Hey! Thank you all soooooo much for the reviews and putting me on alert and favorites lists! Someone even added me to favorite authors! Thanks so much! I'm sorry but I didn't have the time for a longer chapter... Plus my parents refused to give me the wifi code (I'm in France at the moment) so this update is later then planned. I'm sorry ;) But enjoy!
The next day in school was hard. I was extremely tired because I hardly got any sleep last night. I was too busy thinking of what I'd say to Jade. I couldn't decide if it was good she heard Andrés and mine conversation, because its not really the manliest thing to cry over a girl at his best friends house.
The whole day Jade smirked or ignored me. After last period I finally gathered the courage and went up to her.
"Hey" I greeted sheepishly. Jade smirked at me. "So you guys do girl talk, hm? I thought it was just a girly thing…"
Okay… this is going to be awkward and embarrassing. I decided to not comment on this and go on with my actual plan.
"Well, yeah Jade listen…" I began and knew I could as well risk everything now… "what I said to André, I really meant it! Jade I love you but I hate fighting with you. I couldn't bear it anymore! And I'm a complete asshole for leaving you and acting like it didn't hurt me at all! Because it did! I'm a complete wreck without you. But you have to trust me more. I wouldn't cheat on you."
Okay this sounded a bit like a speech which I had down several times before. I just hoped that I found the right words. As calm as I may usually be, when it comes to Jade I'm nervous.
But Jade looked at me like I had lost my mind. "I have to trust you more? Are you fucking serious? You break up with me in front of all our friends and next day you are all flirty with Tori again and you say I have to trust YOU?" "Jade I told you I didn't…"
"Oh shut up! You kissed Tori and say you wouldn't cheat on me?"
"Did you listen to what I said yesterday? I only kissed her because I hoped I could get over you. Because you seemed like you didn't care about us anymore, I had no hope! You were ignoring me completely!" By now the tears poured over Jades face and I was at the edge of crying to.
"How am I supposed not to ignore you after what you did? And by the way. Even if I can't stand Tori. It's absolutely disgusting to use a girl this way just to get over me!" She screamed. And she was somewhat right.
"And you know what Beck? You always said how much of an asshole my father is and that you could never treat me like he did. But you fuckin' did! You got me to open myself towards you and to trust you. And then you dumped me and ripped me apart again! And you were the one who got me to believe that love between to people can exist and last but you proved me wrong like my dad did several times!"
That was too much. She couldn't compare to this man. I could feel I was about losing my temper.
"I love you! I didn't stop and I never will! You know why I wanted to give us a break. So stop comparing me to your father!" She shot me a deadly glare and yelled at me:
"Then stop breaking my heart over and over again!"
Suddenly it was quite in the empty hallway of Hollywood arts.
We stared at each other with the intensity of two people who clearly love but hate each other at the same time.
And then our lips crashed together.