Okay, so I'm really quick with uploading this chapter. I hope I'll finish the story, because I haven't finish any story I uploaded, that's really bad of me, haha, but I don't have so much inspiration. But back to the story, I didn't get any reviews yet, but I'm not sad, I always read stories when they are already in chapter 12 or something, haha. I got 1 person who added my story to his/her favorite story list and story alert, so thank you! I really wanted to show jealous Sam, I hope you don't hate it, this chapter has also a jealous Sam, but you also get to see a really sweet side of her, not sure this chapter yet.

Disclaimer: I do not own iCarly and any lyrics that may shown here.

Edit: I uploaded it again because there was 1 mistake in it. I wrote: At lunch I sat next to Sam, but I ment Carly of course haha.

we started iCarly and in the beginning it look like the old days but soon Sophia starts giggling about everything what Freddie says. Urgh..So annoying. And then when we ended iCarly, Sophia said "Oh good job baby" and kissed him. I always said baby to him! And I had to pretend it was all okay, I even had to watch them kiss and still be fine. I couldn't be there anymore so I said I was going to get some ham, everyone would believe me, because I'm addicted to ham. I ran the stairs off and went into the kitchen. Spencer was there building his sculpture, like always. "Hey Sam, do you want to check out what I made?" he asked like he was a little boy. "No" I said a bit angry, more grumpy I think and I walked to the fridge and got some ham "What's going on?" He asked, because he sure knew something was on. "Not in the mood, Spencer." I said and I walked to the computer. "So I see you tomorrow Carly! We're going!" I heard Freddie saying while he was walking off the stairs with his new girlfriend "Sophia"."Oh and Carly, thank you for letting me stay at iCarly!" said Sophia like she was an angel or something, it almost made me puke! "Yeah..Anytime! Bye! " said Carly back. Freddie and Sophia walked out of Carly's house, finally. Well, not that I didn't want Freddie here, I just didn't want Sophia there. I swear, if she would stay here any longer, I would hit her, really bad.

"You okay, Sam?" said Carly worried. "I just can't stand that chick, she's just so.." "So nice?" "Yeahh...But.." "A bit too nice?" "YES! Carly you're freaking me out here, this is just creepy, you finishing my sentences." I said and Carly laughed a bit. "There must be something about her, right?" said Carly, it even surprised me that she said that, normally she thinks everyone is nice, ahhh...I love this Carly. "Yeah..I think so" I said. "Well..Let's find it out!" I just stood there with my mouth open, if I would've hold my mouth any longer open, my ham would fall out of my mouth, luckily it didn't. "But how?" I asked her. "Let's see if we can find anything on the internet of her, and if we don't, Spencer has some friends who, you know, can find everything from a person." "Okay, do you know her last name?" I asked her. I was so excited, I mean, if we find something then Freddie will break up with her, and...Maybe he'll give me another chance..hopefully. "uhm..yeah I think she mentioned it..let me think...oh yeah, her last name was Wood! Sophia Wood." "Pfff...Her last name is Wood? Hahahaha" I laughed. So I typed in the computer to "Sophia Wood". I couldn't see anything, like she doesn't exist. "That's weird" I said "What?" "I can't find anything about her, like she's a ghost." "Well that's definitely weird...SPENC!" she yelled. "What?" He yelled back, he was probably in his room getting some more stuff for his sculpture. "Can you do something for me?" she yelled. He came out of his room and said "I'd do anything for my little sis, well except blowing up the city, pranking someone, you know how that turned out, get dressed like a women, I actually already did that, if I would have a time traveller I'd give it to you.." And he went on and on with these things, seriously, if Carly didn't stopped him, he could do talk like that for an hour! "SPENCER!" Carly yelled. "Sorry..So what's up?" he said. "Well, can you and your friends find something about a certain person?" Carly asked him sweet with her dog eyes. "ehh..well I think I can do that! What's the name of the "certain person" ?" he asked. "Sophia Wood, she just came to our school, she's new." Carly said. "Hmm...Isn't that Freddie's girlfriend?" "uh..Why do you have to know?" Carly said abrupt. "No, no..Don't have to know" he glanced, knowing it was about Freddie's girlfriend. "Sam and I are going to our room, do you know when you have the information?" Carly said with a tone that said that we needed the information quick. "Uhm..I'll text my friend right away, it may take a day, is that okay?" he said "yeah yeah, it's okay." Carly said and we walked the stairs up to her room.

"Isn't it weird that we can't find anything about Sophia, even not a facebook account?" Carly asked me while we were hitting a balloon. "Yeah, I know right. Something's not right with this girlfriend of Freddie." I said. "It's a bit funny that he might date a total freak. I think he has a thing for freaks." said Carly giggling. "HEEY! I'm not a freak!" I said defensive. Carly looked at me like are you serious? "okay, I'm a freak." We laughed both. I really am glad with Carly as friend. I always thought Carly would be jealous of me and Freddie, that we had a relationship, but she always tried to save our relationship. She's a good friend, my best friend.

