Chapter 2
I didn't know where to go after leaving TM so i went to see Tommy,
Once i finally got there i was shocked when i seen a small light hovering next to his stone as i moved closer ready to tell someone to get the fuck away from my brothers stone i seen who it was
"What are you doing here?" I growled out through my teeth
"Came to see you, i knew you wouldn't go to Carrie's figured you would end up here" Opie said standing up come closer to me "I remembered what today was"
"Well you were right so you can go now" i moved stepping around him
"You know your just as pig headed as your brother" i turned around glaring at him
"Yeah well that SOB started it, iv'e done nothing but help him through everything. For him I was there after Wendy told him she was pregnant. I was there when she went for her first scan i look after her because Jax cant because he don't know how to but i'm the spoilt little bitch, Fuck him and fuck you if your here to defend him-" Before I could say anything else i felt Opie's arms wrap around my waist lifting me and crushing his lips to mine. After i don't know how long he put me back down. I breathed in as much air as i could before i opened my mouth to speak. But i din't say anything
I clenched my fist and brought my hand straight forward connecting with his nose, making him stubble back a bit. Before he could see me coming I kept throwing punches some of them not connecting because he was blocking me, after the third or fourth hit i felt his arms wrap around me holding me close to his chest so i couldn't move my arms
"Babe stop i'm sorry"
"NO!" I said trying to pull my body away from him "You can't keep doing this to me" I felt tears running down my cheeks I know i kissed him back but how could i not
I've been in love with Opie for as long as i can remember, when we were little kids i use to follow them around like a lost puppy, i loved him and everyone new it even Jax but i guess that was why he wasn't that mad the day i told him.
Opie and Donna got together two years ago and what ever i though could happen with him went out the door, He was happy and i was happy that he was happy, even though it hurt i let it go it was what he needed shes good for him, i'm not
"Opie please let me go" He lifted me up of the ground a little hugging me tightly then let me go
"I'm sorry" he whispered
"Just go home Op, go see Donna or something kiss HER tell HER how much you miss her, i don't care what you do just please go" I felt a tear roll down my cheek
"I can't leave you on your own" i rolled my eyes
"Give me you'r phone" he pulled it out of his pocket
"What happened to your one?"
"He won't answer it if he sees my number" i quickly dialed
"Who?"
"Jax" Now Opie was the shocked one,after a few rings he answered
"Opie man did you find her? is she okay? where is she? tell her i'm sorry" I snorted
"Come tell me your self-"
"Ab's i'm-" i cut him of before he could say anything
"I'm with Tommy" i hung up handing his phone back to him "See i'll be fine NOW LEAVE!" i screamed pushing him away
"Abbi" he had so much concern in his eyes. i turned away from him not even looking at him hoping that he would get the hint and just leave, i felt him kiss my head and then he was gone.
Not long later i heared Jax's bike and then i heard Opie's bike leaving i guess he didn't leave when i thought he did.
Not long later Jax came and sat down next to me
"Ab's i'm so sorry about saying what i said i didn't mean it i was just mad i had a pretty fucked up day and was just taking it out on you" He lent into his pocket pulling out a cig offering me one i don't smoke often but i did when i was stressed, so know was one of those moment's
"I'm sorry i said what i said i was upset and mad at you i shouldn't have said any of that, it wasn't tru-" Jax cut me of
"Yes it was Ab's, after you left mum went nuts, she started smashing everything papers every where... desk flipped up in the office it was normal mum" i laughed "But she looked at me when she calmed a little and said you were right, but she never wished you were the one that died rather then Tommy, she just hated that you guys were the same, same heart same everything but you made it and he didn't, she wonders what you had that he didn't"
"I didn't have anything but i know what he had that i didn't have." he looked confused "You and mum is what i didn't have," he looked at me confused "You don't remember do you" he shook his head "When we were both in the hospital Mum and You always stayed with Tommy you would come see me, maybe stay for a little while see how i was but then you would go back to T... and i hated him and i hated you both for that.
I remember this one night you and ma had left to go home to shower and sleep for a bit and he called my room and told me to come see him so i dragged my shit over to him rolling my eyes on the way because of course he got everything handed to him" Jax laughed "Any way i got to the room and he patted the bed so i moved over to lay down with him and he wrapped his arm around my shoulder and squeezed me and whispered 'You better fight because i don't know if i have any fight left' and we both fell asleep like that until a nurse came and took me back to my room and and hour later you guys arrived, two months later..."
