Warning: The later part of this chapter will include an intense make out session and some groping.
"Y/N, Y/N, Y/N..." The tears built up in your eyes as your name tumbled off of his lips like a mantra that if he stopped saying would cause you to disappear forever.
"Ben... Ben Ben Ben oh Ben!" You cry and hug him tighter, sobbing into his thick black robes.
He held you tighter to his chest and buried his face in your neck. Rey watches the exchange with a confused expression on her face until Kylo remembers she's present and starts to pull back from the embrace. You blushed when you also realized your sister was still present. You looked back at Kylo and sensed that he was holding back from you a bit since she was present. Perhaps that was for the best.
"I thought you were dead." Kylo says in a broken voice.
"I'm very much alive." You reply and smile at him.
To you and Rey's surprise he smiles back, bigger than Rey had ever seen. And you smiled back at him. There was something going on between you two.
"Y/N told me you two knew each other back at the Academy." Rey says and you nod.
"We did. We were close friends." You say and look at Kylo. He nods in agreement.
"Yes. We were." He agrees.
"He gave you that didn't he?" Rey asks, pointing to the string tied in a bow around a gem on your finger. Kylo's eyes teared up and so did yours.
"He did." You say, locking your gaze with him.
"You still kept it..." He says.
"Why?" Rey asks you.
"It reminds me of Ben. The man you once were. The man I..." You say and look at Kylo. "Used to know." You finish.
"Y/N..." Kylo says. You frown at him.
"Where did you get that scar?" You ask him.
"Your sister." Kylo says and points at Rey.
"Really? You injured him?" You ask with a slight concern in your tone.
"Well only after he killed his father." Rey tells you.
"You killed your father!" You exclaim at Kylo.
"Did you really have to tell her that?" Kylo yells at Rey.
"Did you really have to kill Han Solo?" Rey asks him.
"Oh my stars Ben...What have you become?" You ask with tears in your eyes.
"The Supreme Leader of the Galaxy, Y/N. I'm going to rule the Galaxy. And I want you and your sister at my side." He says and holds out his hand for you.
"My sister and I will never join you!" Rey declares. "Stay away from both of us." She says and cuts off Kylo's projection. "Are you alright Y/N?" Rey asks.
"I just...never thought I'd see him again." You say softly. "And if I ever did...I didn't think he would be so..."
"Evil." Rey finishes for you. You nod. "Remember he's not Ben Solo anymore. He's Kylo Ren. And we need to take him and the First Order down."
"Right. Our mission as Jedi is to bring peace to the galaxy." You say. "I'd be honored to aid you in this fight sister." You tell Rey. She smiles.
"Come on, let me go debrief you on some of our plans." She says and leads you back out into the hallway.
Many years ago...
"Very good today everyone." Luke says to all of his students. "You are all progressing exceptionally well. I expect great things to come from all of you. In fact. I think some of you might be moving on to light saber training tomorrow." He says, looking at thirteen year old Ben and two of his friends.
They all smile brightly and high five each other. Then Luke gestures for you to come before the class and you take his hand.
"And our newest student, Miss Y/N is making great progress as well." Luke says and you give everyone a small smile.
You meet Ben's gaze and he smiles at you, making you blush and look away from him and his cheeks turn a bit pink as well.
"I know she's a bit behind some of you, but she's made exceptional progress and I wanted to highlight her today because she's going to teach you all an important lesson. It's not where you come from that's important. What matters is how you choose to use the gifts you are given. Anyone can make a difference. Your bloodline and upbringing don't matter." Luke says. "Class dismissed. Enjoy your afternoon break everyone."
Everyone left the classroom. Later that day Ben was walking down the hall with his two close friends.
"Your Uncle gave you his dad's lightsaber!" One of them exclaims.
"Yeah Jaden. He said he wanted to pass it down to me." Ben says. "You guys want to see?" He asks and reaches into his satchel.
"Yes!" The two boys exclaimed eagerly.
Ben pulls it out and turns it on. The boys jaws dropped. Ben swung it around a bit and got into some stances to show off to his buddies. They were thoroughly impressed.
"Kriff that thing is awesome!" One of them says!
"Regris! Watch your language." Jaden warns. "Luke might hear and make you drink that weird blue milk he has." The three boys shudder at the thought.
"Why did Luke give us that speech at the end of the day today?" Jaden asks.
"Yeah. He usually doesn't try to show favorites in class." Regris says. "So what's so special about that girl?"
"Absolutely nothing." Ben tells the boys. "That's what makes her special. She's so ordinary."
