I'm not sure if I should dig a deeper grave for myself or should I just end it here. For now I would say, I end it here. If I come up with anything later, I will add it on. Review please :)

It was 3:34 in the morning, the alarm clock read. The opening curtains of the windows emitted the soft glow of the yellow moonlight into the room. She noticed that it was the night of the full moon. Rin looked at the sleeping demon beside her and smiled. He looked so peaceful. His breathing was light and even. She could felt his chest rise and fall as she pressed her head against it.

She wished she could be with him like this forever. She wished she could go to sleep and wake up with him by her side like this until the day she was all wrinkled and her hair turned as silver as his.

But of course, it was all but wishful thinking.

Sesshomaru had made it clear a long time ago that he would never marry human.

They were best friends, and the fact that his best friend was a human was still a mystery. Sesshomaru, the dog demon who despised humans to the bones, yet his closet friend was nonetheless a human. It didn't make any sense, and no one knew how it was even possible, but no one dared to question their relationships. It was just the way things were.

Sesshomaru did not harass Inuyasha about him being a half-breed as much anymore after Sesshomaru had befriended Rin in the sixth grade. But he was still hostile toward humans and demanded them to be untrusted worthy. But for some odd reasons, he approved of Rin.

But friendship was the limit. He had made it clear he would never follow his father's footstep and marry a weak pathetic human woman to weaken his strong bloodline. She had come to term with it a long time ago.

It was just…

Even though she knew, even though she had accepted the fact that they could never be, she could not stop her heart from yearning for him.

But for now… until he had an official girlfriend, Rin could still have him all to herself.

But someday, someday he would be beyond her reach. The one who would be sleeping next to him would be a beautiful demoness instead of her.

The thought made her heart cringed with pain. But that was the reality that could not be changed. It's just… this moment… he was still her friend and that was enough.

This is enough…

Is it?

No, it wasn't enough. But this was all she was allowed to have. If she demanded any more than this, if he ever finds out about her feelings, she might be cast out of his life for good. She loved him too much to cut all ties with him; to not see his handsome face again.

So why did she changing boyfriends so often?

Well, it went all the way back to high school; to her first boyfriend. Back then she was naïve and didn't know much about love. She was just happy that a boy asked her out and he was nice enough. He also looked okay.

He had treated her well at first, until his friends started to make fun of him for going slow in their relationship. He then started to demand her to do things with him because they were "Boyfriend and Girlfriend". Because all of his friends had got laid, he, too, would not stay a virgin.

Idiot!

And that was when Rin's hand connected to her first boyfriend's face and leave a red print fingers mark there.

Sesshomaru, who had been distance himself from her since the beginning of high school saying they were no longer kids and should not cling onto each other too much, left alone sleep over, was now on her case. He had been coming around when Rin had start dating the-so-call-idiot-boyfriend, trying to intimidate the boy because Sesshomaru did not approve of him.

After he found out about the reason of the break up, Sesshomaru gave Rin's, now, ex-boyfriend a good beat up in the school hall way, making quite a show. He ended up getting detentions and had to stay after school for a week.

During those times, Rin would wait for him in the library and they would walk home together to his or her house and watching movies or playing games together. He had paid her all the attentions in the world to make sure that his friend's broken-heart, which she didn't think it was broken in the first place, would heal.

One morning, she slept over at his parents' house and woke up to see his sleeping face, so, so handsome face that made her heart gone wild. She had befriended him since before middle school and always knew him to be handsome, but she had never seen him like this.

At that moment, she knew she wanted to sleep by his side and woke up with him for the rest of her life.

Her feelings for him were growing stronger as time passed. They stayed friends, but he started to keep his distance from her again, and she missed having him by her side.

She felt jealous of the girls who could just come up and tell him, "I like you," and asked him out. They were always coldly rejected, but still, she wished she could say it too. But, she already know, he would never be in love with a human.

Coincidentally, around that time, a senior boy who was a bit of a troubles maker suddenly gave her more attention than necessary. That boy was an okay guy if you got to know him, but Sesshomaru went havoc about how bad the boy was.

Since then, she knew how she could get his attentions. She knew it was childish, but that was the only way she knew she could be clingy to him without him pushing her away. So she started dating scums.

Oh yes, she knew they were scums and heart-breakers alright. Why else would she use them? Because none of them were truly in love her, so she did not feel guilty dumping them.

