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I'm a monster!

6 year old Alexandra Potter climbed out from her bed, her stag under her arm and she left her room in the middle of the night. She went silently to the living room and wanted to wait for Sirius and Remus to come back.

"Alex?", someone called out from the couch. It was Tonks. Seconds before she had been laying on the couch reading a book when she saw a small shadow on the door. "Dora?"

"Hey, little one. Why are you up?"

Alex went to the couch and climbed up on it. "I can't sleep", the little girl answered, looking down. Tonks pulled her gently to her. "Why not?" Tonks had babysat Alex on every full moon and they had grown important to each other.

"Siri and Remmy are not here.", Alex finally said. Tonks sighed, it would be for everyone so much easier if Remus would tell her that he was a werewolf but he refused. Remus loved his little cub deeply and she had heard a lot of stories from werewolves to know that they are dangerous. What if she didn't love him anymore? What if she was scared of him, like every other human? Or refused to speak or live with him ? He wouldn't have the strength to bear this, it would reap his heart apart if Alex wouldn't love him anymore. "They'll be here soon, don't worry."

Alex struggled before she asked again, "But what if not? What if they won't come back again?" Small teardrops were welling in Alex hazel eyes.

Tonks didn't know what to say and Alex asked suddenly, "Why are they not telling me where they always go, Dora?"

Tonks looked really uncomfortable, she was not the right person to explain this to the little girl. "I don't now, Lexi. Do you want to read a book with me?" Tonks changed the subject.

Alex sighed sadly but nodded.

On the next morning when Sirius and Remus stumbled in their house, Remus immediately went to his room and crashed into his bed. The house was silent, Alex and Tonks were apparently still asleep. Sirius went to the kitchen and made himself a coffee, he wanted to relax a little in the living room before he too went to his bed. He was surprised as he entered the living room, there on the sofa were on one side Tonks sleeping, on the other side it was Alex curled up with a pillow and her black stag. Sirius yawned and got to the couch, he carried Alex softly on his arms, careful not to wake her and carried her to her room. As soon as he entered her room and laid her gently on the bed, her eyes flickered open and as she recognized Sirius, she immediately smiled at him jumped in his arms sleepily. "Siri, you're back", she whispered in his ear. Sirius hugged her back and stroked her head. "Of course I am, Prongslet." She pulled herself away from him and looked him in the eyes, "Is uncle Moony back too?"

Sirius kissed her head and smiled at her, "He is, pup." Sirius yawned again and Alex noticed how tired he was. "You should sleep, Siri." Sirius chuckled at said, "You too honey, it still early to be up."

Alex shrugged, "M'kay." Sirius closed the door behind himself after he had tucked his little goddaughter in her bed.
Even one hour later Alex laid wide awake in her bed. She had been thinking the whole time. She knew that something was wrong every time when they went away for two days. Her uncle Remus laid mostly the whole next day in his bed and Sirius was really caring about him and didn't pull pranks on him and didn't tease him during this time. Alex had noticed how pale he was always was, he seemed really ill and weak but she never asked him. I have too, she decided and leaved her room. Alex stood in front of Remus' room for minutes before she actually opened it silently. She poked her head into the room, Remus was breathing deeply and looked pale. Alex took a closer step to his bed and took instantly a sharp breath as she noticed a scare on one of his arms. She was sure that it hadn't been there before. She must have made a noise because Remus moved in his sleep, he winced as he moved his arm and then saw Alex.

"Lexi? What are you doing in here, cub?"

Alex gaze was still fixed on his arm as she answered. "I-I wanted to t-talk to y-you"

He breathed slowly and asked, "About what, sweetheart?" Alex looked down and shivered from one foot to another. "I-I wanted to know if-if you couldtellmewhereyouanduncleSiriusalwaysgo"

Remus looked at her tiredly but was still patient, "Could you repeat that cub? I didn't catch the last bit."

Alex was still looking at the ground, sometimes her gaze fixed on the new scare, making her insides ache. Who did that to Remus, who did hurt him so badly.

She swallowed and repeated, this time slower, "I wanted to know if you could tell me where you and uncle Sirius always go"

Remus froze suddenly and looked even more tired and pale then he had been minutes before. "Alex-"

"Uncle Remus please!"

"Alex-"

Alex took a closer step to him and looked at him worried, "Who did that to you, Moony?"

Remus knew she was talking about his fresh wound on his arm, he had observed her while she had been looking on his arm. "Nobody, cub. Don't worry, I'm fine."

Alex looked at him sternly, " Uncle Remus it's bleeding a little! Who did hurt you like this?"

Remus saw the tears in her eyes and moved a little further in his bed so she could climb in. She did exactly that and snuggled into his chest and wrapped her tiny arms around him. Remus looked at her and felt really happy, considering that it was the night after the full moon. He stroked her hair softly while he felt her breath making his chest warmer. Remus scratched all his bravery and told himself that sooner or later he would have to do that. Instantly he felt cold inside as he imagined her reaction in his head, running away from him, pushing him away and feeling scared of him like he would be her biggest enemy. "Lexi pup. The reason why your uncle Sirius and me always go away on- on special days in the month is that...that...I-I I'm a were wolf"

Remus closed his eyes in horror, he had done it, but he didn't want to look in her eyes and see the disappointment but what would be million times worse, he didn't want to see anxiety in her bright hazel eyes. While he buried his head in the pillow he felt that Alex was still looking at him. "I'll leave as soon as possible-"

"No, please don't! You want to leave us Uncle Remus? Please don't do that, please.", Alex clenched her arms as tight as possible around him and cried in his chest. Remus looked at the shaking girl surprised and asked with a shaking voice, "Don't you want me to-to leave? Are you not scared of me?"

Alex looked up, tears running down her cheeks, "Of course not, I love you ,Remmy." She snuggled really close to him again and hold his arm like she feared he would go away right now. Remus looked at her sadly, "Alex you don't understand! I'm really d-dangerous! I could hurt you, if I would do that I would never forgive myself. I-I'm a m-monster!" The man didn't know where he got the sudden energy to speak, let alone tell his 'niece' that he was a werewolf.

Alex shook her head firmly, making her long burgundy hair wave around her, "You are NOT dangerous! Remmy you would never hurt me! I know that, I just know that you would never hurt me, and you are definitely NOT a Monster! Besides you won't go anywhere" After her speech she laid her head on his chest and felt suddenly really tired. He started stroking her hair gently like he always did and kissed her head. "I love you, cub. I hope you will always know that."

"Love you too Rem, besides don't worry about anything, Siri and I will take care of you. I promise." A nice silence filled the room but Alex broke it again. She looked up at Remus from her place and asked. "Uncle Remus?"

Remus smiled at her warmly, "Yes, sweetie?"

"Does it hurt?"

Remus sighed, "Being a werewolf or the transformation itself?"

Alex thought a moment before she responded, "Both."

Remus pulled the girl closer to him and answered truthfully, "Well, yes it does. But sometimes the fact that I am a werewolf hurt more than the transformation. The fact that some people hate you for no reason and push you away and then you're all alone."

Alex smiled at her uncle and kissed his cheek softly as she saw his frustration but also his sadness in his eyes, "I won't ever let you alone, Moony. I promise."

With these words she turned her back to his chest, closed her eyes and Remus laid an arm around her, pulled her closer to him. How could someone possibly be so much like her mother and father?

When Sirius came to look where Alex had gone, he found them snuggled up together and smiled at them. He took a picture of them and thought, "SO much blackmail material when she's a teenager and we are the embarrassing uncles!"

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