Hello beautiful people! I have decided to update because I'm really bored, and my spoby friends are telling me to continue, i love you so much, enjoy! Hailey and Kendall you are amazing :)

Toby's POV

After all the drama has passed, and she had cried all the afternoon, she fell asleep; I'm actually caressing her back because I love to watch her sleep so peacefully, she's having a heavy breathing right now but maybe that's just because of the crying. I don't know what am I going to do, I mean I don't want to lose this baby; this is our baby; we've created this; but it's up to her; it's between her career, her dream life or our baby; I'm not forcing her to do anything but I think this baby will bring us hope, after the relationship is falling apart because of distance.

I love her, I really do, but she's not making any effort to keep going, we're not teenagers anymore, we're grown adults and it's clear that she does not want to be with me anymore, or at least one part of her thinks so. Maybe i'm just not good enough for her. She opens her eyes, fear shine into her eyes; when she noticed I was holding her from the back she calmed, her muscles calmed.

"Spence, What happened? Were you having a nightmare?" I stare at the clock; it's 12:37 AM. She brings herself up really fast and runs to the bathroom, I run as fast as I could until I understand where this was going, I hold her hair up and soothed her back with my hand, my other hand holding her hair up, she empties all of her stomach into the toilet and I feel bad for her, I did this to her, she's going to be in pain and sick because I fucked her and she forgot her pill.

-Flashback-

Spencer went great on her final exams, so I wanted to surprise her; I'm coming for an unexpected visit, I'm speaking to her on the phone I mute the call and knock on the door.

"Hold on baby someone's knocking.." She says through the phone as I knocked. She opens the door and her smile couldn't be bigger, she throws herself at me, I kiss her; but this wasn't any kiss: it felt like high school kisses, no concerns at all, i feel all young again, happy and without worries when I'm with her, she makes me feel that way, I have missed it.

"What are you doing here? I thought you had work back in Rosewood!"

"I wanted to congratulate you for your excellent grades on your finals!" She's still shocked.

Tonight we decide to go to a club, Spencer looks extremely gorgeous tonight, she's wearing a white strapless dress that makes her long legs look extremely gorgeous, we arrive at her dorm room, feeling a little tipsy, her roommate was staying out in her boyfriend's apartment. As soon as we get in, we do what we have been trying to hold for the entire night, we slam onto the wall and kiss so hard and hot, all at the same time. My hands are touching her body,all over her legs, I carry her from the waist and start kissing her, as soon as we arrive to the bed I lay her carefully, and I take off my shirt and shoes, she starts to unzip my pants and in a matter of time she's helping me down there, she's giving me the most amazing oral we have done in months, I've missed her, I've missed this. I stop her so I could take her dress off, she is wearing white lingerie and my jaw just fell off, she looks so hot, I'm such a lucky guy. I take her panties off with my mouth as I passed through her legs, I spread her legs and start to suck inside of her entrance. She moans really loudly.

"Don't be such a tease and fuck me already!" Those words coming out of her mouth were music to my ears,I grab my wallet and look for condoms, I can't find any.

"I'm on the pill, do not worry" I sigh with relief and enter her, she moans in pleasure, I thrust and she keeps moving her hips with the same rhythm. She digs her nails on my back further as I keep thrusting harder and harder.

-End of flashback-

Spencer interrupted my thoughts with gagging, I'm freaking out I can't stand her looking like this, she's so pale, her eyes are bloodshot red and it's just not the Spence I know. She seems weak, and she's the strongest person I've ever known.

"Toby?" she stands up and I keep staring at the floor.

"Tobyy!" I raise my sight with tears in my eyes, she holds my face with both of her hands and suddenly feels sorry, she shouldn't be, I'm the one that did that to her… I walk out of the bathroom and wait for her in bed, I change to my pajamas, feeling like shit, these next months are not going to be easy and I need to find a place to stay. She brushes her teeth and joins me in bed. I'm facing her back, I hug her from behind and start kissing her neck, she stops me, feeling uncomfortable.

"I'm sorry.." I say totally regretting what I just did. I stand and cook her something because it's 1 AM and I'm pretty sure I heard her stomach growl. I walk inside of the bedroom and give her macaroni and cheese. she's up late because she's watching Fight Club (for the millionth time) She chuckles and tries to fake a smile,

"I'm sorry but I'm not hungry Toby."

I smile at the simple thought that she's wearing one of my shirts as her pajamas but my smile fades as I hear that.

"No Spencer, you are not doing this, you're growing a baby inside! OUR baby, can you please worry about feeding both of you!."

"Don't you dare to call it a baby because I'm not keeping it." My face is red in anger now, Without noticing I was frowning the entire time.

"Excuse me? it's our baby.. not just yours." I tried to fight her but I know that I am in disadvantage, she's the one that has to hold our baby inside of her.

"I'M NOT KEEPING IT TOBY!" Those words feel like bullets onto my chest. I grab a t-shirt and my backpack and walk through the door at the same time I was putting my shirt on

"Toby, I'm sorry.." I don't even turn, I don't want to be an ass but I don't want her to stare at me, I'm not feeling alright and I don't want to react any different when I'm near her. I slam the door and go to my truck, trying to find somewhere to stay ; I scream, all that I've been holding, I let it out. Inside of my car, I start punching my steering wheel.

Spencer's POV

"Toby, I'm sorry.." I say, regretting what I just said, I don't have to be rude, these pregnancy hormones are really making me a total bitch. He starts grabbing his stuff, and putting his shirt on, I stand there emotionless , he has never done that, is he leaving me? Maybe I went too far, maybe I should have said it when he was calmed, we should have discussed tha- NO I'm not keeping this… I have goals, I have a career, he has a job, he has dreams. My thoughts got interrupted as he slams the door. I lay in bed not knowing what to do anymore, I know I went too far on him but I'm Spencer Hastings and I don't even hesitate my actions.

I grab my anxiety pills, shaking, I'm shaking so hard, I take 2, because I really want to get some sleep. I lay on my bed and minutes passed, I woke up by someone throwing a pillow at me.

"Wake up, Spence! what's wrong with you? You missed the first 2 classes.." Lindsay says, my annoying roommate that I casually love, I open my eyes and grab my phone, It's 11:26AM.

"Are you alright? What happened to you?" She's concerned, she sits on my bed.

"I… fucked up really bad…" I start to cry, I normally don't cry infront of everyone but Toby but I have no Toby now, Lindsay stares at me in shock because she hasn't seen me cry, ever. She hugs me and I cry on her shoulder for like 15 minutes, my tears keep flooding my face. Someone knocks at the door and Lindsay stands up, opens and Toby's standing there with a sad face.

"Don't you dare to come in here." Lindsay says mad, I don't even know how she knows that i've been crying about him, I haven't said a word since. She almost slams the door on his face, he stops the door and comes in.

"Toby, I'm sorry" he tried to apologize first but I cut him off, he smiles and hugs me so tight.

"You don't ever have to be sorry with me… but I really do need to talk about it with someone okay?" I nod and suddenly feel a little dizzy. Lindsay fakes gagging sounds,

"Stop it you two guys, you are disgusting, I don't even want to imagine how corny you are in bed." We both laugh, he's holding me in his arms, as he always does.

"Oh, and Toby; just for the record if you ever stop my slamming doors, I will hurt you." He laughs.

"I'm sorry Linds…" Toby says, I suddenly feel really really bad cramps, I hold my stomach and start to say out loud.

"UGH fuck!" Toby stands there speechless.

"What's wrong? Spence?" The pain is unbearable and I start to see black.