"He died when you got better" He said i nodded
"i was just as sick as he was but i had to fight hard he gave up he didn't want to fight anymore"
"You know i didn't come to you often because i knew you were strong enough to handle the surgery's you had on your heart" Jax and i spun around seeing mum standing there looking at us both "I knew you could handle it but i didn't think he could so i wanted to stay with him as much as i could"
"How did you know i had the strength ma i could have died before he did and it wouldn't have mattered because to you Thomas and Jackson" i said there full names feeling mad again "Were and will always be your number ones along with Clay, i'm your number 5 after them 3 and the club."
"Abbi" Now she sounded mad
"Don't even start i don't want to fight any more"
"Your not my number 5"
"Really?" i stood up at the same time Jax did "If i'm not your number 5 tell me what tomorrow is?"
"Family dinner we have it every year because its your birthday the next day"
"Ehhhhhhh WRONG! Tomorrow is my school performance" They both looked confused "Ive been talking about it everyday for the last month, that's why today was so important i wanted that car so that i could get back to the dinner. But hey like i said number 5 if the club has something on i get forgotten, don't worry about it" it turned heading towards the parking lot
"I'm staying at Carrie's tonight, ill see you at dinner tomorrow i'll get Carrie to give me a ride home so i'll be on time for dinner" I pulled out my phone calling her
"Hey Beatle bug" i smiled at the nick name "how did the car shopping going?"
"Bad i need to crash at your's tonight is that okay?"
"Yeah of course dad had to leave earlier for a trip to New York for a few days so it will only be you me and my stupid brother's" i smiled her older brothers where Danny and Rick, they where awesome i had become close with them as well they became like extra older brothers it was nice having them around all the time. Rick was 18 and Danny was 20, he was only home when he had a brake at uni.
"Okay sounds good"
"Alright then babe i'll get Rick to come get you i just got into a bath and i have a mud mask on, and he was already out getting dinner"
"Okay well i was with Tommy so tell him to just meet me down the end of the street okay"
"Okay, he won't be long okay"
"I know" i hung up and and walked to the end of the street i wasn't even there for 5 minutes when he turned up.
We both said hi but didn't say anything else the hole ride, once we got there i said thank you and went straight to Carrie's room, she was sitting at her desk on her laptop talking to someone on facebook. i looked over her shoulder and seen it said Rose, Carrie's girl friend she started to write 'talk tomorrow' when i stopped her
"NO don't stop cause i'm here keep talking to her i'm just going to get a glass of water then go to bed, tell her i said hi" she nodded looking at me worried but i ignored it and went to get a drink, as i got to the kitchen i heard Rick talking to Danny
"Look man you know sometimes you just have that feeling that there's something wrong well this is that time,"
"What do you mean?" Danny said
"Like i got this vibe of Abbie when she got in the car, it was sad, she should be happy she turns 18 in two days but she's sad"
"Bro your probably just full of it she was visiting her brother when you picked her up she was probably just sad about him"
"Nah man this was a sad like she was a few months back when she seen that guy from the club with that girl" i shock my head and walked in the door
"You know you should really stop jumping to shit." Both there eyes widened when they seen me "I had a fight with Jax it was bad and stop profiling me"
"Are you sure your not usually sad your always this happy person all the time"
"Well sometimes happy people have bad moments okay don't worry about it i'll be fine by tomorrow, you guys coming to the performance?"
"Course it's not often that we get to see you sing and dance" Danny shoved a piece of Pizza in his mouth
"That's cause i don't, now go to bed you fat blobs before i have to kick both your asses for talking about me" i grabbed a water and walked out.
As i walked into Carrie's room she's standing there holding up a per of PJ shorts with my favorite shirt that i forgot i left here.
I looked seeing the laptop was closed and off
"You need me more then she does now come on come tell me what the fuck happened tonight" i smiled grabbing the clothes of her and changed quickly.
Once we where in bed i explained what happened.
Next Morning
it was about 5 in the morning when i woke up, i seen Carrie was still asleep, i shook her awake
"C i'm gonna borrow your car need to go home and get my stuff for class ill be back here in time for school okay"
She groaned rolling over "Just meet me at school I'll get a ride with Rick"
"Okay cool, thanks I'll see you later" She mumbled but went straight to sleep.
When i got to the house i seen Jax's bike in the drive.
I parked out front and moved towards the stairs to my room, thank fuck i had a balcony to my room, i moved up the ladder and grabbed my key from around my neck unlocking it, i pulled back the curtain and jumped when i seen Jax asleep on my floor
"Shit" I whispered. i stepped over him and walked straight to my bathroom grabbing a few clothes on the way, once i got in the shower it felt good washing away the stress and worry's from last night.
I didn't want to see Jax but when i came out of the bathroom he was sitting in my desk chair rubbing his face
"What up big bro?" I said ignoring that anger that i still had from last night.
