"I have a good feeling about last night." Rob whispers into my ear, "And this morning... and just now." His warm breath is sending shivers thru my body, I let out a giggle and wrap him up in my arms even tighter. "So do I."

Rob nuzzles my neck, "4 times the charm?" He ask. "Rob! Enough!" I scold him. "You are unsustainable!" I laugh. "Well who wouldn't be if someone was married to you?"

"Good answer." I peck his cheek with my soft lips and untangle myself from my husband. "Where are you going?" Rob asks as I head into the bathroom.

"I gotta piss." my voice echoes out to him, "Did you ever find out when you are officially leaving?"

I finish my business and head back out to Rob. He is scrolling thru his phone, "January 3rd." He says quietly. "Alright." I whisper. We just finished with Breaking Dawn Part 2's promotional tour. Its December and Rob already is leaving again. But he is so excited to shoot this movie. Its some strange Australian Western movie. This is all he has been talking about since he signed on in August.

"You know you are more then welcome to come with me.."

I nod my head, "I know."

"Its only going to be a month and a half. Barely any time at all."

"Rob, I'll be fine here." I will be fine, sure I'll miss him, but I know he wants some time to himself and prove that he can play someone else besides Edward.

"I booked flights for Christmas and New Years…" Rob trailed off.

"Good." I snuggle into his chest and breathe in his scent. There is no place I would rather be. His hands gently move and down my spine. His fingers softly tracing the outline of my shoulder blades. "Mmm that feels nice."

I feel Rob smile and he presses his lips to my head. "Whats on your agenda today, Mommy?"

My eyes open and I sit up, "Please don't call me that." I say. I feel the strange empty feeling creeping back into my heart. "Please, Rob."

"Why not? Even though she isn't here anymore.. you are still a mom."

I drop my head and rush out the room, Cant he ever just shut up? Why does he have the need to always discuss and push things? I stomp down the stairs and out the back door. I walk down the marble steps to our pool and sit on the edge. I let my feet dangle in. I take a few deep breaths and I look out to the mountains. I love living near Griffith Park, its always breath taking. I let my head drop back and feel the winter sun shine down on me. I know I am in nothing but a white t-shirt but I don't seem to care. I sit out by our pool for what seems like hours.

I feel a nudge and I look up to see Rob. "You fell asleep.. I was getting worried."

I stand up and stretch my arms, "I'm fine. I didn't mean to worry you." I poke his stomach and walk back into the house. I know he is following me, but I pretend like he isn't.

I say a quick hello to Bear and head back upstairs. I quickly run into the bathroom, loosing Rob, and lock the door. I need time to myself just as much as he does.

I step into the welcoming shower and let the hot water cascade over me. I spend extra time shampoo'ing and conditioning my hair. I decide to shave my legs and privates.

I exit feeling refreshed and sexy. After drying myself I drop my towel and look in the mirror. Yeah, I look hot. No doubt about it. Since Felicity, I have gotten my shape back and my breasts kept their fullness they had while she was still safe in my stomach.

I towel dry my hair and apply some make up. I do my classic smokey eye and add a bit of lip gloss. I run my fingers thru my hair a few times, and spray some perfume. Hmm, this is good.

I unlock the door and walk back into our room naked. Rob must be downstairs, I head to our closet and pull out my favorite black lace bra and matching thong. I want my tight skinny jeans and my see thru white tank. I rummage thru all my drawers and can't find them. Oh, thats right. They are down in the laundry room.

I head downstairs in nothing but my bra and thong, I walk right past Rob who is laying on the couch watching some stupid game show, and snacking on M&M's. I know I caught his attention. He pauses the TV and sits up. "Kris?"

I smile to myself, Goal achieved. Whose a 'Mommy' now? "Yeah?" I ask.

"Come back here."

I walk back into the living room, "Whats up babe?"

His eyes drop to my chest and then to my V, then back up to my face. "What did I do to deserve this?"

"Oh this?" I ask, spinning around. "You didn't. I just need to get my clothes from the dryer." I smile and walk away from him.

With in the same second he is behind me, "Wait up!" Rob catches me and holds me so i am pressed into him. "Whats all this for?"

"I'm not a mom." I tell him, "I have never been a mom."

I feel tears rising and I try to pull away. Rob holds me tighter and I give into fighting him. My head drops and I begin to sob. "Im not a mom."

"Shhh its ok, baby." Rob whispers as he is rubbing my back, "Its ok." He picks me up and sets me on the kitchen counter. "Talk to me."

I wipe the makeup that I feel running down my face, "I haven't earned the title, 'Mommy' "

"What?"

"I didn't protect her, I'm not responsible, I'm not a mom."

"Stop, Kristen. I thought we moved past this!" Rob runs his fingers thru his hair and takes a deep breath, "You and I did everything right. We loved her, we held her, we protected her. It was her time to go. You know that."

"I know." I cry. "It's just, we just started trying and I'm just not ready to be called 'Mommy' yet. Can you understand that?"

Rob nods his head, "I understand, you let me know when you are a 'mommy' ok?"

"Ok." I smile.

Rob mirrors me and helps me down, "This is some costume." I blush, "I really was going to get some clothes.."

"Well, go get dressed, fix your face, and we can go out. Anywhere you want." Rob says.

"Yes, sir."

…

After putting some clothes on, Rob takes me out to one of our favorite hang out spots. Ye Kings Head in Santa Monica. Its about a 30 min drive, but it seems like nothing when I get to hear Rob sing along to the radio.

