In next few days, Quinn watched them from the distance. She would sometimes just follow him to watch him and Beth together. She was really surprised to see Puck like that. He was so taken by Beth that he didn't notice her standing behind them. She was fighting the urge to get closer to them and get to know her daughter. She couldn't…. Beth didn't fit the plan she made… She couldn't be a mother at seventeen. She turned seventeen few weeks after giving birth and she didn't feel like celebrating. She was still battling her depression and sometimes in her sleep she could feel Beth move inside of her. Her mother was making planes for her and Quinn was getting more and more lost in some sort of personal hell. She wanted Yale, career and all that her mom talked about, but there was something driving her to that bundle Puck carried around the school with so much pride. She was ashamed of being pregnant at sixteen, and he was so proud of Beth. After Puck stopped fooling around with girls, dynamic in school changed. He was still very wanted, but he was not interested in anyone…but Santana. They spent a lot of time together with the baby and Quinn was surprised how good Santana was with Beth. Brittany started dating Artie and Quinn guessed that was the reason Santana was now with Puck. From Quinn's prospective, Santana and Puck seemed happy. She would hold the baby, play with it, help him change her and few times she and her mom were at the mall, they would see them together with Beth in the stroller. Quinn was fuming with jealousy.
Puck felt bad for Quinn, but he was not the one to chaise after her and force her to have any relationship to Beth. She was her mother, if she didn't feel the need to be there for her child, he was not going to force her to be the mother. He would be liar if he said he didn't need the help with Beth and he found it in the last person he expected. He was taking Beth for a walk when he found Santana crying in the park. He took a seat beside her and she turned to lash at him but he just hugged her.
''It will be ok…''
''What are you talking about?''
''You and Britt…''
''What?''
''I know it Lopez… And my lips are sealed…''
''What do you know?''
''That you are in love with her…''
''I am not gay…''
''I didn't say that. I said you love her…''
She just gave him a look…
''And I am ok with it… As I told you before... You love who you love…''
''And you love your baby mama who dumped your ass…''
Puck was silent for a moment…
''I do… But I will not force her to love me… I know she doesn't love me… But you, on the other hand… You pushed away the person who worships the ground you walk on out of fear…''
''I can't come out…''
''Not even for her?''
''My family… Everyone will reject me…''
''But the person who matters will be by your side…''
''You don't get it… You never had to live up to anyone's expectations.''
''Yes, I am a Lima loser…''
''I didn't want to say that. I was saying your mom gave you a chance to be what you want to be… And that baby in your lap proves it. My father would disown me if he knew I…''
''Lopez, your secret is safe with Beth and me. I promise. And if he kicks you out, you have me… My mom loves you…Beth loves you…''
Santana smiled at him…
''Thanks..''
''Lopez, you are my family…''
She just rolled her eyes at him.
''You are lame Puckerman…''
''And you love it..''
''Not always…''
''Come on! You do love me all the time…''
He looked around and saw a hotdog stand.
''You take Beth and I will get us some hotdogs and coke… Is that ok with you?''
She nodded and smiled at the baby in his arms.
''She looks so much like Q.''
''She does... She is her clone.''
Beth became fussy and he knew it was feeding time.
''Young lady expects her meal too…''
Santana took the bottle out of the bag and smiled at him.
''So, let's feed the raging beast.''
He gave her Beth to feed her and he went to get some food for them. Puck and Santana grew into some very unusual thing. She loved Beth and she picked to give Beth something she never had, a mother. Santana's mom left when she was a baby and she was raised by the father who looked after her and gave her all he had. He had such a high expectations of her and she didn't want to fail him. Regardless of how much she loved her dad, she missed having a mom or at least a female figure to be there for her. She found something like that in Britt's mom, but now she doesn't have even her since she and B are in a pickle. Feeding Beth and seeing such a cute helpless creature, she decided she will be the mom that she needs. No baby on her watch would ever feel what she felt. Every weekend Puck had full hands. He found a job and Santana was coming to take care of Beth. She would pick her up from Puck's mom in the morning and return her on Sunday or Monday morning at school.
Quin was getting very angry and jealous. She noticed that for weeks her baby is with Santana. She goes with her to the mall, to the supermarket and there is no Puck. He was giving her the baby. One day she found Santana feeding the baby by the lake where Quinn would often go for the run.
''What are you doing with her?''
''I am taking care of her…''
''Why? Where is Puck?''
''He is working. He has to support her. She is not eating air… Her food and stuff cost money Quinn… And Puck doesn't have it growing in the trees. He is working to provide for HIS child. He is being a PARENT!''
''And he is leaving her with you?''
''And who should he leave her with? As you know, only family she has are his mom and him. Since they work every day, he needs someone to take care of her.''
''And he picked you?''
Santana had to hurt Quinn in order to get her to snap and change things in her life. She had to wound deep to get Quinn to do the right thing.
