Never alone

/3 years later/

Kari opened the door of their bedroom. Hao's and her bedroom. The emotions were building again and were driving her insane. She didn't know if she could stand it anymore. After all it was her birthday, the bane of her existence. The feelings of utter uselessness comes back frequently on this particular day.

Kari looked back at her love sleeping silently on their bed. Wait would he do if he realized that this day no matter what brings pain. Kari left the room and silently closed the door. She snuck down the stairs and out the back where she left her V-Rod Muscle was hidden behind the Sakura tree. Hao never liked her bike, saying that she shouldn't ride it.

Kari admired her bike; she had it customized so she could but her swords in the bike without them showing. Kari gave a slight grin and hopped on her bike. She put on her night vision goggles and started her bike. Kari quickly took of just in case her bike had made enough sound to wake Hao up.

Kari rode through the desert intent on making it to the oasis that reminded her of the place her mother was buried at. Kari reached her destination within a few minutes. She got off her bike and sat by the pond. This was her place to think without anyone to bother her. After all Nyx and Sakura were still at the house, thinking their mistress was safely in her bed.

Kari allowed tears to flow to her eyes. Memories of her happy childhood flashed through her brain. Her mother's smiling face and Kyo's mischievous grin.

Kyo…

Another topic of mix emotions, after all Kyo was the only one who truly knows what Kari thinks. He probably knows that she was going through the regular depression again, but thinks Hao would be able to stop her. Kari tilted her head back to look at the sky that had clear signs of the sunrise coming. Kari sighed and got up from her spot by the pond. Hao would be waking up soon to find no sign of her in the house and will go through the village looking for her.

Kari looked down at her arms, which were usually covered. There were a couple of scars on both arms each resulting from her birthdays. Only on her birthday would she give in to the dark desire. To watch as her life essence flowed out the wound she herself made. It was not time for that. Now was a time to reflect on her life and what better way to do that but swimming in her birthday suit. Kari quickly made a barrier so that no would see her.

She stripped off her clothes and put them in her seat compartment. Kari walked into the water slightly shivering at the cold liquid. She waded until she finally got to the middle where the deep part was. She floated on her back and just closed her eyes. Allowing the water to lead her where it saw fit.

Only to have her eyes snapped back open at the burst of angry furyoku. 'Oh fuck that was Hao. He must have just woke up.' Kari sighed again soon she would have to return and face his wrath. She heard the song Good Girls Go Bad sound off signaling that Kyo was calling her. She ignored it and swam to where the waterfall was. She stood up and let the water just fall on her tan body. She went past the waterfall where there was a cave with a small wooden chest. She opened the chest and put on the robe inside it. Next she took out the razor.

Kari gave a slight maniac grin as her eyes flashed gold.

'It was your entire fault Kari. All your fault and this is your punishment, a life full of misery and loneliness. Do you honestly think Hao could care for a piece of shit like you? Cut after all you would rather have pain than nothing at all.'

Kari followed the voice commands after all she was right. The dark piece of her that Hao didn't know about…Ragnarok. The being created the day her mother was murdered. Ragnarok was sadistic and evil. She only appears when someone wasn't around. Kari slid the razor down from her wrist to her elbow. She repeated this on the other arm and soon began cutting her thighs and upper arms. Kari stopped it seemed that the dark desire was finally satisfied and subsided. She wrapped her arms in bandages and put arm warmers over them.

Kari put the robe back in the chest and washed the blood off the razor. The razor too was returned to the chest. Kari walked out the cave and swam back to her bike. She dried off in the sun that was fully up now. It seemed that her cutting went on for a while this time. She checked her phone and saw she missed 12 calls from Kyo and 20 calls from Hao. Kari called Kyo first.

"Kyo its me. Yes I'm fine. Don't worry about me too much Kyo you might get grey hairs! Yeah I know he's pissed I felt his furyoku from here. Bye."

Kari sighed again it seems that all she has done today. She quickly dressed herself and took out her sunglasses. She put them on and got on her bike. She started the bike and drove off. Accept this time she was moving slow. Hao would be furious when he saw her. Should she tell him the truth? Or would Kyo rat her out before she could figure it out?

Well she wouldn't think about that now. Kari stopped in front of a café to get herself some breakfast. Silva was there looking nervously at her.

"Silva I just came to get a coffee and a chocolate muffin. As soon as you give them to me I'll leave and make sure Hao doesn't know I was here."

Kari gave him a smile, except it was a 'don't fuck with me' smile. Silva gulped and quickly ran to get her breakfast. Kari sighed and leaned against the counter. Her cell phone began to play Inside the Fire. She gulped and pressed ignore. There's no reason to face him yet. She would play the coward for a little while longer. Of course he might come here soon knowing she loved the muffins here.

"Kari-san I have your food."

Kari took the bag with the muffin and the coffee. "Thanks Silva!"

She ran out the café and got back on her bike. Amazingly she didn't spill her coffee; she stopped in front of a small house and got off her bike. She knocked on the door and a red headed male answered the door.

"Hey Kyo going to let me in?"

The man sighed put let her in. "You know you just missed Hao. He was here just a few minutes ago."

"Not funny Kyo, you know I'm trying to avoid him at the moment."

"Does he know about Ragnarok?"

"No, I don't plan on ever letting him know about that. I don't want him to know that I'm near the edge on every birthday. That today is the worst day of my life."

