Kun Loon was worried about her daughter. It had been nearly three days since she had gotten back and she hasn't awakened yet. She had been feeding Kagome chicken broth, so she wouldn't starve, but she wasn't sure how long that would be enough. Kagome only woke up once, after Kun Loon had forcefully shook her awake. She only stayed awake long enough to mention that she needed stitches, and then passed out again. Kun Loon, thankfully, knew enough about nursing to be able to stitch her daughter up. Kun loon had changed the bandages for the first two days, but after the second day, Kagome's wounds had mysteriously healed. She wondered if it had to do with her daughter's mysterious Miko powers. She was drawn out of her thoughts by a softly whispered "mama?"
She turned to look at the doorway to the kitchen. There, leaning on the door frame with a blanket about her shaking shoulders, was Kagome. Tears streamed down her face, but her eyes were what gave Kun Loon pause. Her eyes looked dead. It was almost as if her soul had left her body. Kun Loon's own eyes began to tear up. After all, no mother would want their child to look like this. Kun Loon padded across the kitchen to her distraught daughter and embraced her. It took a while, but Kagome finally embraced her back. She began to sob. Large wails that shook her entire frame. Kun Loon was glad that Souta was in school, and not here to witness this. His big sister, his Idol, in so much pain; she didn't think he would be able to bear it. She just held her daughter as she cried hysterically. Each sobbed pained Kun Loon more than anything she had ever been through; even more than when her husband had died. Finally, after what seemed like hours, Kagome calmed down. Kun Loon sat her at the kitchen table and looked at her daughter. "Kagome," Kun Loon began. "Are you listening to me?" She had to ask. She wasn't sure if her daughter was all there anymore. It felt like a large piece of her was lost to the past. Kagome nodded silently. At least some of her old daughter was still in there. "Kagome, you need to eat something. I'm going to make your favorite, Oden." Kun Loon attempted to sound cheerful. Kagome just looked forward blankly.
Kun Loon busied herself with making her daughter something to eat. She looked back to assure herself that Kagome was still there. She was, staring ahead at something unseen. Kun Loon sighed, and sat down in front of her. Kagome didn't even blink. While the noodles were boiling Kun Loon tried in vain to break Kagome from her trance.
"Mom, I'm home!" Souta cried as he burst through the door. He was about to run upstairs when he saw his sister sitting at the kitchen table for the first time in three days. Kun Loon saw his eyes widen. "Onee-chan!" He yelled. He ran to his sister and hugged her. Kun Loon winced when he realized she wasn't hugging him back. He looked into her eyes and saw the nothingness reflected there. Kagome didn't see him; she didn't see anything at the moment. "Mama, what's wrong with her?" He looked to her, his eyes tearing up.
Kun Loon got up and went to hug her son. "I don't know dear. I really don't know." She held him as he cried for his sister. She knew this would happen.
Things had kept going like this for two weeks. Kagome did nothing but mope. She padded around, lost in a memory. Kun Loon was fed up! Kagome had to snap out of it or she was going to waste away. She barely ate and she had terrible night terrors. Kun Loon had to send Souta away to an old friend for the time being, it had gotten so bad. Currently Kagome was in her room sitting at her desk and staring blankly out the window. Kun Loon marched her way to her daughter's room, steeling herself for what she was about to do. "Kagome!" Mama Higurashi slammed the door open. She saw her daughter sitting in the chair and walked over to her. She whirled the chair around and let her have it. Smack! The sound resonated through the silent room. "How can you do this to me?! To Souta?!" She was crying now. Kagome placed a hand on her sore cheek, her eyes showing the first sign of life since she got back. "I didn't raise you to behave like this! Would your friends want you to keep beating yourself up over this! If they were true friends they would want you to live your life happily." Kagome looked at her mother, recognition in her tear filled eyes. She finally realized where she was. "You are a Higurashi! Start acting like one."
Kagome looked down, shamefully. Suddenly, she stood up, startling Kun Loon. Her bangs shadowed her eyes, giving her an ominous look. Kun Loon looked to her daughter worried for a moment. Then, Kagome looked at her, revealing teary blue eyes. "Mama, I'm so sorry." And she was. She wasn't sure what had happened, but she knew her mother was angry with her, and that wasn't a good feeling. She loved her family, more than anything.