We park in the always full lot right across the street and stroll hand in hand into the pub. I feel my body shiver as a gust of wind from the ocean across the street blows into us. "Forgot my jacket." I mumble into Rob. "Here." He takes off his treasured MTV varsity jacket and lets me wear it. "Thanks. I think I'll keep you around." I giggle.

"Come on." Rob laughs.

We head back into our secluded booth in the back of the bar area. I snuggle into Rob and he drapes his arm around me. "Hi, I'm Martin, and I'll be taking care of you guys tonight. What can I get started for you?"

"1 miller on tap and, Kris?" Rob asks, looking down at me. What a dick. He has been pushing me to take a test and I haven't wanted to yet. We only have been trying for 2 weeks.. but this is his way of seeing whether or not I think I'm pregnant.

"Cranberry juice and tonic water, please." I smile up at the waiter. "Got it, I'll get that right out for you two."

Rob has the biggest smirk on his face. "Shut up." I tell him.

"I didn't say anything." He laughs.

"Its what your thinking. Stop it."

"Yes, Ma'mm."

Rob and I both order a hamburger and enjoy our meal together. Here and at the Rustic Inn almost are comparable to In & Out. I am just finishing up when we see Katy walking in. "Did you text her?" I ask Rob.

He shakes his head no, "Hey guys!" she says walking up to us. "Hey." we both say. I love Katy to death, and I usually always want to hang out with her, but for some reason I just want to be with Rob tonight. This protective feeling of him just hit me. "Take a seat." Rob tells her. She does, "Karen is parking. I didn't know you guys were here tonight. You should have texted me dicks!" she laughs. Rob joins in and I smile.

I wipe my mouth with a napkin, take a sip of my juice and settle back into Rob's loving hold. I wrap his jacket around me tighter and I practically glue myself to him. My actions don't go unnoticed by Katy. She slightly smiles and looks up to Rob. He just shrugs and kisses the top of my head.

Karen joins us next and the three of them start a discussion about Rob's new project. I sit pretending to listen.

Its just past midnight when Katy declares we should all go to a club. "Come on, we haven't gone in forever!"

Rob laughs and Karen says she's in. "Wake up, Girl!" Katy shouts at me. I slightly pick up my head from Robs chest, "Maybe next time." I mumble.

"No! Your going, you are way too young to be sitting at home on a Friday night!"

"I'm not at home, I was having a nice dinner with my husband and friends. Now that I have, I want to go home." I say standing up. "If you want to go, that fine with me. Just take me home first." I tell Rob.

Rob stands up with me, "Thanks for the offer, but I'm pretty beat, I'm going to go home." Rob gives Katy and Karen a hug and then takes his place at my side and places his hand on the small part of my back. "we will talk to you later." Rob tells them.

I give them a small wave and then walk with Rob out to the car. It has gotten colder since we first came in, I button up Rob's jacket and he holds me close to him while we walk. I then hear the clicks and snaps of cameras. "Seriously." I moan. Rob shakes his head and we keep walking.

Even with the restraining order, we still have multiple paparazzi and magazines that can still take pictures of us. I feel like some of the photographers have changed over to different magazines.

"Hey guys! Over here!" One yells at us.

We ignore him. "Fucking idiot actually thinks we are going to give him a pay day?" I mumble.

"Watch the language." Rob whispers.

Right. I forgot how sensitive Rob gets about swearing now. He has been trying to break that habit.

The guy runs in front of us and the flash goes off causing both Rob and I to shield our eyes. "Kristen! Hows the baby?!" he shouts.

FUCKING ASS HOLE! "Get away from us!" Rob tells him. "Now."

Rob grabs hold of hand and we walk quickly back to our car.

…

I'm laying in bed waiting for Rob to finish up in the bathroom. I'm playing on my phone when Katy's caller ID appears.

"Hello?"

"Hey, Kris." She says. "I hope I didn't wake you up."

"No, you didn't. I'm just waiting for Rob to come to bed. Whats up?"

"I just wanted to apologize for tonight. I shouldn't have pushed the club."

"It's ok. I'm just not into that anymore I guess. I don't know.. I've kinda gone soft.."

"No, you haven't. You've grown up. I wish I could…"

"Yeah, I guess I have. But i kinda had too.."

"I know. I'm in awe of how you have handled things. Maybe I can come over and we can have a girls night in.. "

"That would be awesome." I tell her.

"Great. Oh, and I guess i should apologize for intruding on your date." Katy says. "I didn't mean to upset you."

"Everything upsets me. It's ok."

"Alright, well anyways, I'm still sorry. Call me if you ever want to talk, and we can set up our girls night."

"Ok, I will. Goodnight."

"Night, Kristen."

I end the call and plug in my phone to charge. Rob comes out of the bathroom and hops into bed. He turns out the light and pulls me into him.

"How do you feel?" he whispers in my ear. "What are you talking about?"

"I need to know how you are feeling. About everything. We aren't going to get pregnant if you are stressed or upset all the time. I've been doing homework."

I laugh, only my husband. "Trust me, you don't want to know everything I feel."

"Yes, I do. Please tell me."

"Fine. Well I was really happy tonight at dinner until Katy showed up. The second she sat down I felt extremely protective and in need of you. I wanted to crawl inside you and never let go. Then when the paps yelled at us, I wanted to cry. And now, I just want you to hold me."

Rob exhales and cradles me to him. "I love you, Kristen."

"I love you too, Rob."

"We are going to get thru this. I know it." He whispers.

I nod my head, "Yeah, we are."