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Calista
The rainy clouds gathered, my heart dropped into my stomach... well it felt like it did! I sighed and wiped my red eyes. feeling drowsy and lost. I felt...Numb. Yeah, numb sounded about right. Nothing else could go wrong.
This wasn't suppose to happen...
We were suppose to fight together!
Why?
That one little word ran through my mind. Why? Such a small question yet so many answers.
I am burdened, wanting to find the answer... The right answer...
Why is there never a happy ending?
See. The word appeared again! His words ran through my mind.
'I want to give your heart a break'
Give my heart a break?! What was he thinking? My heart will never rest, I'll never be in 's it, he just... He just left. He didn't even give an explaination, just a crumpled up note with scribbled writing...
'My lovely Calista,
I cannot explain how much it pains me to do this. There's no turning back now but please just understand, I want to give your heart a break. So please, let me give your heart a break. You're now free, so do as you please... For me.
Daniel'
The writing was now all smudged from the tears that poured down my cheeks. I'm now free?! I've always been free, I am a grown woman! I know what's best for me, why does he do this to me?
Back to the pointless 'Why?'
I felt a hand on my shoulder and I placed my hand over his, I turned and smiled weakly at Harris. His eyes held sadness, he knew that Daniel was leaving me but I couldn't blame this poor young boy. Well he's not so young now, Harris is now 11 but I still think of him as a young boy. He reminds me of Patrick.
Patrick... The names brought new tears to my eyes. How could I lose everything? And so easily, it was like everything slipped through my fingers. I was on top of the world, shouting my happiness and success and suddenly a cloud rained on my parade.
How could I not have seen this coming?
Sure, Daniel was acting strange but I never expected this! The strained smile that didn't quite meet his tired eyes, his once healthy skin tone was now lifeless and washed out, and I can't forget the awkward but endearing caressess. Every time he touched me was like he was trying to remember me for the last time, life a man drinking gallons of water before his trip to nowhere. He was trying to remember me; my skin, my scent and my touch.
But now it was to the 'what ifs?'
What if he stayed?
What if we made it through... together?
What if I never met him?
What if...
My brain hurt, too many thoughts and emotions. My stomach hurt from the content feeling of sickness and the tears. Oh, how the tears fell! They just fell; they couldn't do anything though! They can't bring him back! That's why I need to get up and find him.
But where?