Chapter 2

Maybe it wasn't worth it…

Walking into school was quite an adventure. I loved all the strange looks I got from people. I'm just going to assume they loved my Avenged Sevenfold shirt, shredded skinny jeans, and black combat boots. All of my old friends just gawked at me and all I did was smile. I even heard one of the football players say to the other, "What a waste! She was hot, too!" I laughed incredibly loud at the stupid comment. But when I finally walked past the outcast group I started to worry because even they gave me weird looks.

I decided to let it go for now. It only matters if Andy accepts me, right?

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Classes were incredibly boring today so I resorted to doodling on myself, just random things, like song lyrics and song names. In the center of my palm, I had written 'Never Give In' in black sharpie. It was the words I was going to live by and the words I needed to survive the rest of my senior year with.

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Lunch rolled around finally, and I searched for a spot to sit. The only one that was open was right across from Andy. It must be my lucky day or something. I approached the table and glanced around; the only person I knew there was Andy.

"Um, is it okay if I sit here?" I asked, not directing it to anyone specific.

Andy didn't even bother to look at me. Another guy, though, also dressed in black, with somewhat long black hair, turned to me and say, "Sure thing, gorgeous."

I dropped my backpack on the ground and sat down across from Andy and next to the black haired guy.

"Are you new here?" the guy asked.

I bit my lip not sure what to say. I wasn't new here but at the same time I was. "Um, no, I've been here all four years. I'm Valary…" My voice trailed off and an 'Oh, shit!' look came across the guy's face. I glanced over at Andy, he must've heard my name because he was now staring at me.

"Oh, um, I'm Ashley Purdy, and this is," he pointed around the table introducing everyone, "CC, Jake, Jinxx, and, um, Andy…"

CC, Jake, and Jinxx waved at me, somewhat awkwardly, but Andy didn't even bother to make eye contact. I rolled my eyes at Andy, hoping that Ashley didn't see. CC and Jinxx looked around, not sure what to say. Ashley continued to make conversation, "So, um, you, uh, dyed your hair?"

"Yeah, I felt like changing it up…" I nervously looked around. Andy still refused to meet my gaze.

"I think you changed a little more than just your hair," Andy retorted.

I let out a gasp at the sound of Andy's voice.

"So, do you like it?" I asked, enthusiastically.

He ignored my question and looked away.

"I like it, if that counts for anything," CC called from across the table.

I smiled and muttered, "Thanks."

Ashley stared at the writing on my hand. "Those tears we cried, this love has died, you're by yourself with me tonight," he mumbled. He looked thoughtful for a moment and said, "Isn't that 'We Stitch These Wounds'?"

"Yeah, I love that song! And Sweet Blasphemy's my other favorite…"

The three of them smiled in approval and I decided not to look at Andy, because I was almost sure he wasn't paying attention.

The bell rang and lunch was over. I was off to my favorite class Gov/Econ… The class that I sat right next to Andy.

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I hadn't noticed all year, but I sat in front of Ashley in that class, too. Gov/Econ was the worst class ever invented! I sat there trying to figure out what I was going to do from here. I changed my hair, I changed the way I dressed, I gave up my popular life, but Andy just ignores me. This is the real me! Maybe he doesn't like the real me, or just me in general… Why am I so worried about this? It's just my first day, right?

"And what's the answer to that… Valary?" Mr. S. called on me.

I glared at him and said, "Are you really gonna try this again?"

He shook his head and announced, "Um, I think that's all for today…"

I glanced at Andy, who was laughing to himself. I let out a loud sigh and buried my face in my arms.

Ashley tapped me on the back and asked, "Val, are you okay?"

I pushed the hair out of my face and turned around in my seat. "Yeah, I'm just a little confused. That's all…"

"Can I take a wild guess?"

I nodded and Ashley looked from me to Andy and back to me.

I looked around, not wanting to admit it.

"Thought so," he said softly, so Andy wouldn't hear, "Things will work out, I promise." He gave me a reassuring smile and I looked at him helplessly.

"I wish…" I really wanted to believe him, but part of me knew it wasn't true. Andy had all the reasons in the world to hate me and if he did it was entirely my fault. Betrayal isn't something you can fix with a little hair dye and different clothes. I knew he should hate me, but I just didn't know if he did…

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Seventh period P.E. was a living hell. I must have had the worst luck in the world because today somehow ended up being dodge ball day. And it was a known fact that the teams were always Popular girls and Wannabes verses the Outcast girls. So it was me and 3 other goth girls against the rest of the class, 36 other girls. Oh, fun…

We were actually putting up a pretty good fight! A small elite team was way better than a big blob of girls who were too afraid they might break a nail when they threw a ball. And 3 minutes 'til the period ended, it was finally down to me and two cheerleaders, one of them being the cheer captain, Sarah. I had always hated Sarah with a passion. She was a complete bitch to me and Claire, too. I wanted so bad to hit her with the big red ball in my hand.

Right as I was about to throw the ball, someone who wasn't on the court called my name. I glanced in the direction of the call but no one was there. The second I looked back to my opponent, Sarah, I was met with a large red ball to the face.

My face went numb and I saw a small blood stain on my shirt. And then another one appeared. It took me a few moments to realize that my nose was bleeding.

"Oh, Valary, I'm so sorry, are you okay?" Sarah said sarcastically.

"You're such a bitch!" Claire yelled at her and ran to my side.

I gently pushed Claire out of my wait and sprinted to the locker room. I grabbed a paper towel and pinched my nose with it. Glancing in the mirror, I saw my blood covered mouth and chin. It was disgusting! I quickly headed for the sink and washed my face. I glanced in the mirror again, making sure there was no more blood on my face, besides that which was still coming from my nose. Grabbing another paper towel and my back pack, I headed for the back door of the locker room. I stormed out into the parking lot with tears in my eyes. I was pissed, my nose was bleeding, and that had to be one of the worst days of my life!

