Chapter Two

Big thank you to: Jodie (Pink Lemons), A for Antechinus, Meggi-Roo, Tee, RoseTyler611 and DanielleE as well as anonymous reviewers Max and Jen. In response to Max's review, Jo and Sam are around 15/16 in this. Please read and review! Amy x

"I'm not sure…I don't want her to freak out or anything…" Jo said almost in a whisper, realizing that Sam had understood who she was referring to.

"You never know until you try. Tell her how you really feel about her." Sam replied in the same whispering tone, placing her hand over Jo's in a supportive manner.

Jo took a deep breath. "I've known her for years; she has always been there for me, no matter what happened. She always had problems of her own but she chose to help solve mine. When I realized I was gay, she was the first person I told. She showed me that I shouldn't be scared of how I feel, it's natural and I shouldn't be ashamed of my sexuality. She also taught me to always follow my heart and tell her what's on my mind, that's why I'm going to do this…" Jo stopped, leaning closer to Sam, closing her eyes as their lips were a mere few millimetres apart, as did Sam…

"I can't do this." Sam blurted, moving away from Jo. "I don't want this, I don't want you! Not now." She cried, burying her face in her hands.

Jo nodded. "I…I understand. You've got loads going on in your life right now and I know you're finding it hard to cope with everything and you must think I'm taking advantage of you. I'm so sorry. I'll go." Jo stood up, heading for the door.

"Wait." Sam instructed quietly. "Will you just hear me out? Please."

Jo sat back down wordlessly, avoiding eye contact with Sam.

"As you know, my mum died last year and she was a massive part of my life and at times I still feel numb. It's like part of me died along with her. Me and her were more like best friends than mother and daughter. It still hasn't sunk in that she's gone. Some days, I can't see the point in getting up; I don't see what I have to live for. I miss the way she used to hug me and tell me that I would always be her special little girl. I miss the way she'd make me breakfast, just the way I like it. I miss the times she'd take me shopping and try and dress me up in all these hideous dresses." Sam laughed as Jo smiled. "I miss everything about her. No one understands me quite like she did. I know you try to Jo and I'm so grateful that you've been here for me because I wouldn't be where I am now without you."

"I'm glad to be of use." Jo laughed slightly.

"And then what with my sister moving away…I'm pleased for her because she's happy and that's great but I can't help but think 'what about me?' I know Darren loves her and she's got her own family now, but I love her too. I hardly get to see her now and I get so lonely here without her. The house is so quiet 

without her awful music blaring from her room. All the memories from my childhood, all the good times with Mum and Jayne, where have they gone?"

"They'll always be in your heart, babe." Jo whispered.

"But it's not quite the same. I have to tell you something now Jo, something I haven't told anyone else yet." Sam sighed. "I went to see the doctor about a month ago. I hadn't been sleeping, just crying and crying all night. Thinking about the family I once had, however dramatic that sounds. I'm on anti-depressants and sleeping pills now. Drugged up to the eyeballs." Sam joked, trying to lighten the mood. "On top of all that, I'm struggling to keep up with the school work and I really can't see me passing any of my GCSEs."

"You'll do brilliantly, Sam!" Jo enthused.

"I'm not so sure. Jo, all of what happened has made me think a lot more, made me think about the people that mean the most to me, including you. This is hard for me to say, but part of me does feel the same about you."

Jo's face lit up. "Really?"

"Yes, really. I have been thinking about it for some time because I wasn't sure at first, I thought I was just confused. But I do like you, more than a friend."

Jo took Sam's hand.

"But…not right now. I need to sort my head out before even considering a relationship. I need to deal with my mum's death and Jayne leaving, and the depression. I'm not ready to be with you, just yet. One day, maybe." Sam smiled.

"You don't have to say yes, I'll understand if you don't, but I'd like to ask you if you could do something for me." Sam asked.

"Anything."

"This isn't just any old favour though, this is a big ask. I'd like you to wait for me, to help me to deal with all this going on around me, to wait for me to be ready for a relationship, with you." Sam pursed her lips as she waited for an answer.

"I'd like nothing more." Jo answered, as the two girls held each other in a tight embrace.

I'm planning a sequel for this, please let me know your thoughts on that. Please review! x