a moment Finn stopped holding Rachel's hand unless it was to go home for the night. They were waiting another week to try a home test and if it came back positive they were going to make sure by going to the doctors office.
The two of them were sat in Rachel's room as her fathers were away for a week, today was the first day, Rachel had convinced Finn to stay with her for the week and his parents had agreed to it as long as they didn't 'do anything' a bit too late but considerate none the less. Finn was laid out on Rachel's bed with Rachel curled on top of him, her head over his heart, they were both silent.
"Finn, what do we do if I am… you know with child?" Rachel asked him quietly reaching to take his hand, interlocking their fingers his thumb running back and forth over her knuckles.
"Whatever you want to do Rachel is what I want to do, if you want to keep it I'll pick up extra shifts at Burt's auto shop, if you want to give it to an older family I'll sign the papers, if… if you want to abort it I'll hold your hand through it. We'll make it work somehow I promise, I won't be a dead beat through this, we'll be equal partners and we'll figure this out." He replied his voice cracking, Rachel felt terrible, Finn had been through this once only a year ago, only to find out the baby wasn't his. This baby would be, but how would Rachel's decision affect Finn?
"Abortion isn't even an option Finn." Rachel sobbed, breaking down again, Finn squeezed her hand and wrapped his free arm around her body.
"Look, we don't even know if you are yet but in a week we'll make a decision depending on the results, but it's me and you forever okay? 'cause I love you, so much, and whatever decision you make I'll support you, and we have all of our friends, you can talk to Quinn about it." Finn said, his voice tight, he'd tried to stay strong for Rachel and he was still trying. He broke down when he was at home, when everyone else was sleeping.
"I love you too you know, and I don't want to hurt you with whatever decision I make, you lost a baby before Finn, I don't think I could do that to you." She cried, her tears soaking into his shirt, her body shaking in his arm.
"Rach, what about your dreams of Broadway, I wouldn't take that away from you if you want that more, don't you mind my feelings, I'm happy whenever you are."
The two of them were a mess, they were hoping an answer would ease it slightly, Finn was clueless of what to do and Rachel was struggling to wrap her head around it all. Another week had passed and Finn sat outside Rachel's bathroom door, his back against the wood, his eyes closed, and tears rolling down his face. One more minute and they should have the results, Rachel hadn't come out of the bathroom since she went in there, and Finn hadn't moved. The clock ticked away the seconds.
"Rachel it's time let me in." Finn said standing up and walking into the bathroom when Rachel unlocked the door, he walked up behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist as she fumbled to pick the stick up. "I don't understand what the symbols mean so you'll have to tell me."
"Well a pink plus sign for a teenager isn't good Finn… I'm pregnant." Finn spun her around and held her tightly to his chest his right hand on her stomach. He broke down then, his tears flowing freely down his cheeks, they were seventeen, what would they do with a child?
"W-what are we going to do?" he asked, his heart clenching in his chest as he held on to Rachel as if she was his lifeline. At least that feeling seemed to be reciprocated.
"Would you stay with me if I told you I was keeping it?" she sobbed, her hands rubbing his back as they stood there in the bathroom, wrapped in each other, drowning in fear.
"Of course I would Rach, I would never leave you, not now, not ever, I know I'm only seventeen, but I know what I want. Are we telling our parents now, or…"
"Can we tell them after the doctors appointment next week?"
"Whatever you want Rachel, I'll be behind you the whole way. I'll make sure the halls are clear when we go back to school before you walk through, I'm going to do everything I can for you and our baby."
The pair decided that night that they would keep their baby and raise it together, make their life around that when the time came. Rachel had made up her mind that once their parents knew, she would go to Quinn, no matter how frightening the idea may be. Her fathers arrived home the night they found out, and Finn left at ten thirty to go home, leaving Rachel in her room listening to music to distract her. She was terrified, she knew her fathers would never kick her out, she'd asked if they would when the glee club found out about Quinn, but she still didn't know what they would think of her. They were worried that Finn's parents would have a heart attack though when they found out.
Rachel cried herself to sleep that night, as she had almost every night since the day after the party, meanwhile across town Finn was wide awake sat on his bed, his mind running a mile a minute. He could tell Kurt knew something was wrong, he was waiting for the knock on his door and his brother to ask if they could talk. A few minutes later Finn opened the door and let Kurt in before he even knocked.
"Finn what's wrong with you? Rachel too, you guys have hardly spoken to any of us in weeks." Kurt said moving to sit on Finn's bed, his brother slumping down beside him. Finn shook his head and let out a sigh. "Finn, I know something's up."
"Kurt, I want to tell you, 'cause I know you'll listen but I just can't." Finn groaned looking down at the floor, his mind running over what his life would be like soon. Kurt patted his shoulder and stood up before heading to the door. "S-she's pregnant Kurt, just don't tell a single soul."
"Finn you know I wont, but I truly hope you and Rachel decide what's best. We'll all support you, whatever it is you decide." He smiled walking through the door to his room, leaving Finn alone again. Finn who's heart was torn in two, who's mind couldn't think of anything but Rachel and his baby. Finn who was seventeen and invincible but with a child on the way, it was a lot to process, all he knew was he would do whatever he could for Rachel and their baby.
Who knew, maybe they'd be a real family one day, Finn sure wished that was the way it would go. It was time to grow up and say goodbye to 'what if' it was time to grow up and be the man he needed to be through this, because what if it was a rough ride coming up? It wasn't supposed to be a smooth ride the whole way there. What if people talked, it was a small town, it didn't matter, the people who talked didn't know anything about his life. The new words were now 'so what'. Because so what if Rachel was having his baby, he'd be with her the whole way and he'd love her and that baby as if it were the only thing keeping him alive. So what if they were only seventeen, it wasn't anyone else's business.
He stood up, took a deep breath and opened his eyes, this was his time to show Lima he wasn't the loser they would label him. When he and Rachel graduated, they would make it to New York, he'd watch their baby when she wanted to go audition, and he'd get a job to earn the money they would need, but right now he was focused on the summer ahead of him. Tomorrow he was up at six for his first twelve hour shift, he needed some sleep.
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