I seriously just wanted out! Things just didn't work out like I thought they would… Fairytales don't exist, I know that now…

He was standing right there. Andy was standing right next to my car. He stared at me like he wanted to ask me if I was okay but he stayed silent with a blank expression on his face and his eyes looked even colder than usual. I pushed passed him, mumbling a few words that were supposed to sound like 'excuse me'.

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My nose finally stopped bleeding by the time I got home. I rushed for my room and slammed the door. I fell face first into my bed and sobbed into my pillow. Someone knocked on my door and called my name. I knew it wasn't my parents because they weren't home, or Claire because it was a guy's voice.

"Go away!" I called back.

The door knob slowly turned and someone popped their head in the door. "Val, it's me!" It was my older brother, David.

"Why are you here?" I asked as he entered my room and sat down on the corner of my bed.

David is my 21 year old brother who goes to college out of state. So, why he was so far away from his college was kind of strange.

"Surprise visit, that's all. Oh, and I heard that my little sis's quit the slut - I mean - 'popular' group." He laughed.

"Oh really from who?" I asked attempting to fix my smeared makeup.

He thought for a moment. "Um, Andy told me…"

"Andy, as in, Andy Biersack?" I asked nervously.

"Do we even know another Andy?" Dave stated, glancing at the BVB poster on my wall.

"What exactly did he say?"

"Oh, he texted me this morning and said that you dyed your hair and came to school in an A7x shirt. And you sat with him at lunch or something like that. And he…" Dave trailed off, clearly not wanting to tell me the last part.

"'And he', what?" I stared at Jon waiting for him to finish.

"And he… Wait, I promised I wouldn't tell you…"

"Ugh, Dave, please!" I punched my pillow in frustration.

"A promise is a promise, sis. I couldn't betray Andy like that." He paused, seeing the tears in my eyes. "I heard your day was pretty bad…"

"Hmm, let's see… I don't mind the weird looks and rude comments I get from people, but getting totally ignored by Andy, my whole reason for doing this, and being slammed in the face with a dodge ball by the cheer captain kinda pissed me off. I did this for Andy! And he won't even look at me! It's like I'm just some other girl… I sat directly across from him at lunch, he barely said a word to me. I talked to Ashley the whole time. And then I came out of P.E. and he just stared at me. No 'Are you okay?' or anything! What the hell! I left that stupid group for him… And I'm practically invisible to him…" One of the tears I'd been trying so hard to hold back fell and more followed.

"Val… Everything will work out, I promise," Jimmy reassured me.

I half laughed, half coughed. "That's the second time I've heard that today…"

"Oh, really? Who said it first?" Jon asked.

"Ashley…"

"If Ashley said it then it must be true! That guy knows better than everyone!" Dave laughed.

"Wait, since when did you talk to them, I mean Andy and Ashley?"

"Since I was still in high school? Actually the real reason I came back for the weekend is for some show they're playing tomorrow night. Did you not see Andy's Vlog?"

I shook my head and Dave pulled out his iPhone and played the Vlog for me.

Dave put his phone away and asked, "So, do you wanna come?"

I hesitated, not wanting to make my love for Andy too obvious.

"I know you want to! But as far as Andy is concerned, I'm 'forcing' you to go tomorrow night. So, Valary, you're going tomorrow night!" he stated.

"Okay?" My face was somewhat blank but inside I was overly happy. I was going to Andy's concert! I would have screamed right now out of excitement but the only thing stopping me was my brother.

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The alarm on my phone went off for five minutes until I finally rolled over, grabbed it and threw it at my chair. I guess the battery fell out of something because the screen went black and it stopped ringing. Just six classes, I thought, then the concert. I can survive six classes, right, maybe even ditch P.E…

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The day was going by incredibly slow. Lunch passed and I headed for Gov/Econ and to my surprise, Mr. S. wasn't here today so we had a sub that told us we could talk for the whole period.

Ashley tapped me on the back. "Hey, I heard you're coming tonight!"

I glanced over at Andy to make sure he wasn't listening. Luckily, he was listening to his iPod and couldn't hear us.

"Yeah, did David tell you?" I asked.

Ashley nodded.

"But did he tell Andy, too?" I bit my lip, hoping that Dave hadn't said a thing about it to Andy.

"As far as I know, he didn't. Do you want him to know?"

"No! No, please, no," I said quickly.

Ashley looked around with a raised eyebrow. "Uh, okay?"

"Sorry, Ash, I'm just a little nervous…"

He smirked. "Clearly! But, I swear things will work out!"

"Yeah, he acts like I don't exist… This is so gonna work out," I said sarcastically.

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I decided to leave half way through seventh period. I just wanted the day to be over and go to the concert already. I rushed across campus to get to the parking lot. It was just on the other side of the lockers. To my surprise, Andy was heading toward his locker. I slowed down as he approached a paper covered locker. On the papers, people had written "fag", "emo", "go die!", and other things of that sort and taped it all to his locker.

Andy rolled his eyes and ripped them off his locker, and letting out a hard sigh as he tossed it in the trash.

"People are stupid," I said as I passed by him.

"I know…" was all he said.

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A/N: Okay so this is my quick disclaimer. I clearly don't own any of the members of Black Veil Brides, or any other band members that are used in this story, or any of the songs. I do own my original characters (the few that there are) and any fictional bands that exist in here. Please Review! I love reviews! Oh, and I swear Andy will be in it more! I'm just trying to get it started!