The hunger games destroyed everything I ever cared about.I am through with playing by the rules of theirs over my life and it's about time I control it even if it means just for one last time.I am just a puppet in there show to them I am just a useless life that can easily be disposed of. I don't see how the games control games terrify us,enrage us and now people are dying trying to stop President is killing off the human at least when we are gone a decent race will take over this loyal,something friendly,something that cares for one might look weird but they at least would wouldn't send their children off to be slaughtered and they definitely wouldn't treat death as a game or a toy to be messed friends have been reaped and have volenteered for me and each other.I feel responsible for their deaths.I have now 4 best are strong and unaffraid of being Hawthorn and Katniss Everdeen are my youngest friends beside Katniss's sister is the mayors reminds me so much of Sarah.I have this plan to volunteer as tribute and win.I might not win but if I die I want to die as me.I told Gale and Katniss of the plan didn't freak out they said fine.I will teach you weaponry know I can win they just want to teach me how to fight.I am exceptional with a knife and not bad with a bow and teaches me hand to hand combat and how to rig a snare."Hey Becky don't die in the bloodbath run"says Gale.I need to work on endurance but I have the speed I need.I have the balance and agility.I am flexible too so I can fit into small spaces.I have had other useful tips like this that have come from dad and the district 12 and Kat have not been the only ones teaching family was preparing me for the situation if I ever got reaped I could have a fighting taught me how to taught me fashion and how to act like a real capital like girly is stuff that could win me a number of can save your life and appealing to them is a great deal if I am going to taught me apothecary tequniques and my biological father John Clearwater helped teach me edible lent me her book on that and I memorized the pictures of all the edible ones and the nightlock picture that shall end my life if I need too. Katniss is very much like ,Protective,Caring little songbirds surrounded by is like ready to and one of the girliest girls in all of I need fashion advice they were always was one of Sarah's best told each other didn't want me to leave to go fight other kids to the death but she was the most too despises the games and knows why I have to do is probably the closest knows I have to has Katniss and is safe from the is the reaping I'm scared but have to do 's too late to change my plan now.I just have to trust my instincts and now is my time to try and defy the capital.I have to do this.I need to prove that my sisters deaths were not for nothing.I have trained for this over the years.I am ready to do this.I am ready to die.I have to fight.I have to at least try to Prim and Madge and Katniss and most importantly for Charlotte,Mom and James deaths had a purpose and if I die I can at least show them that I am an actual person not just your little puppet.