Previously

I wrapped my arms around her crying form while I whispered assuredly in her ears. My Hand started stroking her soft hair. At that moment I knew I could trust her. Realising that it wasn't just a nice feeling having her near but indeed love. Even if Dean was a jerk most of the time he was right with one thing: Life had to go on. Jessica would want me to find someone again. She was my first love and I would always remember her but now I found someone new.

Now

Terry's POV

I couldn't explain why I told Sam about everything but I knew that I could trust him. Unable to read his feelings I could just rely on my own. And I felt save in his arms. Normally I would be ashamed to cry in front of others. With Sam it was different.

He was the first guy I accepted a date with. Our date was great. Not only that we had a lot in common but he was sweet, reliable and understanding. And damn if he wasn't good looking. Everybody has flaws and bad habits but I couldn't find anything wrong with him.

Should I go with him? Would he really want to take me with him? What about my mom? Could I dare to leave her all alone? My mom was old enough to live on her own. But I doubted she would be able to.

Sam was right. I should think of myself. I suffered for a long time and I tried to help her. If my mom didn't want any help then my afford was invain.

I didn't know if Sam wanted me to come with him and his brother. Where were they going? Eventhough I didn't know a lot about their lives and despite the short time knowing Sam I just knew that I could trust him. I never felt as comfortable around someone as I felt with Sam.

„It's late. We should go to bed. You can have my bed and I will take the couch. Lets talk about everything in the morning." Sam said. I hadn't realised how tiered I was until now. He was a real gentleman offering me his bed. Despite the fakt that I never had a boyfriend before, I told him that he should take the bed and I would sleep on the couch because the couch didn't look to comfortable. And with Sams tall frame he would have trouble fitting on it. „No, Terry it is ok. Just take the bed I am used to sleeping on less comfortable sofas." He told me, but I refused to take away the bed he paid for. „Sam I don't want you to sleep on the couch. You paid for the bed and I will not take that away from you. We can share if you want to" I reasoned. I was surprised of my own suggestion because I never had shared a bed before. Sam looked at me like a deer caught in the headlight. „Terry you don't have to do that. I am ok with the couch."

„Sam it's ok. I don't mind sharing. I trust you to not do anything that would make me uncomfortable." I told him. He promised me that he would never do anything to hurt me and accepted the offer. As soon as we were lying in the bed I fell into a deep slumber full of nice dreams about leaving town.

Sam's POV

I hadn't slept so good in ages, it seemed. So when I woke up I wasn't ready to let the feeling of comfort go. I felt an unusual weight on my chest. When I opened my eyes and saw Terry resting against my body, memories of the previous night came flouting back to me. I turned my head and saw Dean with a shit eating grin looking at me. "Had a good night Sammy?" he asked me. I groaned. Of course he would assume I slept with Terry. I didn't try to correct him because it was a lost cause with my older brother.

Trying not to wake the girl in my arms I carefully got out of bed and went to use the bathroom.

When I got back to the room, Dean was already waiting for me. We went back to the bathroom to talk. I retold him the situation. In return he gave me an angry glare. "We can't take her with us Sam and you know that. So get that out of your head", he told me before I could even ask him if he was ok with taking her with us.

During my shower I had thought about taking the girl I loved with us. "Dean we have to help her"

"Sam I am your brother and I want what's best for you. I know you love that girl and that she needs help but do you realise that you have to tell her everything about us? We would drag her into another dangerous life. I know that she has to get away from her mother but Sam we hunt demons." He tried to make me understand that my decision was bad. Dean just didn't know that I had thought things through. So I told him to go out get us breakfast while I would tell Terry about the family business. "That is a very bad idea Sam. I can't stop you, can I?" he asked. I just gave him a stubborn look and he left.

I made my way over to Terry. She was starting to stir. I sat down on Deans bed facing her. Terry opened her eyes and smiled when she looked at me. I smiled back. "Good morning sunshine" she said. "Good morning Terry" I told her. I was nervous because I knew I had to tell her now before Dean would come back. "Terry, I have to tell you something important." I started. Terry sat up. Her smile fell at the urgency in my voice. "You can tell me anything you want, you know that Sam. It doesn't matter what it is, I will listen to you" she told me.

"It is about the life my brother and I live. We aren't going to college. We are not just on a roadtrip.", I started before explaining about our lives on the road hunting down evil supernatural creatures. I could tell that Terry was listening intently but she never interrupted me to ask questions. She just listened silently. I was afraid that she didn't believe me or that she would leave to go back to her abusive mother. So when I finished telling my life I was afraid of her reaction.

Terry didn't say a word. She just sat there looking at me. The silence was making me even more nervous. I wanted to know what she thought and if she was able to trust me.