And she got Sesshomaru's whole affection afterward. It was a win- win situation for her.

She only wished her time with him would last. Wished the day she would lose him to some demoness would never come.

Sometimes she wished she were a demoness. But since she wasn't, there was nothing she could do.

She arced an arm to support the side of her shin as she looked down at his sleeping face. She wished she could stop times.

Her free hand gently tracing the markings on his cheeks. She could not resist the urge to touch him no matter how much of a light sleeper he is.

She loved him so much that it hurt. She wanted him so badly that she couldn't stand to be in his present. Because she could never have him. But at the same time, she could not stay away from him.

But she would treasure these moments and embraced them into her memories. He would always be her precious memories.

Slowly, she leaned down and pressed her lips on his, lightly so she would not wake him up.

She did not know what had gotten her to be so bold as to steal his kiss. Maybe it was the burning desire that had been yearning inside her that had been bottled up over the years.

Pathetic.

Pitiful.

She almost laughed at her foolishness.

But this was what she had always wanted to do.

She decided that this was enough and better retreat before Sesshomaru wake up; however, she found she couldn't.

Was it reflex? She did not know, but a claw hand came to press her head down as his lips moved to press with hers. Before she knew it, she found that their position had reversed; he was now on top of her.

She felt his tongue nudged at her lips and she parted them and kissed him back. For how long, she did not know, she did not care, until they were both panting breathlessly.

"Are you half-asleep?" She had to know. She was still trying to catch her breath. Maybe he was dreaming and thought her to be someone else.

"And you knew that I was not one of your boyfriends, right?" he, too, was making sure. When she kissed him, he was surprised and wondered if she thought he was one of them, her exes. But he took advantage of the chance to taste her because this might be the only chance he got. For once, he could kiss her. So he did.

Rin smiled at him, almost looking sad. "I know," she answered quietly.

"Why did you kiss me?" he asked, his eyes were so intense she felt like she would melt.

She couldn't answer. She wouldn't dare tell him that she had been in love with him, her best friend who detested humans.

"For convenient?"

"No!" she pretested promptly. How could he suggest such thing? She was not a loose girl.

One of his hands came to remove the hairs out of her face. His eyes were soft. She felt like her heart would jump out of her chest. His hand felt hot on her skin, yet it sent cold shills down her spine.

"I am going to kiss you again. If you don't want to, then stop me." he said softly, but clearly. Her breath hitched, couldn't believe her own ears. "But know this Rin. I am not playing around and once I take a hold of you; I will never let go. I'm not going to be one your exes who would only be with you for weeks or until you feel tire of me. So if you don't want to be tie down to me, run while you can."

"But… I am human?" she uttered in a dazed. What came from Sesshomaru's mouth sounded like a confession to her. She hoped it were.

"So?" he answered as if it was not a big deal.

"You said you would never date a human," she reminded him.

"That was when I was in elementary school, Rin."

A smiled appeared on her face as she reached out a hand to touch his cheek.

"I love you, Sesshomaru. I've been in love with you for the longest of time."

His eyes widened slightly in shock before his lips broke into a huge grin. A grin that so rare, so beautiful because it came from his heart, she doubted she had ever seen it before. She loved him even more.

"Fool," he whispered. She felt hurt that he would think of her confession as foolish. "We both were such fools. I've loves you since the first day I've laid eye on you, Rin."

It was her turn to look shock. She wasn't sure if this was a dream or reality. She could no longer tell. All she knew was that she was so happy. She felt like she could die without regret now. She felt like she had just won a lottery. No, she felt like she had been dead and was giving a new life.

The man that she had been in love with, suffering from unrequited love, loved her back.

He was right that they were being fools. They had loved each other all along, yet never knew.

It wasn't like him to say such a heartfelt confession, she knew. But a dream or not, at the moment, she didn't care.

"Don't you dare ever let go. Because I won't."

He then learned down and sealed his lips over her awaited ones.

If this were a dream, she wished she would never wake up.

So here you have it :) Thank you so much for reviews, follows favorites, and reading this story ^_^ Don't forget to review again. :O

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Yeghihe: thanks for pointing that out. I will try again, but just so you know, this is pretty much my limit. Sorry that it still leave so many grammar mistakes.

April 15, 2013