Muhahaha!! Some people actually read my story, quit a few too. Ha! Ok now on with is...

Lol whoops! I killed Kakashi... much lighter

3 week s ago-

Dragging his feet heavily as his shoulders slowly sunk and hunched, his breathing was hushed and his heart was beating irregular.

'Why my is my heart so broke' he heaved his hands into his pockets.

His head swayed every which way. Sauntering away from the school building Iruka gradually exhaled. 'And this is yet another day that I have gone unseen.' Strolling through a well worn path toward his apartment, occasionally stopping to catch up with his racing thoughts.

'I wish he would just look my way. But wishes don't come true for people like me. Little does he know that I die each time he walks away from me. But all it would take is one breath or on touch and then I could be saved. I would die and the with my last breath maybe I would tell him, how he makes me feel.'

Little did everyone know that Iruka's smile is a façade? But no one cares to look underneath it all, all the layers, and barriers he put up since he was a child. Sorrow filled his heart but if he let his smile down even for a little bit someone would worry and then he could never forgive himself.

"I wonder how this had got so bad" he sighed breathily.

Kakashi, he was sure hated him because the one and only time he talked he said "they are no longer you students there my solders."

He remembered that day. But he could never tell that jounin how he almost fainted. How, whether or not he meant it, caused him to wilt and sink into a darkness ooh so cold. Kakashi was his sunlight. He was his heartache.

Looking up from his daze he glanced at the sky. So blue and bright. To bright to his own liking. he heaved a moan and let his head drift back downward at the ground resuming this miserable vibe he had been senscing. It was times like this that really made him feel pathetic.

"Kakashi could never be with me. He's like a character from fairytale; he's just waiting for a princess to pick up, not a good-for-nothing school teacher."

Iruka unexpectenly felt a burst of hope as the wind blew within him. ' Maybe someday, maybe even in my dream, he will be able to save.' He smiled at the thought.

Quickening his step he continued his pondering, increasingly annoyed at the thought of never being with him . "Where's my fairytale?"

"Huh?"

'Shit! I said that out loud'

His eyes flashed, moving towards the direction he thought he noted the voice from but all he saw was a glimpse of silver hair glimmer in the sunlight . A hand caressed his hip and calmly curved its way upward procceding toward his shoulder blade hesitating before resting. He jumped at first, but then eased into the touch

. "Talking to yourself...sensei"

'notgood, notgood, notgood!'

A glowing crimson red blush swept though his face starting from his ears melting into his cheeks. His hands became sticky and sweat found a way to pore out from his sun kissed skin. He could tell that whatever decided to come out of his jaw, his voice would probably be shaky and unsteady like his inners had. He didn't even want to begin with how nervous and embarrassed he felt.

"uhh…"

'shit say something Iruka' he examined the ground, beaming harshly at it. A small sparkle of concern flashed through the jounin's single grey eye.

"You okay, Iruka…-chan?"

'Oh well, fuck honorific' Kakashi thought as he tested his barriers with the honorific's.

'iruka-chan' he thought, 'mmm, I think I like that one'

Kakashi's words didn't reach him, well they didn't until his steady pace was interrupted. Iruka's path was blocked with kakshis hands on either side of his shoulders, kakashi's grey eyes fixed into his him, silver hair swaying care free in the wind.

The blush on Iruka's cheeks burning even more and became four shades darker. He felt his body tempeture sky rocket. His blood was boling.

'Fuck butterflies, I have bats in my stomach!' still silence hung heavy in the spring day.

"nuh-nuh-nothing-…….." he paused inversely lowering his gaze.

"I-i-im…uh just thinkin"

Kakashi hummed and nodded in approval, apparently he didn't take just that as an answer.

'Yeh,' Iruka thought and chuckled inwardly at the thought, 'thinking of you....'

"Thinking about what so intently?"

"Iruka-chan" he tested. Kakashi leaned into the chounin closer so there forehead protectors clashed with a quick clank. Iruka's thoughts really got jumbled up now. He could feel kakashi's breath from his mask his eyes closed shut for a brief moment.

Iruka gone from a bright scarlet to a pale ghost white.

'I might actually faint' a breath escaped from the chounins lips.

'Kami, how I longed for his lips to touch, for his arms to hold and body to love' Iruka's eyes closed as both of their face absentmindedly moved in closer.

He could feel the chounin's breathe against his clothed cheek and he could feel his body heat. It felt so right. Right before his lips almost connected with his secret crush his body moved oppositely from his mind and he pushed Kakashi away. But he pushed him with more force than intended and he stood as he watch Kakashi crash into a tree behind them.

*pop*(lol, sorry bad sound effect)

'it was a clone?' Iruka silently cursed himself for ever thinking he could get that close to Kakashi.

To deep in thought he couldn't hear the rustling of the trees leafs behind him or the swift footsteps that leapt through the air.

'That was close' Mizuki apprehended as he servayed the area.

Startled by his surroundings Kakashi looked around him. 'What happened to Iruka?'

Crap did I bring mizuki into this?

Mizuki- and???

Me- I don't like you

Mizuki- you don't have to

Me- uhh…..akwaaard!

Mizuki-akward just like me fucking Iruka?

like? hate? i dont care but tell meh in duh review!

Me- what did you say???!!

Mizuki- uhh nothing.' maybe I took it to far….'