"So you have vision?" , she asked me. I answered her by describing the things I saw in my visions and the pain afterwards. "Wow that must be horrible to see all those people die. I never thought much about all those supernatural creatures and things like that but I guess you know what you do.", she said. I felt a weight lifting off my shoulders. Terry believed me. Still I had the feeling that she needed to tell me something important. So I gave her some time and waited for her to find the right words. "I should tell you something about me that I never told anybody else." , Terry said.

"You don't have to say anything you don't want to tell me. It is ok for me not to know everything. I know you trust me and I trust you Terry but we have time to get to know each other. That is if you want to go with me. Let me take you away from your family and your problems. I want to get to know you, every single detail of you. Please Terry come with me and my brother. Join us on our road trip. It isn't always easy and it will be often dangerous but I will protect you.", I told her.

"Thank you for your trust Sam. I don't know if I can join you on your trip. What does your brother think? I don't think he would want me to go with you, Sam. Even if I go I would just be in your way. I know you would protect me but you should be able to concentrate on the people you need to save from the things that go bump in the night and not me.", Terry answered.

That was just something she would say. Everybody was worth help but she wasn't. What could I possibly tell her to change her mind.

"I should go home. I already missed work and I have to apologise for that too. Lets meet later at the bar, ok?" , she said and I told her to be careful.

I didn't want her to leave but I knew she needed some time to think things over. And I needed to talk with Dean. He had to help me. We just couldn't let Terry stay behind. Why was it easier to save people from demons and ghosts than to save them from their problems with humans?

"Where is your girlfriend?", Dean asked while entering the room. "She went home" I said still staring at the ceiling. "Tell me you didn't", he said. I just ignored him. "Great. You did. How could you tell her about the family business? Sam I told you not to tell her. Damn, I knew she wouldn't believe you." "That's not the problem, Dean. She believed me but she isn't coming with us. Terry thinks she will just get in our way."

Dean sighed. "Sam, she is right. She will get in our way and it's too dangerous to come with us", he reasoned but that just made me angry "Because it is safe for her to live with her mother who is abusing her? Come on Dean. I know that it isn't easy for her to go with us but she will not be in more danger than now. Besides I can protect her from the things that go bump in the night but I can't protect her from her family. I just have to help her but she thinks that she isn't worth our help. She didn't say that she feels not worth being loved but I know she thinks that. Dean, I have to help her. I need her to be safe with me." Because I love her, I finished in my thoughts. He didn't need to know that part.

"Find us a hunt, Sam. I am going to the bar and we are leaving in the morning.", my brother said and left. Not giving me a chance to argue. While looking for a hunt my thoughts drifted back to my night with Terry. She looked so peaceful sleeping in my arms. I wanted to spend my entire live with her in my arms. Of course I knew that this was wishful thinking but still.

Looking at my watch I realised that I just had two hours left before I had to go to the bar. I decided to take a shower and head to the bar earlier.

Later at the bar I saw that Terry was already there and she was talking with Dean. Great now my chance to talk her into leaving with us was gone. I was sure Dean already told her how good it was that they both considered her coming along would be a bad idea.

I greeted them and Dean left almost immediately giving Terry and me some space which I was thankful for. How would I be able to leave her behind? I was in a bad mood. Terry knew and she tried to get me to loosen up a little. At first it didn't work but in the end we had a great time.

Dean already told her about us leaving in the morning. It was surprising that she wanted to leave relatively soon and go back to the motel with me.

At the motel Terry sat down on my bed. "Dean told me you are going to leave tomorrow. I guess this means this is our last night together.", Terry said. "It doesn't have to be. You can come with us, Terry. I know it is a difficult decision but I don't want to leave you here alone."

She smiled sadly at me. "Don't worry so much about me Sam. I can watch out for myself. Lets not talk about upsetting things. We should enjoy the time we have left before you leave. How about watching a movie?", Terry asked. I decided to give in. We picked a movie and made ourselves comfortable in front of the TV.

Time went by fast and soon Terry said goodbye. I walked her home. Again we enjoyed our company in silence. When we arrived at her apartment Terry turned to me. "It was nice to meet you, Sam. I had a great time and I just wish you the best", she told me. "I don't want to leave you behind but I understand that it is too soon for you. There are a lot of things I want you to know but it's not the right time. If you need something just call me." , I said. Then I leaned in and kissed her.

After the short kiss she went in and I made my way back to the motel.

It was a disturbing night and I couldn't sleep. All I could think about was Terry. Her beautiful eyes and her smile. I couldn't make her leave and if she didn't want to she would just stay here. I still was hoping for her to come.

But I was disappointed when Dean and I took our bags in the car and she didn't show up. "Move your ass, Sam. We don't have all day", Dean called. So I got in and we took off.

I just hoped Terry would be ok.