I walked over to my wardrobe pulling out my pre-packed bag for tonight. "Where you going?"
"School where else" I said sarcastically
"You staying at Carrie's again tonight?" I shook my head
"Nah it's family dinner night i know not to stay at her's on those's nights"
"Then what's with the bags?" i rolled my eyes stepping towards my balcony door, but he stood up stopping me
"What is this fucking twenty questions, i need some shit get over it. If you have something to say, just say it or you can get the fuck out of my way, and out of my room so i can go to school"
"I was just hoping you would say something" I knew what he wanted me to say but i wasn't saying it
"I know you want me to say sorry for what i said last night but i'm not going to. Why for telling you the truth? Get the fuck out of my way" i stepped ready to move around him but he grabbed my arm, tightly
I tried moving my arm but his grip got tighter "Ow Jax your hurting me" he let me go stepping away
I quickly through my stuff over the side and grabbed my lap top of my desk putting it in his carry on bag
"Go back to your dorm room Jax get some sleep, shower have a coffee of something because i have to go." i turned away from him climbing down the ladder.
Once i got to school Carrie didn't say anything just gave me a hug and telling me to stay strong.
Half way through the day the principle pulled the students out of class because we needed to practice before tonight. (School performance use to be my favorite thing to be involved in as a kid cause for a week leading up to it we didn't have to do any school work)
Once it was time for everything to start. Carrie was sitting next to me on the piano we were first up starting the show of with two songs a slow one and a fast one, i heard the principal talking about how all funds raised tonight go to building a new home for family to stay in when the child is sick or in need of around the clock care. He then introduced Carrie and I
The curtains opened up and i took a step forward smiling at everyone
"Hi everyone, my name is Abbi and the lovely lady behind me is Carrie, we will be starting out the show with a song by Colbie Caillat We both know it as chosen by Carrie, please enjoy and i hope you have a good night.
They all say it, all the ones who made it
Once you find the one you claim it
But you're gonna have to fight
When I think back, the things that threw us off track
We handle like a heart attack cause we didn't see the light
Uh-uh-uh and I
We both. know our. own limitation.s
That's why we're strong.
Now that we. spend some time apart.
We're leading each-other. out of the dark.
Cause we both know
From this moment, forget what we were scared of
Say you're never giving up
Say you'll always try to be my helping hand
Try to be the one who understands
When things don't go as you planned
We're still worth it all
Uh-uh-uh and I
We both. know our. own limitation.s
That's why we're strong.
Now that we. spend some time apart.
We're leading each-other. out of the dark.
Cause we both know
What we're scared of
What we're scared of
And what dreams are made of
They could take us further than what anybody can see, yeah
We both know. our own limitations
And that's why we're strong
Now that we spend some time apart
We're leading each-other out of the dark
We both know our own limitations
And that's why we're strong
Now when we spend some time apart
We're leading each-other out of the dark
Cause we both know
We both know " Everyone stood up clapping and whistling
"Thank you everyone, now lets get this party going" as i was stepping of the stage i froze seeing the back line of the hall
It was everyone mum Jax Clay Bobby everyone i wanted to be there but didn't think they would come, i seen Opie sitting next to Jax sporting a black eye, i smiled winking at him.
It came midway through the night when it was my turn again this time i was dancing with people, Chris browns i should have kissed you came on.
After after a got of stage I went out back and got changed into a dress after the show ended Carrie and I came back out to sing one more song. I smiled and told everyone that i would be singing one of my favorite songs, the way by Ariana and Mac miller
What we gotta do right here is go back, back to the top.
I love the way you make me feel
I love it, I love it
I love the way you make me feel
I love it, I love it
(David walked onto stag rapping the Mac Miller Rap)
Say, I'm thinking 'bout her every second, every hour
Do my singing in the shower
Picking petals off the flowers like
Do she love me, do she love me not?
