What about now by daughtry - alec doubts himself, on the roof, staring at nothing
This one is from Alec's pov.
I sit here is my room, alone, as shadows fill an empty heart. There is really no point in loving when there is nothing to love. Magus is gone, I drove him away, I know I did. Love is fading from me, every day I do nothing but sit here and think od where I went wrong. From all the things that we are, or where I should say, we were lovers, friends…happy. But I can't talk about that now, because I ruined it, I went behind is back, I broke his trust. I like to think if we met again, we could see beyond the scars, but in truth I will probably die here, broken and alone.
will I make it to the dawn?
I want Magnus to know how much it all meant to me. I want to change the colors of the sky, paint it in all of his favorite colors. I want to show him the ways he made me feel alive. The ways I loved him.
For all the things that never died, I refuse to believe our love is completely dead, it cant be if I still feel it.
if I am to make it through the night, I will need to find love, and I hope love will find him.
My music is turned up all the way, so I don't have to hear Izzy and Jace beg for me to come out. It works for the most part, but I still know their doing it and I know their wasting their time. What do I do now. What do I do today without him, he made me all I was meant to be and more. I don't feel like our love is gone, just buried under words that will never be said.
The song echoes though my thoughts, I cant help but smile at the thought of Magnus's eyes in the morning, gold and green is the best way to start the day. Was , never is, not anymore, now the only thing that will mend this broken heart is just a touch of his grace. He could make the blackest shadows fade into light. The last line, there is no comparison, I am not by his side, I do not know where he is or even if he is still in New York.
What do I do now? What do I do today? He made me all I was ever meant to be and so much more, he made me whole. If our love never went away, if it is just buried behind unspoken words, I would speak them all just to have him back. before it's too late, either he will move on or will die, whichever comes first .
In the few precious moment of sleep, I dream of magnus. Of him walking to me instead of away. All my fear melts away and I am beside him again. I am his, for all my life.
the song says over and over that 'it's never too late' and maybe not… or, more likely, my chance is long gone.
Now, I make my way to the roof. this is the first time I've left my room since the break-up, maybe the last. I guess we'll see...