"You do realize you're saying the opposite of what special means?" Regris says.
"No Jaden." Ben tells his friend. "She's special because she has great power in the Force, but she doesn't come from a strong bloodline like I do. That's why she's special."
"Oh I get it now!" Jaden says.
"Is that why you have a crush on her?" Regris asks.
"I do not Regris!" Ben retorts forcefully. His friends laugh.
"Are you sure about that? You stare at her all the time dude." Jaden tells him.
"Well...I do think she's pretty..." Ben admits.
"Oooo." His friends tease and Ben lightly pushes them both over with the Force.
They laughed on the ground and got back up. Ben was frowning at them.
"Relax dude." Regris says.
"Yeah we're just joking with you." Jaden tells him. "You've barely said a word to this girl since she came here. All you do is stare at her."
"But...I've been noticing her staring back." Regris says. "She might like you back Ben."
"Do you think she likes me?" Ben asks eagerly.
"She might as a friend." Jaden says. "And that's all you guys can be anyway. No romantic relationships. That's a Jedi rule."
"I know." Ben says and shuffles his foot on the ground. "I don't have a huge crush on her anyway. I just think she's kind of pretty. I really want to become her friend though."
"Why?" Regris asks.
"Because I have a feeling she's really strong in the Force." Ben says. "And we're going to want to have her as an ally when we're in battle. Also...She's been bullied here because her parents were junk traders. I don't think that's right. They're ignoring her potential and only seeing her bloodline."
"I knew you'd say something like that Solo." Jaden says. Ben sighs.
"Yeah. We both have problems due to our bloodlines. Mine has too much potential, hers doesn't have any." Ben says. "I envy her for that."
Suddenly he heard a girl shriek and ran over to the balcony and looked over onto the bridge. You were laying on the bricks and there were some other students taunting you. Ben growled and ran off to head down there, his friends calling after him.
"Go back to your dumpster trash girl!" A mean girl taunts.
"Yeah, no one wants you here." A boy sneers then kicks dirt in your face, and you sniffle and start to cry.
"I do." Ben says behind them and the two kids turn and see Ben and look scared when they see him raise his lightsaber at them. But the girl thinks he's just playing.
"Aw come on Ben." The girl says. "You know all that stuff your Uncle said was a lie. She's just a dirty little trash girl like her parents."
"No that's what you are." Ben tells her. "In fact I think you should wash up." He says and uses the Force to push her into the shallow river over the bridge.
He looks at the boy who was now looking at him with a terrified expression on his face. He swings his saber around a bit.
"You want to fight?" He asks and points it at him. He shakes his head no. "Then you should join your friend. Wouldn't want her to get lonely down there now would we?" He asks the boy and pushes him into the river too.
You sniffled and started to cry and Ben put away his saber and came running over to you and knelt down next to you.
"Are you okay?" He asks softly.
You only cried harder and a lump formed in Ben's throat. He was really bothered by seeing you so upset for some reason. As if on instinct he wrapped his arms around you and picked you up in his arms and held you against his chest.
"Please don't cry. Those mean students won't bother you anymore, I got rid of them." He requests and then you finally open up your eyes and see him smiling at you.
"Ben?" You ask.
"Yep. It's me." He says and helps you stand up.
"You really got rid of the bullies for me?" You ask him and he nods.
"Yep. Go look over the bridge." Ben says and you run over to the bannister on the bridge and look over and see the bullies in the river.
"We'll get you for this Y/N!" The girl yells at you.
You shrink back in fear and Ben frowns.
"Not on my watch!" Ben calls back to her. "I'll never let you lay a hand on her!"
"You're my knight..." You tell Ben softly and he turns to you and looks confused.
"Your knight?" He asks. "What are you talking about?"
"My knight! My mom used to tell me this story every night before bed about a princess who was protected by a warrior called a knight. She said that he might have been a Jedi knight too. But over time the story's become vague about that part, and if the girl was a princess or a Queen..." You say. "Somehow they were both important and in love."
"So you're saying you're in love with me?" Ben asks, a look of fear on his face.
"No no no no!" You say quickly. "I'm not! I'm like eleven years old, I don't want to date people yet. I can't anyway if I'm going to be a Jedi. I was saying you were like my knight because you protected me from people that were trying to hurt me. Like my parents promised they would do for me...until they left me here..." You say and start to sniffle and cry again.
Ben felt his heart breaking and he quickly wrapped you in a hug.