I ain't a player, I just
You give me that kind of something
Want it all the time, need it everyday
On a scale of one to ten I'm at a hundred
Never get enough, I can't stay away
If you want it, I got it, I got it everyday
You can get whatever you need from me
Stay by your side, I'll never leave you" I jumped up standing next to Carrie she was playing piano
And I ain't going nowhere 'cause you're a keeper
So don't you worry, baby, you got me" Slowly everyone that performed came out and started singing
"I got a bad boy, I must admit it
(hey)
You got my heart, don't know how you did it
(hey)
And I don't care who sees it babe
I don't wanna hide the way I feel when you're next to me
(hey)
I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
I love the way (I love it)
Baby, I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
Ooh, I love the way (I love it)
The way you love me
Oh, it's so crazy you get my heart jumping
When you put your lips on mine" I felt David grab my waist tilting me backwards planting a kiss on my lips
"And honey it ain't a question (q-question)'
Cause boy I know just what you like
So If you need it, I got it, I got it everyday
Be your lover, your friend, you'll find it all in me
Stay by your side, I'll never leave you" i moved standing next to Rick (Carries brother he was playing drums)
And I ain't going nowhere 'cause you're a keeper
So don't you worry, baby, you got me
I got a bad boy, I must admit it
(hey)
You got my heart, don't know how you did it
(hey)
And I don't care who sees it babe
I don't wanna hide the way I feel when you're next to me
(hey)
I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
I love the way (I love it)
Baby, I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
Ooh, I love the way (I love it)
The way I love you
"(David sarted to rap) "Uh, I make you feel so fine, make you feel so fine
I hope you hit me on my celly when I sneak in your mind
You're a princess to the public, but a freak when it's time
Said your bed be feeling lonely,So you're sleeping in mine.
Come here, watch a movie with me,"American Beauty" or "Bruce Almighty" that's groovy,
Just come and move closer to me" He grabbed my hand spinning me around so my back was against his chest as our hips started to sway together
I got some feelings for you, I'm not gonna get bored of
But baby you're an adventure
So please let me come explore you
So let me come and explore you
So don't you worry, baby you got me
I got a bad boy, I must admit it
(hey)
You got my heart, don't know how you did it
(hey)
And I don't care who sees it babe
I don't wanna hide the way I feel when you're next to me
(hey)
I love the way
(I love the way you make me feel)
I love the way (I love it)
Baby, I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
Ooh, I love the way (I love it)
I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
I love the way (I love it)
Baby, I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
Ooh, I love the way (I love it)
The way I love you
The way I love you
The way I love you, you, you, yeah, the way
I love the way you make me feel
I love it, I love it
I love the way you make me feel
I love it
The way I love you." once the song died down everyone stood up clapping i stepped back standing next to everyone we all bowed
"Thank you everyone for coming out tonight and helping us fund raise it has a special place in my heart-"
"That's why you donated $5000 to it" i heard someone whisper i spun around to see who it was but i couldn't see anyone
"Okay. Thank you everyone, have a safe ride home, Goodnight"
Carrie and i ran back stage grabbing our stuff and going to the parking lot, i seen the guys all lined up sitting on there bikes talking they hadn't seen us come out yet
"Did you know she could sing like that" Uncle Elvis asked Mum
"No I've actually never heard her sing"
"I have" Jax and Opie said at the same time
"When?" Mum asked
"A few years ago when you went in for your heart, she was in the waiting area and she started to sing one of your favorite song"
"Son of a preacher man?"
"Yeah she started of by whispering the lyrics and then she slowly started to sing them out loud, after she finished she told us if we told anyone that she would rip our balls of and stick them down our throats"
"So we thought it was best to keep it to our selves"
"Yeah i maybe tiny but i can course a hole lot of hurt" everyone turned around
"Abbi that was awesome" i smiled hugging everyone i left Jax for last, he came over wrapping his arms around my waist lifting me up into a bear hug
"I'm sorry about earlier i was being stupid" i smiled
"It's cool" he put me down keeping an arm around my shoulder
"Well i better head out i told Rick and Danny i would buy them dinner if they cleaned the house today, wish me luck" she laughed
Everyone one said bye as i chucked her, her keys
"Okay lets go home i have a dinner i have to cook, and we gotta a surprise for ya"
"Mamma i don't like surprise's"
"This one you will like, we've been hiding it from you for a good month now"
"Really? what is it?"
"Wait and see" I jumped on the back of Jax's bike as we road to the house. As we pulled into the drive i seen a car parked there
"Who's car is that?' i asked Jax of the roar of the bikes
"It's yours baby girl."
"No way" i jumped of the bike before it stood and throw him the helmet "This is mine?"
"Yeah when i seen you looking at it awhile back i told ma and she said to get it, here we are, Happy birthday" i jumped up hugging them all even though i know they all didn't get it i didn't care.
The rest of the night was pretty funny and crazy family dinner's always where
The next morning I got up and go in my amazing new car driving straight to Jax's house. It was time to checking up on Wendy.
As i pulled in the drive i seen that the mailbox was full of letters and and junk mail, i grabbed it all out walking over to the door knocking
"Wendy! you there its Abbi?" but she didn't answer i knocked again but nothing. i walked over to the car grabbing the spare key from my bag and unlocking the door, i throw the papers on the table next to the door, as i walked towards the hall i heard a noise coming from the kitchen, i spun around seeing Wendy on the floor in a pool of her blood
"Wendy!" i screamed