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"So what do you want to talk to me about?" I asked after Ben closed and locked his bedroom door after us.
"Always eager" he laughed as I sat down on his bed.
"Well you tell me that you want to speak to me; and after everything that has happened. Yes we are ok but I can't not help being worried" I advised as Ben quickly walked towards me and he sat down next to me.
"Mal-" he started as he wrapped his arms around my waist.
"Don't worry" he said with a large smile.
"I just want to make sure that you are ok; that's all" he confirmed.
"We have all the time in the world to discuss why this happened, but right now I just want to make sure that you are ok" he stated.
"Oh Ben" I said as I felt a lump start to build in my throat. After everything that had happened Ben wanted to make sure that I was ok; and this meant the world to me - even though he should be worried about the both of us not just me.
"Yeah I'm ok" I advised as I wrapped my arms around his neck and I pulled him into a hug.
"I have you" I said after a few seconds and I pulled away and looked into his calm, leaf green eyes.
"We shouldn't have got to this point" I said sadly.
"I'm sorry" I apologised.
"Don't be" he dismissed.
"I need to be Ben; I put you at risk" I stated as I brushed Ben's fringe to the left hand side.
"Uma could have really hurt you on the Isle, and if she did I would have never forgiven myself" I said sadly. This was the truth; if anything did happen to Ben on the Isle I would never forgive myself. I should never have left like that; I should have stayed and talked to Ben. I know better now; I can't put Ben or any of my family or friends at risk like that - they meant for too much to me for us to go through this again.
"Ben I know you said we have all the time in the world but I think we should address it slightly now" I said.
"Ok" he responded.
"Why did this happen? Please be honest with me; I don't want you feeling this way again" he advised which made a heavy feeling start to fill my stomach.
"I felt so overwhelmed" I confessed as I looked down.
"I felt as if as becoming your girlfriend I was losing me; I was actually missing the Isle and the old me" I said still looking down to the floor as I was scared that what I was saying could really hurt Ben. But he needed to hear this; so we could move on from this situation.
"Why did you not tell me you were feeling this way?" he asked which made me look back up at him.
"Because our time together was very limited; like me and you time. Not royal commitments-" I stared to explain.
"I was looking so forward to seeing you that I didn't want to say anything to ruin anything" I said sadly as I looked back down.
"I'm sorry" I apologised again.
"I just wanted to be right for you; but it got too much too quick and-" I started but my voice broke as the lump in my throat started to tighten.
"Hey" Ben said.
"Stop this" he said as he cupped the left hand side of my face so I was now made to look at him.
"Mal if things are getting too much for you you need tell me then I will make it easier for you" he said as he looked directly into my eyes.
"But I should be able to handle it" I said sadly.
"Mal" he said.
"Everyone has their limit; and I knew that we were both very busy. But I thought you were handling it" he said.
"You need to tell me these things Mal; I'm not a mind reader" he stated.
"I know; I'm sorry" I said sadly.
"I don't have my spell book to help me now anyway" I added as I pursed my lips together.
"Yeah" he answered.
"I didn't think you were going to give it back" he admitted as he stroked his thumb along my bottom lip.
"I nearly didn't for a moment" I admitted and I saw his eyes widen slightly at this information.
"However-" I started.
"After everything that has happened I realised that I just needed to be me and I will be able to get through things" I explained.
"I don't need magic; I just need you" I finished proudly and I watched as a large grin spread across his face.
"And I just need you" he promised.
"We just need to be more open with each other" he added.
"Yep" I agreed as Ben brushed his nose against mine.
"There is something that I want to do" I advised.
"Well say" I amended.
"What?" he asked and I reached up and I cupped his face in both of my hands.
"I'm sorry in advance as you are going to hear me saying this a lot; tell me if it is too much" I advised.
"Tell me what?" he wondered.
"I want to tell you now as you are not under a love spell" I started as a large grin spread across my lips.
"I love you Ben" I said and I watched as Ben grinned at me.
"I love you too Mal" he said lovingly.
"And for your information I will never get sick of hearing that" he added as he brushed his nose against mine again.
"There is also another reason why I wanted to speak to you alone" he flirted.
"Oh right" I said.
"What?" I teased.
"I would like to continue from where Carlos stopped us" he advised.
"I see" I noted as a smile spread across my lips.
"That is the main reason isn't it?" I laughed.
"No" he said innocently.
"Come here my beautiful Beast" I said and I pressed my lips against Ben's and we fell into a long and loving kiss.
"I will never get sick of that either" Ben breathed as he rested his forehead against mine after we pulled away.
"Me neither" I admitted.
"We are going to need to go back aren't we?" I asked.
"Yes" Ben sighed which made me giggle.
"But after this" he said and he pressed another long and loving kiss against my lips.
"That should tie us over until our goodnight kiss" I laughed.
"Yeah that should do" he chuckled.
"Let's go Ben" I advised as I pulled my face away from Ben's.
"Before someone comes looking for us" I added and me and Ben untangled our arms away from each other and we slowly stood up.
"Ben" I said as a thought then came to me as Ben slid his right hand into my left.
"Yes my love?" he answered lovingly.
"What are we going to do about Uma?" I asked as I remembered that Uma was still at large.
"We will deal with that when we get to it" Ben dismissed.
"I want tonight to be about us" he said as he brushed some loose hair behind my right ear.
"Ok my love" I advised.
"Lead the way" I added and Ben winked at me and I let him lead him from his room and towards our friends and family.