To Become New
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Chapter 2: Too many Questions.
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When I first woke up I didn't want to open my eyes. I was perfectly happy in my dream world where my thoughts and worries were nothing but images that dance around my brain and let me be a peace. Nothing like the real troublesome world that was waiting for me. I would have to wake up, I would have to get back to my dumb life, and I would have to fix all the mess I made.
Well, that was what 'Sakura' would do, but I wasn't 'Sakura' anymore. I was someone new. I could be as lazy as Shikamaru, I could be as dumb as Naruto, heck I could even be as creepy as Shino and everyone would just think that was who I was. I could finally relax without any problems. Though, I should most likely still wake up. With a large sigh I opened my eyes to see I was now lying in one of the small rooms at the Konoha Hospital. Now, all I had to do was get out of here and start my new life.
"So all I have to do is ask her a few questions? Sweet! I can't wake for her to wake up. This is so exciting!" I noticed a young voice squeal from outside the door. I guessed she was the person who was going to ask me questions about what happened. I also guessed she was new at this stuff.
"Are you awake? Oh my gosh you are! That's awesome! I wasn't sure if you would be up already or not." A young woman with short brown spiky hair said as she wondered over to my bed. "My names Kasan, and I'm going to ask you a few simple questions okay? Don't worry I'm not bad or anything! Its just my job." She said as she gave me a quick smile.
"Sure" I muttered in a low voice. The less talking I did for now, the better.
"Okay, so let's start of easy. What's your name?" She asked as she sat on my bed.
Crud! I never thought of that part yet! What was I going to do! What do I say? What do I say? What do I say!!
"Umm, my name is…" I looked around for a idea, why did there have to be nothing in my room?
"What is it? Speak up I can't hear you." She asked leaning forward.
I closed my eyes and thought for a moment.
"Its, umm Sae?" I told her. It was the name of my last a girl I was helping last week. It might be lame but it was something.
"Sae is it? Okay. How old are you?"
"13."
"Okay, now where did you come from?"
I thought she said easy questions! I didn't have time to think of all this stuff!
"I have no idea." Did I just say that out loud? Ahh! I suck at hiding stuff from people!
"What?" She now looked me dead in the eyes.
I started to fake cry. I had to turn this thing around.
"Huh? I mean what's wrong ?" She started to look around to see if anyone was around to help. "Why are you crying? I don't get it!"
"I *sniff* can't remember anything other than my name and age, and bits before I got here. I'm scared! I don't know who I am! Help me!" I cried to her.
"Really? Oh, I'm super sorry! I um, I'm gunna go tell Tsunade. Yeah! Stay here!" She said as she stood up and ran out of the room.
I let out a breath of relief; one thing that was good was newbie's were easy to fool. At least this gave me time to think. I didn't know if I could deal with Tsunade.
"Umm, can I come in?" A deep male voice said from behind the door. I knew that voice but from where.
"S-sure, come on in." I said taking another deep breath.
I looked over to see who it was. When I saw blonde hair, I nearly fell over. Why? Why would he be here?! This is way too soon!
"N-Naruto." I stuttered as I saw his full face come into my view.
"What was that?" He asked slightly confused as he looked up at me with beautiful light blue eyes.
Did I really just say his name out loud? I was so dumb. Not even 2 seconds with him and I was already ready to jump out the nearest window to get away from him.
"I said, owe my toe! I think I hit it when I was running or something…" I blurted out quickly before he noticed what I had really said.
"Oh. I see." He responded before sitting down on a chair in front of my bed. "For a second there I thought you said my name."
"Really? Well how would I know your name? I mean I've never seen you before in my life. So since were strangers what is you name?" I asked as I mentally slapped myself for sounding so suspicious.
"My name is Naruto." He said with a small smile as he sat down. A smile I knew was so fake it made me sick. Why wasn't he smiling like he always did?
"Oh. Nice name." I said dumbly.
"What's yours?"
"Sae, I think."
"You think?" He looked at me funny and let out a small fake laugh.
"I can't remember much." I said looking at my hands. I still didn't know why he was here. I wanted him to leave. I like seeing him but this way too much. There was something wrong with him and he was hiding it, and it was driving me crazy that I didn't know."Umm, why are you here?"
"Oh right, I just wanted to ask you something's…" He looked out the window was a frown.
"Are you sure you want me? Someone was just in here asking about me." This made no sense. Why would they send 2 people just to ask me questions?
"Well, I'm not here from an order like that other girl. I came here on my own." He looked into my eyes. Now I was really confused.
"B-but why? You don't even know me?" I stuttered again.
"I wanted to know." He looked to the floor and was quiet for a moment. " I needed to know."
"You needed to know what?" What did I know that he didn't?
