TWILIGHT BELONGS TO SM. THIS CHAPTER IS RATED R FOR MENTIONS OF RAPE, AND TORTURE, AS WELL AS OTHER THINGS.
THE STORY WILL BE GETTING BETTER FOR BELLA AND IT WILL BECOME A LOT MORE INTRESRING AS IT GOES ON BUT WE HAVE TO SET UP A STANDING POINT AND THERE'S WHERE THIS CHAPTER COMES IN, SO PLEASE ENJOY.
AND AGAIN RATED R SO IF YOUR SENSITIVE TO SOME THINGS PROCEED WITH CAUTION OR SKIP STRAIGHT TO THE BOTTOM FOR A LESSER RATED SUMMARY OF THE CHAPTER.
BPOV
He left. Him, Alice, Esme, Carlisle, everybody just left. That's the only thing I could let myself focus on. I would break down if I thought of it.
I try not to let the memories take over but it's so hard. If only I could forget.
"Bella!" Charlie calls up to me but I don't speak, talking makes it worse. "Bells you back home yet?"
Woods. The one reason why I was out. The one place that was my safety zone ripped away.
A memory pushes its way through as I started to give Charlie my answer.
"No!" I didn't mean to yell it out but it was there. The memory of the woods.
2WEEKS LATER
I've been able to keep it away. But I find myself unable to sleep or eat both things reminding me of them, of him, of the woods.
2WEEKS MORE
Nothing is working the memories are getting by. I keep seeing all the blood, and him. Churned items from my room. My life for the past year. Turned into something I didn't recognize. Something deadly to my simple human mind. A destruction of any innocence. He is a monster the night in the woods taught me that.
A MONTH LATER
"No, NO NO NO NO NO!" "please please no!" "Edward please don't do this to me." I cry with every atom of my being as he gains momentum, closer and closer I can already feel what's going to happen. With my last shred of hope I yell.
"GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME. NOOO, STOP, NO NO NO NO NO. I struggle even though I know nothing will come of it, that I can not escape.
"BELLA!" "BELLA calm down it's okay. It's alright."
It wasn't and we both knew it. It was happening every night reminding me of just how dangerous I am if I was to speak of it. Of anything.
He sighs heavily, and I blanch. Charlie's grown tired of me I know it, I wouldn't expect anything else from him, I've been keeping him awake at night worrying him every second of the day. But he's the only good left in my life, The one relief. Even if I can't tell him what has me like this he is one of the only reasons I go on this way, and he's worth it. I wish he knew that.
I stare blankly, knowing that if for one second I even act like I'm going to tell he'll be there, and Charlie no longer will be. I sit and I look out of my window blankly, seeing the fire of Victoria's eyes as well as her hair. Seeing the evil gleam in Edwards eyes warning me, as I plead, and I'm put into a submissive place again and again.
I tried so hard not to let it take over but now, I can feel it. It's the only way to protect Charlie.
I let it take over. Feeling the memories asault my mind. Seeing images I'd worked so hard to keep buried. The fire of venom in my vains being pushed in and sucked out repeatedly everytime I cried for help. Hands of a lover holding me down as Victoria lay her revenge in my innocence, Every innocence of body and mind.
Guiding while Laurent helped to make it as painful as possible. All as Edward held me down taunting me, as he cast me with hateful eyes warning me not to speak. That Charlie and my beloved La Push boys would pay for my mistakes if I was to utter a word. Watching as Edward drained a friend from school, slowl pushing venom into his vains, burning him as the transformation started. Hours on end of torture with a final 4 words.
"Keep quiet, for Charlie." He whispers leaving me with the scars of their actions, Bruises, pieces of my soul gone memories scorched into my brain all while the smell of burnt items surrounded me with only one thing still there. Leaving me incapable of talking because if I talked everyone around me will be dead. All because of me. The burning body of a classmate and a single tape reminding me that I will never be able to forget.
As I stared past reality, into the nightmare of that night I shut myself down I could no longer see Charlie, I didn't hear him. I could only feel him, just as I could feel all the hands and the bodies that passed me in the next 2 months.
Trying to reach me not knowing that I was far beyond anyone's reach.
Month 5
Bell's." I don't answer I never do. I can hear them now. Hear the voices over the memories of my screams, for help. I don't speak, after all this time of holding it in it's easier not to utter anywords at all.
He clears his throat finally pushing open the door to my room. "Um yeah so I've got an out of state case in a couple days. I'll be gone for a minimum of 3 weeks, unless we can magically solve this case, Billy says you can stay at his place, but I have to leave today, being out of state and all. Will you be okay to shower and pack or should I call Emily or Sue.
Emily, and Sue. They've been here everyday they could talking to me holding me. I don't let myself give in. They don't know how much harder they make it. Keeping it on, with the arms of a mother and a sister holding me together.
I shake my head no. But I don't move I don't want Charlie to see me in my tank top and shorts. It showed too much of what wasn't there.
He quickly leaves the room, I know why. I've learned through the whispers he's terrified of my state. I slowly gather myself to the egde of my bed. I glance in the mirror not surprised of how much of me is lost. I don't eat I don't sleep I'm wasting away. I glance out into the Forest. A memory of pain flashing before my eyes. Now matter how my life ends Charlie will be safe.
I take a shower slowly. My bones as well as my muscles protesting with every movement. I almost give up. But I refuse to let him take anything else from Charlie. I refuse to let him take away anything else from me.
Charlie groans when he sees me. I try not to care. But it infuriates me. This is all Edward's fault. The way I'm hurting my father to save his life. Because of Edward.
We drive out to La Push, Charlie sparring glances my way every chance he can get. Something Is bothering him, and it isn't just me.
Yet he doesn't say a thing. Guess he's sick of not getting an answer.
"Charlie Bella." Billy greets. Sending a look my way. "Billy, good to see ya and thank ya for all this. I gotta get on the road but she should have everything she'll need and here's some extra just in case."
I try to ignore the fact that Charlie is leaving because of me. He does have an out of state job, but I know he isn't driving. I found his ticket as he will be taking a plane to Chicago. He doesn't need to be there for another week but he's leaving this early. I know I'm the reason why and I can't stand it. But this will help him so I don't even show that I know of his lie.
He kisses my forhead and I almost let myself take pleasure in the parental feeling of the kiss, such a thing I now don't have the luxury of missing.
"Bye bells love you, don't give Billy any trouble."
Once Charlie is gone Billy looks at me, his face hardens and he looks disgusted. He says to me only two words. Two words so powerful the only thing I can do is follow them.
"Go Eat." And for the first time in a while I try.
FOR THOSE WHO WANTED THE SUMMARY HERE YOU ARE:
Edward took Bella into the woods much like the original twilight, only he was working with Victoria and Laurent. They forced Venom and other things into Bella's body. Scarring her with teeth marks of venom once they drained it out of her, much like in the original movie / book.
Bella was warned not to speak, for the lives of Charlie and the boys. Who she doesn't know are wolves just yet. She is plagued by the memories of the night for months after two months she completely shuts herself down, not eating or sleeping. Letting the memories take her. 2 months more is when Charlie has to leave for a case out of state and she goes to stay with Billy. Who tells her to 'Go Eat'. The chapter ending in her thoughts of 'for the first time In a while, I try'.
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XoiCullen💋