So Clarke and I sat by the fire with our stomachs grumbling for nourishment. Sitting around in silence listening to the grumbling was driving me insane, so I decided to walk around for a while. Clarke didn't want me to, but I told her that I would not wander too far. She was my sister, and she was just being protective. I hated that on the ARC we had to keep it a secret that we were siblings. It's a long story, but I'll probably save it for another time. Maybe after Jasper was safe. I didn't really know him, but I was worried about him. He seemed like a nice guy, and one of the few that didn't deserve to be in prison. I looked out in the woods. It was amazing and scary how it had changed. In some ways it was beautiful. I heard someone breathing behind me. I had never been more scared in my life. I thought maybe a grounder was behind me. I held tight to the makeshift knife I brought with me. I wasn't a good fighter, but I was going to go down swinging. As turned around and propelled my knife at the assailant it stopped. Someone had grabbed my arm. Then I heard, "It's just me."

I looked up, and I saw it was Bellamy."Oh…I'm so sorry."

He let go of my arm and said, "Its okay. You can never be too careful."

For what seemed like forever, but was actually seconds, we stood beside each other in silence.

Then he broke the silence."You look so familiar."

I looked into his eyes and lied." You've probably just seen me around the ARC."

Then it seemed like something hit him." No, you're the girl."

"What girl?"

"The girl that stared at me through her cell door."

He smiled.

" would you think that?"

"You're eyes. I could never forget how beautifully blue they are."

I was speechless.

Then he smiled again and said," I saw it."

"Saw what?"

"The drawing."

I was so embarrassed. He probably thought I was a stalker.

"I…um…I."

"I thought was amazing."

This time I smiled. "How did you see it?"

"Well as a janitor when the guards would check all the rooms I had to clean up afterwards. Then I saw all of your drawings. They were beautiful."

"Thanks."

"Can I ask you something?"

"Sssure…."

"Why draw me?"

"It's stupid."

He smiled." I bet it's not."

I smiled." I was inspired by your eyes."

I think this time he actually blushed. This made me smile again. For the next few moments we just stood there in silence looking into each other's eyes. This silence didn't feel awkward like before. It felt nice. Bellamy moved closer to me. Our breath began to mingle together. Then we kissed. His kiss was intoxicating. I wanted more and more, and so did he. He was the stronger one though, because he stopped. He still held me close for another second. When he finally let go I missed the warmth of his touch. I'm not sure if it was so amazing because it was my first kiss, or because it was my first kiss with Bellamy Blake.

We both returned to the camp, but separately. I knew what Clarke would say, because I know how much she dislikes him. I mean I know he was kind of starting total anarchy, but I guess that's what they mean when they say love makes you blind. I'm not sure if its love, but it's something. Bellamy wants to take off all of our wristbands, so the ARC won't come down. He was so charismatic that I almost took mine off, but I couldn't do that to Clarke or my mom and dad. I decided that for now whatever was going on between me and Bellamy would be a secret. I don't want to make a fuss over something that may not last.

In the morning we continued to look for Jasper. We came across a lake where Finn saw blood. There was so much of it. Part of me wished that it wasn't Jasper's. We followed the blood, and there was Jasper tied to a tree. He looked so helpless. Clarke was the first to run to him, but then she was falling. Luckily Bellamy caught her. He stood there for a few seconds. It was like he was weighing the pros and cons of pulling her out. I was about to run up to her when suddenly he pulled her up. I was so relieved. I hoped that he saved her because of me, but I wasn't sure what was running through his head. We took Jasper and went back to camp.

That night Bellamy was considered a hero to everyone because he brought meat to the people. He seemed to enjoy the attention. I know this makes him seen vain, but I guess when you have a crush on someone you overlook the little faults. I mean nobody's perfect. I ate with Clarke and Finn even though I wanted to eat with Bellamy. Although we sat apart he stared at me the entire time. I started to wonder if we had inhaled some toxin and now could read each other's minds because he just seemed to be looking into my mind and absorbing everything. Then he motioned for me to join him in the woods. I nodded in agreement. Now I just had to ditch Clarke. I turned ready to give her some lame explanation about being tired until I noticed how she was mesmerized by Finn in the same way that Bellamy mesmerized me, so I slowly walked away.

It was dark, but because of the glowing forest I could see Bellamy perfectly. I could see his perfect eyes, his perfect hair, and his perfect lips. He held his hand out, and I didn't hesitate to grab it. We walked far enough away from the camp to be alone, but not too far enough to not know the way back. We sat under a tree just talking about random stuff. It was nice. Then he asked me something I didn't expect. He asked," So what's the deal with you and Clarke?"

I was shocked, but I replied," What do you mean?"

"Well…you follow her around and do whatever she says and she treats you as if she was your big sister."

I stayed quiet and tried to look away from him. I didn't want to lie about it anymore, so I chose silence.

Something seemed to click for Bellamy. He said," Of course, she is your sister but how?"

My silence gave me away. I wanted to tell him, and if I didn't tell someone I was going to burst.

I replied," Her dad and my mom use to date when they were younger, and a few months after Clarke was born they had an affair. My mom and dad were trying, but they couldn't have a child. I'm not sure if my mother did it because she wanted a child or because she wanted my dad. Clarke's mom and my stepdad agreed to keep it a secret because my stepdad so badly wanted a child and I don't think Clarke's mom could do that to my parents, so we kept it a secret. Clarke and I could see each other, but never call each other sister. We always had to hide it, but that's why she's so protective of me."

Bellamy responded," I know what it's like to have a sibling, and I know what it's like hiding it. I'm so sorry you had to do that."

"It's okay."

He smiled at me again. I felt like I could read a mind again, because his face seemed to say that he was glad that someone understood him in a way that nobody could. I wonder if that's what he was thinking or was it just me.

"You wanna go for a walk?"

"Okay."

We walked around hand in hand. It felt so right and so amazing. I wanted to stay in this moment forever. They said the earth would be a new beginning for us, but now I really think that it will be. We stopped and Bellamy turned to look me in the eyes. He still looked amazingly gorgeous, but I thought I saw a twinge of sadness. He placed a soft and tender kiss on my lips. Then he said," I'm sorry." I was more confused than ever now. Then someone grabbed me from behind. I saw that it was Murphy. I was really scared now. What was going to happen? I looked at Bellamy, but he wouldn't look me in the eye. Then some more boys came in front of me smiling. I was wrestled to the ground by Murphy. I was afraid they were going to kill me. Another boy held my arm while another grabbed a knife. I struggled as best I could, but I was powerless. Then they might as well killed me because to the ARC I was dead. They cut off my wristband. Then they just left me except for Bellamy. I tried to hold back the tears, but it was getting hard. Then Bellamy said," I'm sorry." Then he walked away. Now that he was gone I couldn't hold it anymore. I cried. My parents think I'm dead, and soon they will be dead as well. I couldn't stop crying. I was a fool. Bellamy just pretended to like me. He just wanted my wristband. I had never so quickly loathed someone. How can you love someone one minute then hate them so much the next? I cried into the ground. It seemed like all I could do. Everything I thought was real wasn't. Earth was not a new beginning. It was just the same pain just in a different setting.