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Chapter 2

Mebe missing you

~ * Nathan * ~

I sit on the couch in my living room and rest my head back, staring up at the ceiling.I sigh. Today's gonna be a boring day. I don't have to go to work, my family and friends are out of town and Madisen has a photo-shoot.

I smile as my dog comes walking up to me and put him on the couch next to me, petting him. ''Hi litte guy…'' I say. ''I guess it's just me and you today huh.'' He barks excitedly and I chuckle slightly as he starts licking my hand.

My life hasn't been too bad lately. My career is going well. I don't have that much acting jobs but surely enough to live from. It's actually perfect cause this way I get to spend more time with my family and friends. With my fans too by the way. It's great to have all these signings around the country and meet them.

My relationship with Madisen is going pretty well too. We have a lot of fun together and I really love her. We also get along with each other's friends very well so that's a good thing.

I'm very thankful for everything in my life so I can't complain. But to be honest, there's something missing…

Since iCarly ended there's been an empty spot in my life…something that's missing. I miss how I went to work happily every morning even though it was like 5 a.m. I didn't mind cause I was welcomed by my second family. We really had the best bond ever and the atmosphere on set was just truly amazing. I wish iCarly was still be going on… I miss it more than anything.

I miss how Dan used to tease us, I miss how the crew would pull pranks on us, I miss how I had hilarious conversations with Noah, I miss how Jerry used to teach me wise, yet hilarious life lessons, I miss how I goofed around and laughed with Miranda…But there's one thing, well, one person…that I miss so much that it tears me apart inside every day…

Jennette… I sigh deeply. I miss her more than words can explain. I don't know where things went wrong between us…we used to be best friends, we had so much fun, we were so close! I know why we drifted apart though… It all started when Madisen and I started dating.

Jathan shippers went absolutely nuts and they started sending Madisen hate…I really wasn't bothered by it at first until it got so bad that Madisen would eventually come to my house almost every night crying… I felt so bad for her and just wanted to make it stop. So I did…but in wrong way, I realized later.

I realized that I had now hurt my own fans… and not only my own but also Jennette's. I felt so bad and ashamed that I eventually started talking less to her and started to disconnect myself from her a little more which caused us to drift apart… That was NEVER my intention.

Ever since then things were different between us, Jennette didn't tell me stuff anymore, we didn't have those fun conversations that we had anymore. Everything changed, at it's all my fault.

I miss how much fun we used to have, I miss how she would make me laugh, I miss how we would tease each other, I miss how we were able to tell each other everything, I miss our conversations, the useless ones but also the serious ones, I miss how we would cheer each other up when the other was upset, I miss hugging her, I miss her smile, I miss her hair, I miss her eyes…I JUST MISS HER SO FREAKING MUCH!

The time Jennette was still my best friend was literally the best time of my life. I started to create feelings for her after our seddie kiss in iKiss. But since I was pretty sure of it that she didn't have the same feelings for me, and since I didn't want to ruin our friendship, I tried to push my feelings for her away. Until today, I still haven't completely succeed in that…

Yes I fell in love with Madisen too, but I've still got feelings for Jennette too…and if I could choose between dating Jennette or Madisen…I'd choose Jennette… Which gives me kind of a bad feeling cause it feels like cheating on Madisen. I don't want to hurt her, cause I do really love her… Everything's just so hard! I sigh deeply again.

After iCarly Jennette and I never hung out again…not one on one anyway. Just at some award shows and in groups, and then again we barely talked, which broke my heart into a million pieces.

But besides missing Jennette, I'm also jealous and worried about her. Since she started dating this Paul guy she's changed…a lot! And how could a basic guy like HIM get such an amazing girl like HER? I really don't get what she sees in him…

And that's not the only thing, I know this Paul guy, he's worked on iCarly and then got fired because he was an alcoholic! Plus, he's been checking out Jennette since she was FOURTEEN! He's a freaking perverted bastard! And I don't want him around Jennette! He has an extremely bad influence on her and I don't even know what happens when his bad side comes out…

I'm just truly so worried and concerned about Jennette! She's changed…and I just know that she isn't as happy as she used to be! That fake smile she puts on and everyone believes, doesn't work on me…

Thoughts like this have been running through my mind for months now…and they're killing me! I can't take this anymore…I can't just watch Jennette break a little more every day!

I grab my phone and dial Jennette's number. I take a deep breath and wait for her to answer. After a little while she still hasn't…I end the call and sigh deeply. This can't be good…I have to do something!