Kun Loon crossed her arms over her chest, not ready to forgive her daughter just yet. "Kagome, will you try to get better. If not for yourself than for Souta and I. We miss you, sweet heart. It hurts to see you like this."
Kagome nodded. "I'll try Mama. But I don't know what to do. I feel so lost." Kagome began to sob.
Kun Loon embraced her daughter and kissed the top of her head. "That's why you have family. We'll help you with whatever we can." She pushed her daughter away to look at her. "However, some things we can't help you with. You're going to have to do some stuff on your own."
Kagome nodded, showing that she understood. "Where is Souta, and how is Grandpa?" Kagome's thoughts turned to the two males of her family. She vaguely remembered a note about Grandpa falling.
"I had to send Souta to a friend's house, he was getting too upset watching you waste away." Kun Loon spoke softly, sadly. "Your grandfather is fine. But I was still unconvinced, so I had him stay with someone who could be with him all day. Now that you're…back, I'll bring him home. And Souta too." Kun Loon smiled and led her daughter down the stairs. As they got to the living room, Kagome's stomach let loose with a loud growl.
She laughed embarrassedly. "I guess I'm hungry." Kagome rubbed the back of her head sheepishly.
"And you should be. You haven't really eaten anything since you got home from…" Kun Loon stopped herself. Should she mention the past? She wasn't sure how Kagome would react.
"It's ok mom. I have some good memories of the Feudal Era." Kagome smiles sadly, her eyes taking on an odd look.
"Ok. If you're sure it won't upset you." Kun Loon looked unconvinced. "Let's go get you some lunch. I need to make some phone calls." Kagome followed her mother into the kitchen. Kagome sat down at the table while Kun Loon produced two plates from the cupboard. She pulled out some leftovers from dinner the night before and heated them in the microwave. Smells of crispy fish and rice filled the kitchen. Kagome stomach let loose with another growl. Kagome just looked down in embarrassment again. In no time at all, the two women were sharing lunch together; one glad for the silence, the other yearning for speech. Kun Loon sighed, breaking the silence. She really wanted to know what had happened to make her daughter act this way. When she was still spaced out, she would spend hours outside, even though it was cold, watching the well house. When Kun Loon moved to put a blanket on her, Kagome had nearly attacked her. She was nervous and fidgety. It made Kun Loon wonder…could Kagome potentially have PTSD. She would have to find out. Otherwise…if grandpa, or even worse, Souta, were to sneak up on her, Kagome could really hurt them. Kun Loon looked her daughter over. Aside from the depression and the weight she had lost, Kagome was a strong healthy girl. Kun Loon had to face the facts, her daughter was a killer. Not by choice, but by necessity.
"Mom," Kagome waved her hand in front of her mother's face. "Are you ok?" She had been spacing out and staring at Kagome, without even realizing it.
Kun Loon blinked and refocused on her daughter's face. "I'm fine sweet heart, just a little out of sorts. This has been hard on all of us." Kun Loon stood up. "I have to go make a few phone calls. I'll be back, help yourself to more left over if you're still hungry." Kagome nodded at her mother, still a little worried. She knew she had worried them all, and she felt really guilty about it. Kagome watched her mother walk out of the room. She knew her mother was dying to know what had happened, but Kagome wasn't ready to tell her just yet. She didn't want to relive it just yet. She wasn't strong enough. Kagome fixed herself another plate of food. Normally after not eating for a week, people stop being hungry. Kagome however was not normal. She over used her powers during the final battle and it had taken a large toll on her body. That accompanies with the mental stress, she had just shut down. Her mother had finally been able to wake her up, so now, her body was making extreme demands of her.
"I feel like I could eat a whole cow." Kagome looked down at the plate she had just fixed and sighed. She would just have to make do with this for now. 'I wonder, who is mom is calling?'
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Little Longer chapter this time. I forgot to add this earlier; regardless of what kind of reviews I get, I'm going to keep adding to this. So don't waste your time or mine with flames. However, constructive criticism and words of praise are always welcome.
