My few faithful followers, your patients is about to be rewarded (I hope).
Bobby. It's Bobby. He has Jane in his grasp. She is struggling against the arm he has clenched around her throat as he drags her down the steps across the street from us. My eyes tell me all these things but I still can't believe that it's happening. I watch as he pulls Jane towards her car. I hold my gun in stiff arms and I watch, almost in slow motion, as Jane reaches for the gun digging into the side of her head. I can feel the milliseconds crawl by as a watch her pull it down. Push it into her abdomen. Pull the trigger.
BANG.
Pandemonium instantly descends all around me. The street, which was clear moments ago, is now swarming with cops. There is so much yelling, so much fear. I lower my arms and stand rigidly, unable to move. My heart seems to have stopped. My limbs are not responding to my brain which is telling them to move, to run, to help. But I can't. Nothing is working. Korsak has left my side. He and Dr. Isles are bent over Jane, blocking her from my view. I know that I should be doing something. I should be there supporting my partner. I need to help her fight off the pain; tell her that it will be fine. She will be fine. Yet I still cannot get my legs to listen to me.
Is this how Korsak felt when he found Jane with Hoyt, helpless, scared, and guilty? I only ever felt this was when my older sister would protect me from Joe Folly. Even though he was three years older than me and two years older than her she would still get in his way before he could beat me up. Once after school, he came up to us as we were walking home. Sandra had pushed me behind her, refusing to let Joe by. I had crawled backwards across the soccer field too scared to do anything but guilty that it was her and not me. I still feel that was sometimes around Jane, like I need to redeem myself for all the times Sandra stood up for me.
Dr. Isles' panicked cries pierce through my thoughts, jerking me back to reality. "No. nononononono Jane. JANE!" I couldn't do anything now. While the paramedics pull Jane into the ambulance and Korsak holds Dr. Isles I just stand. I stand and watched.