Okazaki Shin
Where should I go?
I have this strange feeling clutching my chest so hard
So hard, I can feel the pain for real
Can feel a bruise blossoming, right over my heart
And this strange, painful feeling urges me to go
It's the dead of night and yet here I am
Still awake, unable to shut my eyes and sleep
Unable to keep away the cold
Unable to keep away the nightmares
It makes me shiver and again I feel the urge to run
Just run, run away, no matter where to
It doesn't matter as long as the place is away, is different
Now the strange feeling screams
Where should I go?
It doesn't matter, my legs already move on their own
Away from the cold
Away from the nightmares
I run
Passing closed doors that shut me out
Passing family photos without myself in the picture
And on the one I find myself, I don't smile
I just couldn't
It had been so cold...
Where should I go?
Straying through the urban labyrinth at night
I run, I walk, I stumble without a goal
Part of the pain in my chest lessens over the hours
Part of it stays
It's spring yet I freeze
Until suddenly a warm hand is tenderly laid upon my shoulder
I turn around, not realising the warmth at first
But ready to defend my cold, homeless freedom of running away
I don't want to go back
I can't go back
At that place there is nothing to return to
No-one to come home to
I'm feeling fearfully numb all of a sudden
Until the warm hand cubs my face and I see
A beautiful woman with tender features
With tender hands
With so much warmth
Where should I go?
I don't care anymore
As long as such warmth fondles away the clutching pain in my chess
Caresses away the dark shadows on my skin
Makes the hurting stop
There aren't any nightmares when I'm not sleeping alone
There is no coldness of being all by myself
Of being unwanted
Of being dispensable
Where I should I go I don't care anymore
As long as I can feel the warmth of another person
The warmth of someone who doesn't reject
But embraces me