Mike carefully takes them to the station. By the time that they get back to the station, Johnny is there, in uniform and making a new pot of coffee.
"Johnny, you are not in trouble, but can I see you in my office please?" Hank asks his youngest crew member.
"Sure Cap. Just let me finish this please….." he practically begs.
"Sure John," Cap says knowing that Johnny lived off of coffee and he looked like he really needed it. When John finishes making it and pours himself a cup, he goes to the office.
"Hey Johnny, are you okay?" Cap asks him using his more youthful nickname that was more preferred. "You look like you are down in the dumps today. Do you want to talk about it or do you want to go lie down and wait for Roy, buddy?"
"Cap, if you don't mind, I just want to lay down and go to sleep." Johnny replies, Cap agrees and helps Johnny stand up the guides him to the dorm and helps him lay down on his bunk. Johnny immediately falls asleep. While he is sleeping his left arm comes up over his eyes. Roy and Dwyer make it back within a few minutes of Johnny falling asleep. Roy goes to the Rec Room and grabs a cup of coffee and Johnny's lunch. Dwyer goes and changes so he can go home.
"Cap, can you stand down the squad till I figure out what is with Johnny?" ROy asks. He walks across the station to the dorm. He chuckles at Johnny and goes over to carefully wake Johnny up knowing he doesn't like being touched. He slowly wakes up and sees Roy.
"What's wrong Johnny?" Roy asks sitting next to Johnny handing him his lunch. Johnny sets the plate down next to him.
"Johnny I know you don't want to tell me thinking I will be mad at you or it will hurt me, but you need to trust me and you need to tell someone. You can't keep it all bottled up anymore." Roy replies quietly. Johnny takes a deep breath and lets it out.
"Are you sure you want to hear this?" Johnny asks.
"Yes Johnny, I'm sure" Roy says.
"As you know, I'm Half-Native American, Half-White, and my mom and dad's family disowned them because they did not agree with what they did. They loved each other and decided to get married. They met when my dad was visiting a friend and they went to the reservation close by and the friend introduced them. He did not want to talk to her because she thought that she was like the others and would hate him because he was white. But the feelings were the same, true love! I soon joined them and I was the best thing that ever happened to them. When I was eight, he was killed in a fire. I came home from school and it really hurt. Mom and I went back home and I was told to show no emotions by my grandpa. Mom died of cancer and my family made sure that I knew that they were not happy with raising me. When I was 14, my father's sister came and took me to her house but the damage was done, I did not want to feel anything and get hurt even more. I joined the Fire Department and you know the rest. If you did not do what you did, I would still be living in the emotional void. You saved me. But today 20 years ago, my dad died and that drunk guy this morning reminded me of what happened after he died" Johnny finishes his story and he starts sobbing. Roy just holds him and lets him cry.
"Shh… Johnny, go to sleep. I will be here when you wake up" Roy says sweeping the hair out of his face. Roy carefully lays him down. Roy walks into the Rec Room and grabs another cup of coffee.
"How's he doing?" Cap asks "Does he need to go home?"
"I think he needs to stay here, it will be better for him." Roy says
"Whatever you think Roy" Cap says.
A/N: Sorry about the lack of updates. I have a lot of work and SOL's are coming up so lots of work. I will update as soon as I can. Just bear with me please! I will do all I can to update quickly!