first of all, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE FEEDBACK AND LOVE (so happy)
Sooo, I know there are things that doesn't exactly fit the reality (like that fighting scene, i know iit's not how they actually film those and so on and on), but this whole story is just a big excuse for some hurt/angst Jensen.
Also, all made up.
I'll shut up now.
Enjoy!
Jared was pacing the hallway back and forth, trying to come up with something to say when he actually calls Sandy, instead of ripping her head off.
He still couldn't believe he missed it.
He just thought that she was being clingy, like one of those friends with boundary issues.
Not so much, apparently. She just wants to push Jensen out of the picture and take his place.
All these months, all this time she was slowly trying to drive them apart and he stayed completely oblivious. Sure, Jensen pointed it out jokingly a few times, that she just wants to take his place or something similar, but he never took it seriously. Never looked at it twice.
Maybe he should have.
Maybe he would have seen what was actually going on, instead of pushing the only person he loves, away.
And for what? For another lie.
Sandy was getting closer and closer to him this whole month, calling almost every day, messaging constantly, doing all kinds of things. One day, two weeks ago, she just showed up on his doorstep, as she put, 'to spend a day with one her closests friends'.
And for some reason, Jared cursed himself again, he fell for that 'innocent friend' crap.
She even made him miss a dinner with Jensen that day. And that should have been a big red sign that something was smelling fishy.
And those messages… Jesus, when Sandy called a few days later, crying, and showed him the screenshots, he fell for that. Again.
He thought, sure. Jensen was angry because Sandy didn't include him in their schedule. Made him miss the dinner he was planning for days. He had a reason to be angry and send crap to her.
But the content was truly disturbing and even threatening. No wonder Bob had them investigated. Sure, telling to back off is a normal thing to say in a situation like this, but threats of violence and even rape if she wouldn't was what threw him off the most. Jared never expected to hear such horrible things from Jensen. Never. He was kind, sweet and understanding, angry sometimes, but never cruel. Anything but cruel.
Ant after weeks of her telling him that Jensen is a horrible person, after seeing a proof of supposedly his messages, Jared snapped without even listening.
And here he is. Sitting at the top of the mountain of lies.
And the worst part is, Jared thought, when he flipped open Jensen's phone again, staring at the messages between Jen and Sandy. The worst part is, Jensen knew and tried to tell him the truth, but Jared wouldn't listen.
And eventually, Jensen stopped trying. Clearly defeated by being attacked from both sides.
From Jared, unwilling to listen and being a total dickhead towards him, as Bob put it. And from Sandy, sending him messages, saying he will never be good enough for Jared and that he should get the hell out of their lives, instead of being a burden and messing things up. And this being the nicest thing Sandy sent.
"Jared? HI! How are you doing, sweetie?" Sandy's voice rang from the other side of the line and Jared couldn't help himself but squint a little. Sweetie. She started calling him that when he told her about leaving Jensen.
"We gotta talk, Sandy" Jared said instantly, without a simple 'hello'.
Straight to business.
"Not even a hello?" she laughed. "My my, if i wouldn't know you i'd say you're angry, sugar. Is Jensen getting on your nerves again? I thought you finally left that asshole, I told you to leav-"
"Shut your fucking mouth, Sandy, for once" Jared snapped angrily. He couldn't listen any more of that crap. Not when he knew the truth.
"Jesus, Jared, you know I would do nothing to hurt you, why are you like this?" the girl on the other side sounded surprised.
"Nothing to hurt me, huh? What about Jensen, Sandy? Would you hurt him?"
"What about him?" she asked, clearly annoyed when the topic rounded around Jensen once more. "I told you he is a bad influence to you, not to mention a horrible person. What is this all about?"
"I know what you did, Sandy" Jared almost hissed, his tone sounding so much like Sam's, when he's facing his TV demons. "I know Jensen never send those messages, I know that you send them to yourself."
After that, there was a moment of silence.
"Jared-" she tried to say but Jared cut her off immediately:
"How could you do this?"
"Someone had to!" Sandy shouted back. "Somebody had to step in and break you two up! He was ruining your life!" she almost screeched.