"How she died." My body froze. How could I be so dumb?! His team mate just died and I was the one to find her.
My eyes began to get watery. Why? Why was he doing this to me?
"Please tell me. She was someone very important to me, and I… I wasn't there to protect her." His eyes began to get watery like mine."Before she left she got mad at us for not being there for her. I-I I'm a bad person. I killed her. I killed her in my own way. So I need to know, I need to know how she died so I can get some peace at mind. She was so important to me, please?"
He kept repeating the word 'please' as tears fell down his cheeks.
Regret filled my body. I couldn't believe I hurt him like that. I slowly got out of the bed and walked over to him. Once I got to him I when on my knees and as he sat there crying I wrapped my arms around him.
"I'm so sorry." I whispered into his ear as tears fell down my cheeks as well.
"Why" He took a deep breath trying to get out his weak sounding voice. "Why are you sorry?"
"I wasn't going to tell you. I wasn't going to ever let you know." I muttered out.
"Tell me what?"
I moved back to look him in the eyes.
"Her last words. They were for you."
"What?" He moved farther away from me to get a good look at me and what I was going to say.
"She told me to tell you she was sorry she was a jerk." I cried to him."She asked me to let a Naruto know she was sorry, and she was a jerk, and …she loved him." After saying that I closed my eyes, I couldn't look at his sad eyes anymore. "I'm so sorry."
It was silent for a moment as he tried to gather his thoughts. As 'Sakura' I never once told him I love him. I just always pushed his love away.
"I need to go" He quickly said. "I just need to get some fresh air."
He then ran out the door as fast as he could.
I felt really bad for doing that to him. I'm a real jerk. I then got up from off the ground and walked over to the bed. I didn't want to regret my choice. I didn't want to ever have to look back, so I let go of my feeling of guilt and pushed them aside. I had to become someone new, I couldn't go back to being who I was. I just had to keep telling myself 'Sakura' was dead and Sae was alive now.
I let my hand move over and heal this one paper cut I had got the other day. It was annoying me and all this stress was killing me. I just needed to relax, and hopefully now that Naruto was gone there would be no more questions and I could just leave this place after one more nap. I wasn't sure how hard it would be to find a new home. And since healing yourself made me calm and sleepy it was perfect in a time like this.
"May I ask who showed you how to use your chakra to heal yourself?" A powerful voice said from the door. They had been watching me and if my guesses were right I knew just who it was.
"May I ask who you are first?" I inquired; I had to buy time to think.
"My name is Tsunade, and I am the Hokage of this village. I'm here to ask you some questions. First would you mind telling me how you can use chakra control, and better yet use it to heal yourself so nice? Especially since I head you lost your memories?"
Today had way too many questions in it. I should have never woke up this morning.
"No."
"What did you say?" She gave me a death glare.
"No, you're lying." I prayed to god in my mind she was in a good mood today.
"And why would that be?" She asked walking closer to me.
"You're the third person to 'ask me a few questions' today. Also I don't think the 'Hokage' would come all the way here to ask little old me questions."
"Well, the person you found was someone I knew very well. So I thought I'd ask you a few things."
"Fine. Well allot of my memory are in the dark, and empty. Though I do remember a few things my mom used to tell me. Something about ninjas, and I think she used to teach me how to heal small thing in case I ever got hurt and she wasn't there. I don't know how I can do it or what it is, just that it can heal me." I explained never looking away from her golden eyes.
"Is that so?" She replied searching my eyes for the truth.
I had to think of something fast to change the topic.
"My I ask you a question?" I nervously asked.
"Sure." She replied still giving me her intense look.
"Why are you pretending to be the hokage?"
She snapped out of her gaze and gave me a questioning glance.
"You think I'm lying to you? Again?" Her tone ran shivers down my spine, if this went wrong I could be in big trouble.
"Well no, I'm sure you not…It's just this boy named Naruto was visiting me in here before and he told me the hokage was really old. And well you look really young to me and not old at all so..." I said with a slight blush on my face. I couldn't believe I was resorting to complements to not get beaten up.
She gave me a small smile. I hoped that was a good sign.
"Forget what he said, he enjoys calling me old… but I see you're tired so I'll just leave our conversation here for now. Welcome to the village Sae."
"Thanks Miss." I let out a sigh of relief.
"Call me Tsunade"
"Oh, okay. I mean Thanks lady Tsunade."
"Now, get some rest. I want you to come to the hokage office as soon as you're out of here." She said as she started to walk out the door.
"Right." I called out before she left.
With that I made a quick plan in my head for when I woke up. I was going to see everyone one last time, and then go see Tsunade and get my new life started. I was going to become the person I wanted to be, not who I was. But first, I was going to take a nice nap and go back to my nice peaceful dreaming.
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