I took my hand from his cheek and he grinned widely. His smile warmed my heart like the sun. He reached out his long arms and embraced me tightly. I felt every part of his body crushed to me. Electric sparks ran up and down my spine.
I sat down on the ground and shifted my weight so I was facing him. "I he-heard you and my father talking yesterday" I stuttered. "I don't understand. Please explain everything to me." I knew that he would. He could never keep anything from me. It was almost funny. Aunt Alice once made the mistake of telling him what my 2nd birthday present was, a dollhouse, well more like a doll mansion. I was dying to know and I begged him to tell me what I was getting. It didn't take more than two minutes to get it all from him. Everyone was furious. But he kept saying "what? Did you really expect me to keep anything from her." I was lucky to have him.
"Well, what exactly did you hear?" Jake questioned. "Everything" I retorted.
Jake glanced at the sky. "You already know I imprinted upon you. But what you don't know is what exactly that means" He shifted uncomfortably.
My heart started racing.
"Maybe its better if I explain it as an unbreakable promise. When I first saw you, my heart and soul promised you that I would be anything and do anything you wanted. I belong to you. I can be anything you need. Your brother, your protector, your best friend, and even your….um…lover."
My eyes widened and my mouth dropped open.
"BUT, I can only be what you want me to be. So if you don't want me as um…a lover then I will always be your best friend. The choice is yours Ness, but whatever you choose, I will never leave your side because we are connected." He inhaled deeply and looked into my eyes.
'Do you know what you want me to be" he asked softly, his eyes pleading without words for something I yet couldn't understand.
"I don't know" I shrugged. "I am still getting used to the new feelings I have.
He looked up at me with a pained smile and grabbed my hand. "Come on honey, let's hunt, you look thirsty."
I couldn't tell him what I was really thirsting for. So this was about love. I already loved Jacob, but this was physical love. Something I never needed, until now. I started feeling bolder; maybe because I knew I was safe with Jacob and no matter what, he was bound to me.
I felt a twinge of entitlement. Why was I making all the moves to entice him to be physically close to me? Did he want to be my lover? How could I know for sure he wanted me that way? In the dark recesses of my mind, I started formulating a plan.
He bounced around cajoling me to hunt with him. His laugh was deep and husky. He was using all his familiar teases from when I was little. "Come on Ness, let's race!"
I flashed him a wicked smile. "Don't you have to phase first so we can race?"
"Sure sure, one sec be right back" he said flippantly. He started marching towards a dark part of the forest without looking back.
I took advantage.
With as much vamp speed I could muster, I followed and turned right in front of him just in time to watch him folding his cutoffs into a square so he could attach it to his ankle.
I gasped "Wow". In the one second that I was able to see his completely naked body, my mind melted into mush. I started wondering about logistics. How in the world did this physical love thing work? I should have known from the size of his body that "he" was going to be proportionately large as well. I had read all the medical books on anatomy and reproduction, but nothing could prepare me for this.
He quickly moved away and put on his shorts. I knew he was blushing furiously under his dark skin. He wouldn't look up to meet my eyes.
"I'm sorry, I don't know what came over me." I choked out.
"Ness, I am responsible for you. I really don't want to corrupt your youthful innocence. You're only 15, and your dad is going to kill me."
I went up to him and bear hugged him. Then I did something terrible. I put my hand to his cheek and played the entire thing back to him, including my reaction. He started panting and I flicked images of things that I wanted to do with him in various stages of undress. We were kissing, holding each other, and lying on a bed. He was naked and I was moaning. He started shaking and got up.
"Seriously Ness, your killing me"….I shot up and glanced at my watch. 10:20pm. "Shit. I have to get home by 11" I gritted through my teeth.
"I'll walk you. I don't want you out this late alone" he reprimanded. "Yes father'" I mumbled sarcastically. ""I am NOT your father, don't ever call me that" he cried sarcastically.