"I loved him!" Jared shouted into his phone, his hands shaking. "I still love him" he said with a quieter, fonder voice.
"And that's the whole problem!" Sandy didn't hold back. "He was toxic and ruinin-"
"The only toxic person in my life is you" Jared said in a low voice and silence followed. "I guess you'll be happy to know that Jensen's in a surgery at the moment and he might not even make it till tomorrow. If he, by some miracle, survives this, we will be filling a lawsuit against you. So you better watch your back, Sandy, especially when this story becomes public" Jared talked into his phone quietly, but kept his 'threatening Sam's voice' while he spoke. Just to get a point across.
"No, Jared, wa-" Sandy tried to say something, but he cut her off again.
"You will be hearing from our lawyer" he said and then hung up, not wanting to hear any more excuses.
Jared pushed his phone back into his pocket and leaned heavily against the wall.
It didn't felt as good as he imagined.
But every word he spoke was true.
Sandy was toxic and she won't be in his life anymore.
And if Jensen will accept his apology, they will fill a lawsuit against her.
If he survives today, his mind suggested.
Jared cursed and turned to walk back to the waiting room. Doctor should be there to talk to them any minute now.
Well, more like to him, because he was Jen's medical proxy, not Bobby.
And sure enough, couple of minutes later a doctor came out asking for Jensen Ackle's family.
"It's me" Jared stood up from a chair.
"Hi, I am doctor Wilson." he introduced himself.
"How is he?" Jared asked immediately.
"He's stable." doctor said and Jared felt as if he could breathe again.
His friend was alive.
"His condition is still serious, I'm afraid." doctor continued. "He has an extremely bad bruising on his side. From what i understand, he was kicked to his side. That caused his already bruised ribs to break, and this led to his ribs causing an internal bleeding and puncturing one of his lungs. His lung did not collapse, but it had blood in it, which we managed to drain successfully. For that we had to put a chest tube in, to help his lung heal faster. We did not intubate him, but we are keeping a close eye on it, in case something goes wrong and we still need to take it to a such proximity. We fixed the internal damage and gave him a blood transfusion to replenish what he lost. On top on that we put him on oxygen, gave him a vitamin shot and fluids. Also, we put him on antibiotics to prevent infection."
"So, he'll be alright?"
"Yes. Despite him going into a cardiac arrest in the ambulance and a serious blood loss, your friend should be fine. In some time, of course."
Jared almost hugged the poor guy when he heard the good news.
Jensen will be alright.
"Now, since we covered his condition, I'd like to know what happened."
The young actor shifted uncomfortably.
"We were filming a fighting scene. It went wrong. I accidentally kicked him to the side. It shouldn't have caused damage like that, but my shoes are metal laced. And the idiot didn't say a word, he just kept going with a scene as if nothing happened. Even after it was over he kept quiet about something being wrong. We didn't know anything until he collapsed." Jared shook his head.
"And his bruising? Some of the bruises are older. I hate to ask this, but is your friend in an abusive relationship of some sort?"
Jared could swear he paled when he heard a word 'abusive'.
It might as well be, after what he's done to Jensen.
"No, no! It was stunt practice, we had this thing going on all week. He insisted on doing everything by himself."
"Oh, alright. Because in case of abuse I have to report to the police. But in this case…"
"Can i see him?" Jared interrupted doctor's speech.
"Yes, of course, let me lead you to his room."
And once again Jared started fidgeting, nervous to see his (ex?)boyfriend.
After all, none of this would have happened if he actually paid attention to what matters.
And once his gaze landed on his co-star, he felt as if he was frozen to the spot.
It felt surreal, like he was still filming a scene after a hunt went wrong and landed one of them in a hospital.
Except this was a real life and not a TV show, this was reality and Jensen was actually hurt.
"I'm so sorry, Jen" Jared cried out when he almost fell into a chair next to his beloved man and grasped his limp arm into his own. "I'm so so sorry. For everything. Please, wake up. I need you to wake up and tell me what kind of an idiot I am. I need you to be okay." he talked tearfully, fearing that when Jensen woke up he wouldn't want to see him. Or would hate him.