''Yes, I am the closest to mother this baby has…''
''Poor child…if you are the mother she has. Teenage whore…Bitch and mean person…Your own mother didn't want you…''
Quinn could give as good as she could take…
''Well, that's why I am here… So this poor girl never feels unwanted. Maybe I didn't give birth to her and I am all that you said…But at least I am there. I am there to see her grow and change every day. I get to see her smile at me... I get to feed her, change her and love her.''
''All that because you want Puck.''
''No, it has nothing to do with him. We are not together Quinn. I am just there for Beth.''
''You are whore Santana! I am surprised how you didn't get pregnant by now and had like five children.''
''Because I use protection Quinn. I am whore, but I am not stupid. I take care of myself.''
''Good! Any child would be cursed to have you as a mother!''
''Good thing that you are such a blessing Quinnie… Your daughter would be proud to say that you are her mom… ''Look, there is my mommy… A woman that left me few hours after I was born! Good job mommy…''
Their little rant was interrupted by Britt and her mom. Britt came to Santana and looked at the baby.
''She is getting big.''
''Yes, she is… She even started eating more. Now she eats almost entire bottle.''
''Oh, she is just like you. Eats like there is no tomorrow.''
''Yes. Apparently some of my bad habits are rubbing of her.''
Mrs. Pierce took the baby from Santana and started talking to her. Beth was smiling at her but after some noise at the park she started crying and pointing hands towards Santana asking her to pick her up.
''Shhh… It's ok…Shhhh.. You are fine now…''
Beth calmed a bit and studied people around them.
''Santana, I hope to see you soon in our house. It's Adam's birthday next weekend. We are expecting you.''
''Mrs. Pierce, I am sure if I could come. I have to take Beth again. Puck is working and…''
''Bring her. She will be ok. There are a lot of us ladies who miss having babies around. She will be taken care of.''
''Ok. We will be there then. I must go now. It's her time to get changed and fed. See you around Britt. Mrs. Pierce…''
Santana left and Mrs. Pierce had some space to ask Quinn how she is with all of this.
''I don't know… I am so angry with him giving the baby to Santana. He should be taking care of her. He took her from Shelby and now he is not there.''
''Honey, he is working. She needs things, they cost money.''
''Of all the people, Santana. Why her?''
''Because she knows how it feels…''
''What?''
''To be living with just one parent…''
Mrs. Pierce tried to be careful with her words. She didn't want to hurt Quinn.
''But that's Santana. She is bitch, evil and bad person…''
''She will never hurt Beth…''
''How do you know Britt? She even hurt you!''
''She will never do it to Beth, because she knows…''
''Knows what?''
''How it feels…''
''I don't get it..''
''Her mommy abandoned her too… She will be the mommy for Beth… You remember when we were little how she cried and wished almost every New year for her mom to come back… And she never did. That is why she is taking care of Beth. She doesn't want Beth to live without having a mommy. And Beth will not be sad as Santana…because she will have the best mommy in the world. Santana will be good mommy to her…''
Quinn couldn't listen to this anymore.
''I… I… I must go… I have some things to do.''
Next weekend Quinn and Santana saw one another again. Santana came with Beth dressed in a beautiful red dress. She and Santana were matching and they looked so cute. Beth was in a stroller and Santana was singing her to sleep in a distant corner of the garden. Mrs. Fabrey and Quinn stood and watched her. Quinn's mom was angry at Pierces for not telling her that Santana would be there with Beth.
''Why is she here?''
''Because she is Britt's friend…''
''And that child?''
''I asked her to bring Beth. We all miss having babies around and if she didn't bring her, she wouldn't have come.''
''Why?''
''Because she takes care of her. She is raising the baby with Puck.''
''Oh, my God! That poor baby. She could have done better with Shelby…''
''Or her mom…''
With that Mrs. Pierce left two Fabray women to contemplate. She took some food and drink to Santana who watched Beth sleep.
''Hungry?''
''A bit.''
''Are you ok?''
''Yes, I am.. How are you?''
''A bit tired. These parties are crazy.''
''I see..''
Adam and his friends were having fun and running all around. Santana smiled at sight of the young Pierce boy. She loved him very much. She was with Britt when he was born and she saw him as a baby brother too. Mrs. Pierce went to deal with the kids crisis and Santana stayed some more time with Beth. After she woke up, she got her out of the stroller and carried her to the place where kids were. Other moms took her and each of them played a bit with her. Beth was happy with all the attention , but she followed Santana with her eyes. Ladies told her she was beautiful and Santana blushed. Quinn was very hurt by the attention Santana got and how Beth looked at her and she had to hurt back.
''You got carried away in playing mom… You are not her mother...''
''I get to be the mom she doesn't have. I will give my best not to have ask herself what got her mommy to leave her after she was only few hours old. I will not let another person have those questions as long as I live. I love this child Quinn and she loves me back…''
Santana picked up her stuff and took Beth away.
