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I Belong To You
Chapter 2
babygirl2006
(Ashley's POV)
I stood there and just watched her walk away. I don't know, where she is going. Her house is the other way and she would be walking a really long time if she was walking home. I don't feel comfortable letting her walk the streets of LA at 11 o'clock at night. It scares me.
"Hey! There you are. I've been looking for you everywhere. Why are you out here?" Aiden asked. I didn't answer. I continued to watch Spencer as her figure got smaller and smaller with every passing second. "Is that Spencer?" He asked me quietly. I shook my head 'yes'. "What happened?" He put his arms around my waist and pulled the back of me into his chest. I pulled away from him.
"I have to go."
"Ashley! What happened with the two of you?"
"Aiden.. I hurt her. I hurt her really bad. I broke up with her for nothing. I just need to think. I'm going home. I'll talk to you tomorrow." I got into my car and drove off. I started driving the way Spencer walked. I found her about 10 minutes away from the party. She was sitting on a bench with her head down and some head phones hanging from her ears. I pulled over and got out. I went and sat next to her on the bench.
"Do you not understand the words 'leave me alone'?" She didn't look up at me or pull the head phones out of her ears. Shes only looked at me once tonight and that was when she was yelling at me. Other then that, everything else around us always seemed more interesting to her. I remember when I was the only person or thing she wanted to look at.
"What are you listening too?" She pulled one of her ear pieces out and handed it to me. I put it in my ear.
You don't even hold me like you use to hold me
And theres no way you could have meant all the things you told me
I remember when you told me you never lie to me
I can't believe I trusted you
I sacrifice my time and my heart
I gave you my all
And what you do
You stepped on me
You walked on me
And boy left your
footprints on my heart-broken
cried over the way you left your
footprints on my heart-aching you ran all over me
And left your
footprints on my heart--My heart
I knew the way you were before me
And I was crazy to think you changed
I put up with your attitude, your selfish ways, and your childish games
A good heart always ends up broken
but over time, it all made me strong
I'm a put the pieces back together
Might take some time
But I'll just go on
You stepped on me
You walked on me
And boy left your
footprints on my heart-heart broken
cried over the way you left your
footprints on my heart-aching you ran all over me
And left your
footprints on my heart--My heart
love me or leave me alone
my heart can't take this pain
we had something so beautiful
but now its not the same
so I got to let this go
gotta take back the truth
this situation ain't no good for me
I can't believe I let it happen like this
I just sat back why you
You stepped on me
You walked on me
And boy left your
footprints on my heart-heart broken
cried over the way you left your
footprints on my heart-aching you ran all over me
And left your
footprints on my heart--My heart
After I listened to the song, Boy II Men 'End Of The Road' started playing, and I handed the ear piece back to her. She didn't put it back in her ear. She just sat there staring at the ground below her feet.
"So... How are you?" She asked breaking the silence.
"Right now... Its hard to tell. You?"
"I feel like..." She just stopped. She didn't say anything else but now she wasn't looking at the ground anymore, she was looking at the tree, 10 yards away. " I don't think theres just one word or a right word for the way I feel right now." She added, looking over at me. She wasn't looking me in the eyes though. I am the one who broke it off and gave her so much pain but I just don't know what to say to at least make her stop hating me. I know she still loves me and I still love her. Honestly I can't tell you why I broke up with her. That night was all just to much and she didn't help with the complaining about her mom. I guess I just took it out on her. I've done a lot in my life but I've never regretted anything. I regret breaking up with her though. I regret seeing her in pain, knowing I'm the one who caused it. I regret telling her I didn't love her and that I never did love her. Which I know hurt the most. If you could have just seen the look in her eyes when I said it. The look was like a look I've never seen before. A look of hate, anger, pain, hurt, disgust. It was just a really bad kinda like 'I hope you die for this' look. A look that says a thousand words, she, herself would never say. That look still lives in my head. It makes me cry sometimes too. This last week I think I gave her more pain then any pain I have ever felt and I've had my share of pain.
"Hurt, lost, confused, anger, guilt, disgust, hate, love, sad, hollow, torn, and somewhere deep inside, with the thought of you on my mind, I still feel happy." She looked away from me again. Tears are running down her cheeks. Do I wipe them off like I use to or do I just let them fall? I slowly ran my thumb and the rest of my hand over her left cheek, wiping the tears away. She didn't move really fast or anything. She just stay like she was. I keep my hand there and took my other one and wiped the other cheek. I keep my hand there too. I had a hand on each side of her face, still wiping some tears with my thumbs as they came. She has her eyes closed now. I can see it in her face that she feels all the feelings she just said she feels. I could feel tears forming in my eyes from seeing her cry. She opened her eyes and looked me in my eyes. The longer she looked at me the more I started to cry. Seeing the pain through her eyes makes everything so much harder. She moved her body so it was facing me. We are inches away from the others face. It seems like its been a life time since she has been this close to me. I never really realized how much I actually missed her until now. Spencer put her thumbs on each side my face and wiped the tears away. At least I know now thats she still cares. At least I know that she doesn't hate me as much as I thought she did. She let her finger drop from my face to my shoulders and keep them there. She leaned into me and put her forehead against mine, still staring into my eyes. Her eyes are all red and puffy from crying. She had stopped crying but I still couldn't bring myself to move my hands.
"I'm sorry.. Ashley" She whispered as she began to cry again.
"For what? You have nothing to be sorry for."
"For not being there when you needed me. For making more problems for you. For saying things that weren't true..." She trailed off her words sounded like they got caught in her throat.
"Spencer.. And I'm sorry. I'm more sorry then you will ever know. More then anyone will ever know."
"Can you do something for me?"
"Sure"
"Will you take me to your house with you? I don't want to do anything. I just want to sleep. Maybe I could actually get some sleep." I really didn't think that would come out of her mouth. I thought she was going to ask me to take her home.
"Yeah... Sure." She pulled her arms away first and got up. As she got up my hands feel off her face and down into my lap. I got up and she followed me to my car and we got in.