Jared fully understood that he had no right to ask Jensen to take him back, not after everything. Not after he shouted at him, punched him in the face and then left. And then treated him like crap on set for weeks to come.
He wouldn't be surprised if Jen would tell him to fuck off and don't talk to him ever again.
One way or another, he's going to tear Sandy to pieces.
If it wasn't for her, none of this would have happened.
Of course, Jared wasn't delusional. If only he would have been stronger and trusted Jensen more, she shouldn't have been able to distort his true image the way she did.
Jared sighted and started slowly stroking Jensen's arm.
"I'm sorry" he whispered. "I will do everything in my power to show you that. And, if I'm lucky, you might even forgive me for being blind. And being a dick. And-" Jared stop for a second, because that thought still made him shiver. "And for being abusive towards you" the younger man stopped again, breathing deeply. "You never deserved that."
There was no response from his co-star, the older man was still asleep - or unconscious - dead to the world, one way or another.
Jared knew he needed sleep, needed rest in order to get better, but he still selfishly wanted for his lover to wake up. He just wanted to see those green eyes once again, to actually look at them without anger or resentment.
Just like he used to, before everything started.
Because before there was only love, so much love.
And he needed to show Jensen that he doesn't hate him, doesn't resent him. And that he feels horrible for what he's done.
One way or another - Jared shifted into a more comfortable position - he will sit here and wait, because he owes Jensen that much.
Even if it means waiting all night.
Couple of hours later, the young actor was asleep.
._.
It felt as if he was floating in water.
He felt boneless, yet heavy, and something wasn't right.
He tried to concentrate more, tried to bring himself to move, but it was like being stuck in a dream - he couldn't do anything but wait for it all to resolve itself.
Slowly but surely, he felt heaviness seep into his bones, and it just felt like sinking.
Then there were noises, a constant, quiet… beeping?
What the hell was that?
It was still dark.
Jensen finally felt like he was in his own body, so he tried to move, but nothing happened.
Why was he feeling like this?
And then came pain.
His side was dully burning, but the ache was evident enough to bring more clarity.
Jensen tried to concentrate on his memories, to bring back what was missing.
It took a while, but memories started to come back.
Filming a fighting scene. Jared kicking him. Then pain, so much pain. Then nothing.
Crap.
Obviously, he was alive and in a hospital.
But it didn't change the fact of what Jared did. The person he loved the most. He never, in his entire life, expected Jared to lash out at him physically, not with such intensity and anger.
They always teased each other, there was always a bump into a shoulder, sometimes a smack into the ribs, but it was all harmless and playful.
This time it costed him a trip to a hospital and god knows what else.
And after weeks of verbal and even physical lashing outs from Jared, Jensen had to admit that it was abuse, whether he liked it or not.
And no matter how much he loves Jared, he can't let it go on like that. He's not some punching bag.
He heard the sound from - what he identified being a heart monitor - increase slightly.
It was time to open his eyes and face the cruel reality.
So he did, which was more of a struggle than he anticipated in the first place. His eyelids felt as if they were glued to each other.
And then, to his horror, he saw Jared.
He had his arm grasped tightly around his, his head was on Jensen's bed and he was clearly sleeping.
No, Jensen thought and yanked his hand out with more force than he should have, because the movement only caused him pain.
Jared woke up instantly, looking around, confused and still half asleep.
And then he saw that Jensen was awake, staring at him with wide, fearful eyes.
"Jensen" the younger man whispered, smiling slightly and reached out to touch his face, but Jensen flinched back violently, as if expecting a punch. Then he tried to move himself out of Jared's reach, pulling himself halfway up the bed.
Wrong thing to do, Jensen learned the hard way, as his ribs screamed bloody murder at him. Pain exploded in his side and it felt as if someone gripped his lungs tight and just squeezed, making it impossible to draw a breath it.
Jensen felt tears falling down his face, heart monitor next to him was going nuts, voices, that came out of nowhere, where shouting all kinds of things that he couldn't understand, because everything was suddenly too much and he felt the grip of earlier darkness pulling him back in.
And everything went black.
-.-
Thank you for reading!
Please, leave a review and your opinions/expectations/(requests?)