AN: Wow, it really boost one's ego when someone says you should continue. Thank you! Let's hope it'll be worth it.

Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. The plane crashed. Shut up. I'm married to an ortho surgeon. Where's my shoes? Derek? Derek? Derek? Lexie? We crashed. The plane crashed. No, I can do it myself. You go and find Derek. Shut up. Shut up. Oh god. Lexie is dead. Mark hang on. We have to get back to Sofia. Sofia and Calliope. There's bugs in my leg. I'm going to die. Mark, hang on. It's cold. The wolves, they're going to eat us. Callie I love you. Oh god my leg. I'm married to an ortho god. She can fix me. I'm going to die. Mark don't you die on me. Shut up. Shut up. Where's my shoes? Oh god, Sofia. I miss you. I love you! Hey baby. You ready for round two? You were so good. I love your mouth. That thing you do with your tongue? Never had any better. Yeah, I'm so ready for another round. So wet for you. I bet your wife never could do this to you. Sofia! Callie! I love you. Where's my shoes? No, I can splint it myself. Mark, we have to make it out alive. Mmm, baby, just let go. Come for me, baby. Callie can't satisfy you like I can.

"NO, I love my wife!" Arizona screamed as she tried to wake herself. She was sweating profusely and couldn't shake the nightmare which still had her in its grip. As she trashed in bed she suddenly fell of the bed landing on her limb and screamed in pain. She couldn't stop shaking and her sobs were threatening to overwhelm her. She looked around her room but felt disoriented. She had been staying at the Archfield the few times she hadn't slept at the hospital. Neither option was particularly good but what choice did she have? As she looked down she saw her legs, or rather her leg and that stupid limb.

"I hate you. I hate you." She used her hands and hit her limb. She was crying hard but every time she stopped hitting her limb the panic came back. She couldn't calm herself down. A fucking nightmare and I'm back to the plane crash. Deep breaths Arizona, deep breaths. I am a doctor for god sake. I know this.

Some time later she had calmed down considerably and slowly made her way towards her bathroom. As she let the water cascade over her, washing her clean from the nightmare she knew she had some tough decisions to make. It was time to step up and be the woman she knew she was. How was she supposed to solve anything with Calliope if she couldn't love herself as she was? She had to get to know herself again, find herself again and love herself again. The pity party was over. It really had been, for a long time.

She cleaned up the messy hotel room, packed the few bags she had and headed towards the hospital where she threw her bags in her office before heading down to the Chief. It was the middle of the night but she knew Hunt would be there. He usually was.

She stepped right in and closed the door. She had come prepared. She knew what she was going to say. Or at least she thought so.

"Doctor."

"Robbins, what are you doing here?

"Hunt, I need a leave of absence." She started. She wasn't really afraid of him turning her down just that he might question her decisions.

"I'm not going to bail but I need to get back to myself. I need to fix this. Fix me. I need to love myself again." She was a bit surprised with her own wording but then again, Hunt knew what she was going through. He really knew and maybe he was the only one understanding what she actually felt. The other doctors didn't seem to think that much about the crash any longer.

"Arizona. What do you mean? What are you going to do? Don't do anything rash."

"Rash?" Arizona laughed.

"Rash would be sleeping with someone else while your wife is waiting for you. With your daughter. Rash would be throwing hateful words around just so you might feel a little bit better because you could hurt the once you love" She stopped. It was not his problem and he didn't deserve her anger. It was not him he was upset with.

"I'm not going to leave. I've packed up the hotel room I was staying at. I going to head up to psych." She paused when he saw the horrifying look on Hunt's face. If this wasn't so serious it had been fun.

"Not to be admitted." She hastily threw out. "Just to get a therapist, for myself, to help me. And then I'm going over to Mark's. I can't live in a suitcase." She studied his face but he didn't say anything.

"You see Hunt. I do have a problem. And I'm finally saying that I do."

Callie was tired. She really was. Why couldn't people just let her be for a few minutes? She understood they were angry with Arizona and just wanted to help but god dammit. Didn't they understand that they weren't allowed to trash her? SHE was but their friends not so much. They should just butt out and shut up. SHE was allowed to say whatever the hell she wanted about Arizona but them. That was a no no. She just wanted a quiet evening, a glass of wine and some music. She didn't want to think about all the drama and everything that had happened. Just a quiet night alone without thinking.

As she rode the elevator up to their apartment she thought about Addison's phone call. Maybe it would be good for them to go out of town for a while. Just to get her bearings and come to terms with all that had happened. Maybe they should all go. She could easily take a leave of absence for a while. Sofia, well if she was on vacation so was her little girl. She smiled at that thought. A nice little mini vacation with just the three of them. Maybe Spain. She never did take Arizona to Spain. Africa and Sofia happened. A wedding happened. It was one of the absolute best days of her life. How amazing it felt to stand there and pledge a life together. She frowned then she remembered. Oh, Dr Fuck happened. How easy it was to forget.

When she turned the key opening the door Sofia rushed inside screaming for mama.

"Mama, mama." Her voice was heading towards a full scream and tears were trickling down her cheeks. "Mama, mama. I want Mama."

Callie was used to this by now. Sofia missed her mama and while they did see each other during the days the nights were still spent solely with her. Sofia didn't understand why her mama wasn't there anymore and she missed her. Callie missed her too.

"Sof, mama's not here tonight. She's working. Come on let's eat and then it's off to bed for you missy." She smiled at Sofia but she wasn't interested.

"Mama, mama, mama, mama. No work. I want mama." Before Callie had even tried to placate the crying child, Sofia was smashing down the plates left from yesterday's dinner from the table.

"Mama, mama." She hiccupped. "I want mama."

Callie stared at Sofia. She was sitting on the floor surrounded by broken plates and leftover food. She was smashing plates as fast as she could and screaming for her mama. Callie's heart ached. For Sofia. For Arizona. For herself. Her daughter was sitting crying her eyes out for her mama and Callie had absolutely no idea what to do. She wanted to call Arizona. Get her to come home. To her, to Sofia, to her family. She was so tired and seeing Sofia throwing an emotional tantrum broke her heart. Was this what her family was becoming? She quickly closed the distance between them, sat down next to Sofia, picked her up and hugged her.

"Oh, Sofia, I miss her too. So, so much." She started to rock back and forth as she talked soothingly.

"We're just in a bad place now. We'll get through it, somehow." She continued to rock and Sofia slowly calmed down.

"We love mama, don't we, Sof. She loves us. She loves you Sofia. Mama loves you."

Sofia looked up at Callie with tearful eyes. She was beginning to tire and wanted to be comforted.

"Mama loves Sofia." She said. "I love mama. We love mama. Mama home soon?"

Callie closed her eyes and nodded. "Mama home soon."

AN: So, hope this was good as well. Feel free to point out errors I've made.