Kyo sighed and fell on to his couch. Kari sat down next to him sipping her coffee.

"Should I call anyone?"

"Kyo they will tell Hao and then shit will go down."

Kyo laughed and Kari gave him a glare. She kept drinking her coffee in silence. A loud banging sounded from outside Kyo's door. Kari jumped and cursed she left her bike in the open so Hao could've seen it. Kari put her cup down and began to run to the back of the house. She exited the house and continued to run. It would do her no good to go to her bike.

'Shit'

The Spirit of Fire appeared in front of her. Hao stood on the shoulders of the giant spirit with a look of unmanageable anger. Kari flinched, they've been together for three years but just started to live together. So he didn't know that she never was home during this time. Hao jumped from the S.O.F's shoulder and grabbed Kari by the shoulders.

"Hao I'm sorry."

"You are sorry beloved? Why may I ask?"

"You know today is the day my mother was murdered. I like to go out early and escape society for a couple of hours."

Hao frowned at Kari's answer. He could sense that she was not telling the truth. At least not the whole truth.

"Is there a reason why you won't tell me beloved?"

"Amado Me gustaría pero...(1)"

Hao glared knowing that she only talked Spanish to him when she was hiding something.

"Beloved why are you wearing arm warmers in such hot weather?"

Kari flinched again. 'Damn it I hope he leaves it alone.'

Hao smiled at Kari and grabbed her right arm. Kari winced, she had cut particularly deep. Ragnarok had got to her especially today. Whenever Kari truly gained happiness, she came back with a vengeance.

Hao took the arm warmers off and looked in shock at the bloody bandages. He slowly unwrapped the bandages and gasped. Kari's arms were full of deep cuts, obviously self inflicted.

"Why? Why do you cut yourself Kari?"

Kari looked down in sadness. This is she wanted to avoid. Hao would be angry after the shock settled. He wouldn't stop until he found out the reason for her cutting. So she decided to tell him, rather then deal with him digging constantly. So she told him of the self blame from her mother's death. Hao actually stayed quiet the whole story. He continued to stay silent even when they walked back to Kyo's house. Even when she went on her bike and he sat in the back.

Kari was beginning to get extremely nervous. Hao was silent for to long and she was hoping he would be in control. They stopped at their house and Hao went inside while Kari put the bike in the back. Kari looked up, Sakura and Nyx were hovering above her. Sakura was giving her that sad look. Sakura floated down to Kari and healed her cuts. Kari looked down in shame. She knows Nyx and Sakura knew about her ...habits but never truly wanted them to see the damage.

Sakura flew out the backyard, while Nyx stayed behind. "Kari-sama, Hao-sama wishes to be alone with you. Please do not do anything rash while we are gone." After that Nyx left making Kari feel extremely nervous, to be alone with Hao. She eyed her bike; it had her sword's in it. A strong hand grasped her shoulder. Kari looked up at Hao, fear in her eyes.

"Beloved I believe you owe me an explanation. I know you are not suicidal."

Kari closed her eyes trying to ignore him. She could feel Ragnarok in her mind, trying to get to the surface. Hao was making her darkness angry. Kari gasped and held her head with one hand. 'No…'

Hao looked in surprise as he felt something dark take control of Kari. He was even more surprised when insane golden irises and black sclera stared back at him.

"Hello Hao. I am Ragnarok."

Hao stared at Kari no Ragnarok in shock. Kari had another personality?

"If you are wondering who I am I will tell you. I am the side that was made by the rage of finding Reia dead. I will never let Kari forget the past with happiness."

Hao glared at Ragnarok who stood with an arrogant smirk.

"If you think I am intimidated by you wench you are surely mistaken. Kari is mine, no one will ever make me let go of her. Not even you, Ragnarok. Now listen well demon I order you to leave Kari's body."

Ragnarok gave him an amused look only to gasp in pain as she felt her essence being destroyed.

"Damn you Hao! You destroyed years of hard work. You should have never talked to Kari at the tournament. Then she would have been mine, forever surrounded in darkness."

The golden irises faded to crimson as Ragnarok disappeared from existence. Kari's body fell forward, exhausted from the strain of having Ragnarok in control. Hao caught her and carried her bridal style towards their bedroom. He changed her clothes and laid her down on the bed. Covering her sleeping figure with a blanket.

"Beloved I understand now why you cut yourself. You blamed yourself for your mother's death."

He striped down to his boxers and laid beside her, soon he fell asleep.

/7 years in the future/

The sun was rising as Kari sat in the garden of their house. Today was her birthday, finally a day she could celebrate. With her love and her precious babies. A shadow fell over her and she glanced up. It was Hao rubbing one of his eyes.

"Beloved you should be back in bed."

Hao picked her up and teleported them back into their bed. Kari giggled and snuggled into her husband's chest. Yes today was a day she could celebrate, after all the Great Spirit gave her mother back to her. Kari was made whole surrounded by Kin, Jin, and Reia. Kari sighed and closed her eyes. Well she better sleep, later Kyo, Hana, Yoh, and Anna were going to come and she would waste all of her energy partying with her large family.

Translations

(1)Amado me gustaría pero ...- Beloved I wish I could but…

Author's Note: Well I made a sequel, naturally it was depressing. I think I'll continue to updatewhenever something new forms in my head. Next one might be a lemon.