A/N: Hello again? Expect me back so soon? Me neither?
Thanks to Tidus GT, EvilGeniusBookWorm13, BaronofDenmark, darius prince of the sea, and FavUYA for the reviews but I am sorry to those who I PMed but let's not go into detail!
There had been a few minutes of awkward silence. Kendall was still ignoring them, phone on the side and a razor, which they hadn't noticed until Logan had got to Kendall's level. Silver glimmers were given off every time the light hit it. But what gave an eerie mood was the small crimson droplets that lingered on the end. They slowly dripped off and onto to floor diffusing with the water of the balloon which Carlos had accidentally dropped along with the blood from his wrist which was falling at a much slower rate. Logan's eyes were glistening with motionless tears whereas James and Carlos were still standing by the door, giving uncomfortable glances at each other.
"Kendall." Logan said. He was good at trying to stay strong, not letting tears fall. They all wanted answers. To them this was a very sudden turn of events, but to Kendall this had been going on for a while.
Jo had left about three weeks before it started to happen. Afterwards, Kendall couldn't take it anymore. He missed her and he was sad about it. They hadn't been talking as much due to time differences and Jo working on the movie and Kendall rehearsing with the band and it eventually got to Kendall. He didn't want to unload his problems onto anyone else and let them know how he was feeling, he didn't find it fair. He managed to act as normal as possible to everyone around it and didn't raise any suspicions. After three weeks, Kendall accidentally dropped his razor and it smashed on the floor. He picked it up and stared at it, after being abysmally depressed for so long, he contemplated self harm, a way to vent out his frustration and sadness. Luckily he could pull it off due to his habit of wearing long sleeved flannel shirts, hiding the scars. At first, Kendall barely cut the skin, but over the few weeks, he found his threshold and managed to get a reasonably deep cut. He thought he was fine until today.
"Oceans between us." Kendall mumbled.
"What?" Logan's sadness was replaced by confusion.
"There's nothing that can change the way I feel."
"Kendall, talk some sense, what's going on?"
"They don't understand I'm sick of it all..."
"Who doesn't understand? Kendall, please talk to us!"
Kendall finally stopped gazing at the wall and turned to look at his friends individually in the eyes, "I miss her." he resumed the crying that he was doing a short while before everyone barging in on him.
"Jo?"
Kendall simply nodded.
"Look, Kendall, I know you're upset but this isn't what you should be doing to yourself. You should talk to someone about this. Talk to me! Talk to James or Carlos or even your mom, but don't just bottle up all this frustration... it's not good for you."
"Well if I don't wanna talk? What if I feel this is the best way to deal with it?"
"Kendall... it's not. We want you to talk. You may not think it now but it is the best thing to do. If you don't want to talk to us, maybe you could see a therapist?"
Kendall pulled his sleeve back down, wiped his eyes and got up from the toilet, razor still in hand. He walked past Logan, who remained in his squatted position by the toilet. Approaching James and Carlos, he stopped waiting for them to move out of the way so he could storm off. Instead, they just stood there staring at him, like bodyguards preventing him from leaving. Kendall reached out to push past but James grabbed his out stretched arm and Carlos grabbed his other. They pushed Kendall so he resided back in his original seat, Logan still unmoved and staring at him.
"Just let me go!" Kendall protested as James and Carlos went back to their bouncer stance at the door.
"Not until we solve this. We can be in here all day if you like?" Kendall rolled his eyes, "Oh. I'll take that." Logan said, snatching the razor. Kendall folded his arms and stared at the ceiling.
"Kendall, it's no good taking it out on us, we're your friends." James said from behind Logan.
"He's right. We're here to help. You shouldn't lash out at us."
"I know Logan, I'm not a child." Kendall snapped, then faced him, "I just... want to talk to her again... I want to see her smile."
"Go see her then." Carlos piped up.
"You want me to fly to New Zealand just like that?"
Carlos simply nodded his head.
"Carlos!" Kendall said, "That's crazy! That's – That's-"
"Genius!" Logan cried. The three others just glanced at him, "If you go see her, you can get closure, right? Then you can come back and be happy!"
"But I'm only happy when I see her!"
"Go see her then and we'll work something out when we get there!"
"I don't know..."
Logan got up and dragged Kendall with him. James and Carlos followed behind just in case he tried to make a getaway. Logan let go of Kendall, but James and Carlos pushed themselves up against the blond to let him know he was being watched. Logan picked up the green laptop and carefully climbed his way up the swirly slide. James pushed Kendall up and went to make his own way when he heard, "And where do you think you two are going?" he sighed and turned around, along with Carlos, to find Mrs. Knight holding a mop and some cloths out to the pair.
"Mama Knight we really can't-"
"I don't wanna hear it!" she interrupted, "I asked you to clean up, and you will."
"But-"
"CLEAN!"
James looked up apologetically at Logan who was watching everything from above. He just laughed at put one arm around Kendall's shoulder, and the other carrying the laptop. He ushered Kendall into their shared room and sat down, opening the lid and going straight on the internet.
"What are you doing?" Kendall asked. If it were up to him, he could still be happily alone for another hour or so before anyone would notice his disappearance and have to put on the facade again.
Logan hadn't answered but was typing away, "And... done!" he switched the laptop around showing Kendall something he couldn't understand.
"What is it?"
"I booked us four plane tickets to New Zealand!"
"WHAT?"
"It's what you wanted?"
"I said I didn't know!" Kendall stood up, "And you can't just go to New Zealand! How have you got the money for this?" Logan placed the laptop on his bed and stood in front of the door.
"Gustavo."
"Do you think my mom would just let us go like that?"
"Well we have about two days to convince her..."
"TWO DAYS! Logan! I know you're trying to help but please. Just leave it to me."
"Kendall, if I left it to you, you'll cut your whole hand off." Logan said sternly, "We're going to New Zealand. You're going to see Jo. You will come back happy. Everyone will be happy."
Kendall just rolled his eyes. He didn't want to do this at all.
A/N: I hope you liked it! (Sorry it's a little short)
I need your help with something. I don't know whether to focus this story on Kames or Cargan?
This though crossed my mind when writing this:
I find that it is easy to talk about hurt and heartbreak and not about being in love because it is something some of us are unfortunately less experienced in. We've all been hurt by someone we love and so it is easier to write about. I can't say I've had the perfect relationship like I try to write in these stories. That's why I prefer the build up to actual relationships and then start to slip when I write two people getting together but I have to give them a happy ending right?
Just something I thought I'd share, and no, I'm not having a breakdown :')
Review please!