It was his third year and Sirius had felt the warmth from the train everyday. But not with Remus, no because Remus was his straight best friend. But why did this matter, Sirius was too, the straightest you could be in fact.

He had had multiple girlfriends and kissed even more. He never felt that way with guys and to be honest he didn't even know about being gay until he saw two boys snogging in the common Room, but that's what happens growing up in a prejudiced family like the black.

But then there was James potter.

James his brother.

James his best mate.

James potter obsessed with Lily Evans.

James potter the boy.

Quite frankly Sirius was scared. Not of his parents, he couldn't give a damn what they thought, but what if his friends would think, of what James would think.

He'd never shown homophobia before and Remus was possibly the most accepting person Sirius knew.

(Maybe he really was Hufflepuff after all..?)

Pete though, well, he had. Not openly but he seemed uncomfortable discussing such subjects and Sirius saw a flicker of anger and disgust flit his face when he saw Rosier and gudgeon kissing in a corner of the dungeon.

"Hey mate d'ya recon Evans would go out with..."

Sirius was acutely aware of the hand on his shoulder and the way his damp quidditch shirt stuck to his toned chest. He thanked merlin that James played quiddich for it gave Sirius something to zone out and think about in a particularly dull history of magic class...

"Oi you paying attention?"

"Err sorry?"

"I was saying about asking Evans.."

Evans Sirius was beginning to hate that name but that was stupid because Sirius didn't care who James liked. Sirius was STRAIGHT.

"Dude what did that apple do to you."

That was the second time today he killed innocent fruit while zoning out about James... maybe he did like him just a bit...

But that was wrong. He didn't think it was wrong but his parents did. His parents would kill him faster if they knew and if he didn't tell them himself

He scoffed at the thought of even talking them then regulus or narssisa or Bellatrix would for sure and peter hated homosexuality he had told them the night before and Remus almost hit him.

No matter what, no one would find out but first, Sirius has to accept he was falling for James. There he said it.