"Don't cry. Please don't cry anymore. You don't have to now." Ben says and you sniffle and look up at him. "You're homesick aren't you?" You nod. "At least you had a home to be sick of. To be honest I was happy to leave mine." Ben says.
"Why?" You ask.
"Because my parents ignored me. They're both too busy with their jobs and being heroes to take care of me. I was alone until I came here, my new and better home." Ben says. "And now you're at a new home. Here. And Uncle Luke, me and my two best buddies Regris and Jaden will be your best friends. You just want to make people happy right?" You nod again. "Well it would make me really happy if you were my friend."
"I think that would make me happy too." You say and he smiles.
"Alright then." He places his lightsaber on the ground in front of him and kneels before it on one knee and smiles up at you and takes your hand. "As your knight I promise to do all that is within my power to protect you and make you happy. And with that promise I pledge myself to you m'lady." He says and kisses your hand, making you giggle and pull him up to stand before you.
"As your lady I promise to use the greatest extent of my abilities to make sure you never feel alone, and that you are loved, and I will do all I can to bring you happiness, in whatever form that may take. With this promise I pledge myself to you, my knight." You tell him and take a flower off of one of the vines growing on the bridge and hand it to Ben. He takes it and tucks it into his shirt over his heart.
"Come on, I'll introduce you to my friends." Ben says and takes your hand and the two of you walk off the bridge.
Present Day...
You shut the door to your bedroom after saying goodnight to Rey and then gasped as you felt two strong arms wrap themselves around your waist. You looked over your shoulder and saw Kylo. He had opened up the bond to see you.
"I've finally got you alone." He breathes and presses you up against the wall and presses his mouth to yours.
You kissed him back and you both saw visions of your past at Luke's Academy together. Him sneaking you cookies under the table when you were children, training together, braiding flowers into each other's hair, and then as he got older and your relationship developed into what it was before Ben had turned. When those images ran through both of your minds the kisses got more intense and passionate. Kylo's gentle caresses became more lustful and you moaned and he grunted and slid his tongue in your mouth. You gripped his hair and tugged on it, smirking when he groaned. He always loved it when you played with his hair. He gently nudged your legs apart with his knees as he released your mouth and you took in lungfuls of air, mixed with soft whimpers as he kissed along your pulse before biting down on your sweet spot and sucking. He smirked when you let out an airy sigh. He knew all your sensitive spots. Then he gripped your hips tightly and thrust his groin into your core. A jolt of pleasure shot through you and Kylo claimed your mouth with his again to silence your moans as he ground his hardening bulge into your increasingly stimulated core. He groaned and started grinding harder against you, an action which you eagerly returned as the later part of your relationship played through both of your minds. Then...a special night in his hut came to mind and both of you moaned and you jumped and wrapped your legs around his waist. You ran your hands though his hair and gasped when he squeezed your ass with one hand and squeezed your left breast in the other, all while maintaining that delicious friction against your core. You bit your lip and sighed in pleasure at the memory. You felt Kylo's hand release your ass and come around to your front and dip into your pants. Then you gasped in shock as images from the slaughter played through your mind.
"Stop!" You commanded and pushed him off of you.
He pulled back immediately and stared at you. Both of you disheveled and breathing heavily from both your actions and the memories of your past that flooded through your mind.
"What happened?" Kylo asks. "Did I do something wrong?"
"You're not my Ben anymore..." You say simply and start to cry.
Kylo just stood there, not sure whether to reach out and hug you or just stand there and watch. But seeing you cry made a lump start to form in his throat. Just like that first time you were homesick. He had to do something. He scratches the back of his neck and decides to try talking.
"I-I'm sorry." He says and you look up at him. "I never wanted to hurt you. But I let Snoke's influence on me be stronger than my love for you. That's the only part of that night I regret."
"You don't feel bad for slaughtering the people who loved you?" You ask him.
"They didn't love me." He states bitterly. "They only tolerated me because of you. And even then you suffered because of that. I thought I was doing you a favor by eliminating them. They're the ones I slaughtered. Those that were our true friends, that respected the both of us and our love, those are my Knights of Ren. Because you deemed them worthy so they deserved to live and grow stronger at my side."
"But then you eliminated me too." You remind him and sniff. You held up your hand in front of him, the one with the string. "What about what you promised me? You broke my heart."
"I thought you were dead." Kylo says and tears appear in his eyes. "I didn't know how much I was hurting you."
"You've given me unimaginable pain Kylo Ren." You say and Kylo winces. You look confused.
"Hearing you call me that...It sounds wrong." Kylo says.