The next day

At school

I was walking to my locker when suddenly Freddie put his hand on my shoulder turned me around and asked me if he could talk to me. "yeah sure Frednub" I said. I was still calling him Frednub, Fredward or whatever other nicknames I have for him, I wanted to do like everything was normal. "You okay?" he asked me concerned, like he would actually care about me. "Why'd you ask?" I asked him, sure I knew what he ment, but I didn't want to talk about it. "You know, because of me and Sophia, and I know we had some history and stuff..." He was trying to find out if I still loved him, of course I did, but I won't show it, or tell him. I didn't want to say a thing, because I really didn't want to lie to him, because he would know that I lied, but I also didn't want to tell the truth, it would only give me more troubles. "So...Are you okay with me and Sophia?" he asked like he needed my approval. Lie, Sam, lie, it would only hurt him more like you already did. "Yeah sure anything what makes you happy!" I said not looking at his eyes and I walked away.

Freddie's POV (Only this time I think)

I knew something was bothering Sam, but I didn't know if it was me or something else. I don't know, maybe she didn't even bother at all. Maybe secretly I'm wishing that Sam hates me and Sophia together. Urgh! Why am I thinking this? I was over Sam, right? I am over Sam. No, wait, huh. Why does she gets in my mind every time. I hate it, I hate her! I was thinking a lot when I walked to school. I saw her walking to her locker, with her beautiful curly blond hair. Why am I still thinking this? I really wanted to slap myself with a book, no actually I wanted that Sam hit me. Urgh..again a stupid thought. So I went to Sam. And of course she called me Frednub, like always, I liked it, it made me feel special, because I was the only one with a nickname, yeah, you have Carls, but that's different, right? I asked her if she was okay but apparently she didn't get the question. It was obvious that I ment me and Sophia. It was like she was avoiding my question. So I explained my question and it looked like she was somewhere else. I almost screamed at her "Sam! Pay attention" But I didn't want everyone to stare at us, wich they already did. She answered with "Yeah sure anything what makes you happy!" it really came out sarcastically , but it made me happy, well a part of it. She said "anything what makes you happy"! It looks like she still cares about me! Or she just said it, with no meaning. Why am I overreacting at every little thing that Sam says. I hate myself, I hate myself that I'm not over Sam already.

Sam's POV

I said "What makes you happy". I hope he got it, I hope I ment with that, that I still care about him. That I want him to be happy. He's the best thing that ever happend to me, so I want the best for him. And if I'm not the best, okay.

"It's probably the best for you
I only want the best for you
And if I'm not the best then you're stuck"

At lunch time I said next to Carly and across from Freddie and Sophia. They did all flirty and just, urgh disgusting!It was like he wanted to torture me! Okay, I have tortured him for years, but that doesn't mean he has to get back at me, not this way!

"It's like you pouring salt on my cuts"

I couldn't watch this anymore, so I stood up and walked away. Everyone was starring at me, not only because I left, but also because I didn't eat anything. That never happens, but I just didn't felt hungry, maybe because it made me sick that Freddie and Sophia were eating each other up. I walked out of school and I walked slowly away from everything. Something made me want to turn around and go back, not to see Sophia and Freddie, just to see Freddie. I was a few footsteps away from school when I heard someone screaming my name. I turned around and I saw Freddie. I really didn't want to talk, talk about why I walked away. So I didn't talked, and he knew that I wasn't going to talk, so he talked.

"Sam, I love you, I always did and will do. You were my first love..." I was going to say "What about Carly" but didn't felt like talking, again. "And I know I was "in love" with Carly, but you know, that never worked out, and it wasn't really love, it was more like a sick obsession. Like a Christmas present you really want so badly that you start screaming when you haven't got it. But you weren't that for me, you were more, you were everything that I wanted, not just a present, my only present I wanted, and if I didn't got it, I would seriously kill myself. Because Sam, there's no point of living if you aren't there beside me. And I know, we are too different, but that made me really upset, upset that you thought that on the day that we broke up. You hurt me, you know. You seriously hurt me bad, and I know it wasn't your intention, to hurt me like that, because I know it hurt you too. But I'm trying to move on, because I know I'll never have you, and I really don't want to lose you as a friend too. And Sophia is a great girl, she's nice and polite, but she's not you. And I keep telling myself that it is okay, that I'll be okay, but it never will. I know that too. But the pain that is killing me inside gets less, every time when I'm with her. Not that I'm feeling completely happy, I think I will forever feel a bit emptiness in my heart. But you know, I gotta start living my life, I can't sit there in my room thinking what I would've do different, so I'm moving on. I'm sorry if I hurt you with that, that's not my intension, but sometimes I gotta do something for me, for myself." It was beautiful was Freddie said, but it also made me wanna scream. All of this different feelings made me cry, okay, he made me cry. I didn't want to show him, so I looked down, hoping he wouldn't see it. But he did.."Sam.." And he came closer to me and hugged me. "I love you, you know, and I'll always be there for you, don't forget that, if anything happens to you I swear, my whole world would fall apart." He gave me a kiss on my forehead and hugged me tighter.

I wished I could've hold that moment forever, hold him forever. There's nothing I'd rather have, even ham. There's nowhere I'd rather be then here, here in his arms.

"If anything happens to you, I swear, my whole world would fall apart"

Hope you like this chapter :) The song that is named in here is Fix a heart by Demi Lovato, it's seriously one of my favorite songs. I also hope you didn't think Freddie's speech was too cheesy. But I really wanted to give you a Seddie scene, because this scene is going to be the biggest seddie scene in the up coming chapters. Also, who is really interested what's Sophie gotta hide? Next chapter you will find it out! Please review, so I know you like the story and I won't stop writing this story.

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