I just looked at him as if I know what he was going to do next. He leaned closer to me and pushed his lips to mine. I knew it, he wanted to kiss me. I didn't do anything at that moment, it felt like I was in heaven, it was warm and nice. I didn't want to break the moment but soon we broke the kiss and took a moment to breathe. I was blushing wildly looking down. I didn't said I word to him and he just smiled at me at the moment I looked at him again, And he said.
"You look so cute, you know than?~" He chuckled
"…" I looked a little bit annoyed and was still blushing wildly.
"Haha.~" He slightly laughed at me and gave me a peck on the cheek
"I-I really love you Lukas…not as a brother, as a special person I never wanted to be separated ever again" He smiled at me
Yet again I blushed crimson red now
"…I love you too Klaus, don't you ever forget that." I smiled back at him.
Although I never felt this way before, since we grew up each other. I've been having this weird feeling about him, just thinking about him just makes me hate myself, for what liking my own brother?, no that's not the case instead I liked a guy?! I don't know if I should feel bad for myself but, since we were kids. Klaus always looks up to me, protecting me and also helping me with things I can't accomplish without him, it's like I feel a weird connection for him. It's like when I'm always with him well…it feels weird by the minute and that's not the worst. It also feels like…I wanted him, I wanted to confess my feelings to him before this…happened but if I tell him that I'm in love with him, my own blood, my twin brother. Well let's just say he'll try to avoid me every contact I'll made with him until he lives. I had some sleepless nights about him, I had butterflies in my stomach everyday I'm with him and always looked nervous when I'm always with him. I sometimes tried to stay away for a private but I guess he's always going to look for me to play or maybe help him with chores but I'm okay with that, I once tried to wrote a love letter for him although I didn't put my name on it until mom find out I was writing a letter.
"Hello son, what are you doing?" She said.
I looked up her and was surprised, I hide the letter I was writing in the table and casually hid it in my back.
"N-Nothing!" I felt so nervous when she surprised my like that.
"Oh, you sure? By the looks of it you're writing a letter~" She sang
"N-No!, it's just uhm…uuhh…a note! Y-Yeah a note for um…uhh…the bakery. I'm going to leave this in the counter so I can pickup some fresh nut bread and cookies tomorrow." I lied, that's it. I'm dead.
"Well you could just ask me to get some you know?" She replied
"No it's okay mom, I'll do it myself. You've been working too hard so I'll do the rest okay?" I said to her.
"Well if you say so, I'll be going to pick up some fresh eggs okay? Be good lukas.~" She said, she opened the door and left.
Finally she was gone, that was seriously close. I'm going to kill myself if she finds this out. I gave a relief sigh and continued writing my letter for Klaus. After I was done I snuck into klaus' side of the bed, it's a good thing he was still helping dad with the chores. Now is my chance, I placed a letter underneath his blanket and slowly walked out of our room. It was perfect, no one is here and looking, I guess that was I thought it would be, I was near the door but suddenly it open. Gasp and was quickly jumped off the floor and fell down. It was Klaus looking a bit curious of why I did that.
"Uh Lukas, you okay there buddy?" He raised an eyebrow to me.
"Y-Yeah!, I'm fine. Just don't do that okay?" Obviously I lied to him, I'm so scared if he finds out…I'm DEAD!
"You don't seem to look okay…are you hiding something?" He smirked at me
"No, why would you think I'd do such a thing?" I felt so nervous oh crud.
"Well if you say so, I'm just going to grab a new t-shirt. This one is sweaty right now and it stinks!" He replied but I felt like he's still looking at my curiously.
"O-Okay I'll be going to the…bakery then see ya!" I quickly ran out of the door and out of the house, I saw dad working with the sheep as usual
"Hi dad, gotta go be back later bye!" I quickly said to him.
"O-Okay son…I'll see you later" He replied
I waved my arms at him and quickly ran in the sunshine forest near to fuel's house, I quickly sat on a tree and took a break after all that running. Man that was close!, if he already took that In his bed then…I'm so screwed!, if he finds out I'll just tell him that one of the girls in the village gave me this and it'll go as plan. Although he wouldn't find out who it was and well…I could never confess my feelings to him at that moment or even when I grow up, I'd probably never will.
Back to the story.
"Oh, I almost forgot…here" He pulled out something in his pocket and gave it to me.
"W-What's this?" I asked him
"Well, why don't you see it for yourself?~" He sang and gave a smile at me.
I looked at the old looking paper and looked at it's back. It was a love letter I wrote to him 3 years ago, I opened it and read the letter I gave to him many years ago.
Dear Klaus
The moment I saw you, my heart raises for you.
I don't know if it's wrong to tell you the truth but if I do, you might hate me for it
Every night I think about you, I sometimes have insomnia because of you. I don't blame you for it because every time I see you, you make my day really happy. I know it sounds stupid but I really like you, how you walk, how you smile and how you laugh. You always make me smile when I'm down. Every time I see that happy face, well I always forget my problems and just think positive every day.
I know this sounds cheesy but I'm just telling the truth, how I feel for you and I guess that's what matters for me, maybe someday I'll confess who I really am to you. But right now…things are very complicated and you might be shocked of who this is, so I'm just leaving here, and thanks.
Sincerely
A secret admirer.
I blushed red as I finished reading it, I looked at Klaus and gave me a slight chuckle.
"I found this three years ago, I was surprised who wrote this but when I took a closer look. Well let's just say I found the culprit~" He grinned at me
"H-How'd you know?" I gave a stupid smile
"Dude look at the handwriting…it was obviously you" He chuckled at me once again
"O-Oh…well crud." He sighed and just smiled at him
"To be honest, I don't know what kind of joke you just did for me. But then I realized…i…liked you too. For a long time now, Before you sent me that letter. I always feel something strange about you, it's like you're not my brother. Instead…a lover…I guess." He looked down shyly
"Oh, I see…" I flushed red and somehow manage to just…hug him again
"I'm just glad to see you again, and I guess…confessed our feelings." I looked down shyly
"Yeah, I didn't think I would have the chance to confess to you after all that happened right now…" He kissed my forehead.
"Yeah…" I couldn't say anything but, just that.
"Anyways…I'm sorry but you have to go the lab again." He slightly shifted his head to the right.
"W-Why?, can't I just stay here with you?" I frowned looking at him.
"I-I'm sorry Lukas, but it's master's orders. If I defy him, then he'll kill me and I don't want that to happen because I want to be with you." He looked at me and smiled at me
"I promise, I'll try to convince master to less experiment with you" he held my chin and gave me a peck on my lips.
"O-Okay…I'll wait for you after this is done." I smiled at him
"Don't worry, I won't give you to anyone else my love." He chuckled at me and smiled.