You looked at him and you felt hope spark in your chest. That genuine look in his eyes...That's how Ben used to look at you.
"What should I call you then? Supreme Leader?" You ask and he smirks. You chuckle and roll your eyes. "Of course you would like that. You always did have quite an ego."
"Leia says I get it from Han..." He says and you both tense as you remember how his life ended.
"Why did you kill him?" You ask Kylo.
"To kill the light that remained inside me." Kylo says. "But it didn't work. It was a needless sacrifice."
You sighed and looked down, playing with the string on your finger.
"Why did you really keep that?" Kylo asks. "I know you lied to Rey."
"I didn't entirely." You tell him. "It does remind me of you. But more specifically I keep it as a symbol of our love. Ben's promise...that can never be fulfilled."
"Ben Solo can never give you what he promised now." Kylo says and looks at the ground. "But perhaps I can?"
"Kylo-" You try to stop him.
"Please don't call me that." He urges and you look at him and nod. "I still love you Y/N." Your heart rate increased. "No amount of darkness could ever kill that light..." He walked closer to you and locked his gaze to yours. "Ben Solo loved you so deeply that I've inherited his love for you. If you're willing to...perhaps we can try again? I want what we once had. I know you still want that too I can feel it."
"I'm not sure I can love a man filled with so much darkness..." You say.
"You did once..." He reminds you. "The amount of darkness in me hasn't changed since I turned. And you still loved me up until the very end. I know I'm a different man now and it could take some time for us to get back to where we were but I'm willing to try...for you."
"Ben..." You say and he takes off his glove and reaches out to you.
"I've already lost you once. I didn't fight hard enough for you back then..." He says and gently brings his hand to your face.
He cups your cheek and you both gasp as visions run through your minds of a future together. It ends and you stare into each other's eyes.
"But now that I know you're still alive and Snoke is gone, I have hope." Kylo says.
"I do too." You reply and he smiles.
You run your thumb along the scar on his cheek then place a kiss to it.
"An apology. On behalf of my sister." You tell him and he smirks.
"If anything I should be the one apologizing." He says. "When Snoke told me you were dead I didn't believe him. I always had hope that you were still alive. But I feared what he would do to me and what would become of you if I tried to prove him wrong. I should have fought him, killed him sooner to keep him from manipulating me into believing what he said was true. But now that I've killed him..." You both smile. "I have hope that I can make it up to you now. If you'll let me try."
"That may be hard..." You say. "We're on different sides now remember? We should be enemies."
"We have this Force Bond." Kylo says. "I may not be physically here but I can still see you, hear you..." He runs his hand down the side of your cheek down your chest and gently traced the swell of your breast. "Touch you, through the Force." He removed his hand from you and looked back up and locked his gaze with you again. "Perhaps I could use the bond to talk with you every now and then?"
"That would be acceptable." You say and smile. "You may use this bond to talk with me when I'm free. But you must give me warning first. So Rey doesn't see, and so you don't accidentally pop in on me when I'm in any state of undress..." You say that last part softly and he smirks.
"It's not like there's anything I haven't seen before." He says and places his hand under your chin and you bite your lip as he stares into your eyes. "And I'm sure you are even lovelier now than you were then...After all these years it seems you have only gotten more beautiful..." You blush from his flattery and smile. "You truly are the most beautiful woman in the galaxy." He removes his hand. "But I will respect your wishes." He says places his lightsaber on the ground in front of him and kneels down before you on one knee and takes your hand. The one with his string on it. "I will fulfill my promise to you and do all that is within my power to protect you and make you happy. With this promise I pledge myself to you m'lady." He says and kisses your hand.
You pull him up to stand before you, both of you giggling slightly from how he now towered over you, compared to how you were a lot closer in height back when you first pledged these words to each other as children.
"And I will fulfill my promise to you and use the greatest extent of my abilities to make sure you never feel alone, and that you are loved, and I will do all I can to bring you happiness, in whatever form that may take. With this promise I pledge myself to you, my knight." You say to him.
He took your hand and bought it close to him, then pulled you in and you leaned forward and he met your lips with his own and kissed you gently, and slowly. Then you felt his presence leave you and you opened your eyes and found yourself alone in your room. You took a deep breath and walked by your mirror then frowned when you saw something in your reflection. The hickey he had given you was still present on your neck. You bit your lip and smirked before getting into bed.
A/N: Thanks for all of the feedback! I hope I get more from you for this part as well so I know I'm writing a good story and should continue!