Sorry if the first few chapters are a bit slow and boring. It's just getting started! Enjoy!

Being alone in the house finally started to get to Alex, so she decided to force herself to get ready and go out. She wanted to see Nikita, Michael and everyone else, but she didn't promise herself anything. When Alex was ready, she grabbed her phone and keys and left the house.

As she walked to her car, she unlocked it and opened the door. She hoped inside, shut the door and started the car. The loud roar made her jump. She hadn't heard it for a while, since she had been in a quiet house for 2 weeks. Alex pulled out of the driveway, and headed up the street, with no designation in mind.

About 20 minutes later, Alex found herself parked outside the new safehouse the team was using. After blowing up Division, they had to find a new place quickly. She hadn't intended to end up here, but something in her made her drive here. She sighed, then opened the car door and stepped out. Looking at the house, Alex walked up onto the sidewalk and then up to the door. It was locked, but Alex had a key and opened the door. Inside, Nikita heard the door opening and grabbed her gun. She pointed it in front of her, walked towards the door and jumped in front of Alex. Alex held up her hands and froze.

"Alex. It's you." Nikita sighed, lowering her weapon. She stepped closer to Alex and pulled her into a hug.

"Sorry if I scared you." Alex said, wrapping her arms around Nikita. Nikita laughed and pulled out of their embrace.

"Scared me? Nah." She joked. "You didn't say you were coming."

Alex shrugged.

"I wasn't planning on it. I didn't think, I could make myself do it."

Nikita smiled and placed her hand on Alex's arm.

"I'm glad you did. And so will everyone else. It hasn't been the same without you." She said pulling Alex more inside the house. "Guys, look who's here!" Nikita called out. Within seconds, Michael, Ryan, Birkhoff and Sonya entered the room. When they saw Alex, they all ran over and took turns giving her hugs.

"We've missed you." Sonya said.

"Are you gonna stay?" Birkhoff asked hopefully. Alex looked down, then around the room thinking.

"I don't know. I haven't thought that far ahead." She replied. Everyone nodded, understanding. Just then, Birkhoff and Sonya's computers started furiously beeping, and the group rushed towards them. Birkhoff and Sonya sat down and started scanning the screens.

"Look's like we've got a hit on Amanda." Birkhoff said.

"I'll go." Michael said, preparing his weapons. "Nikita, you and Alex stay here. I'll be fine." Alex tried to argue.

"No. Don't let me stop you." She said. Nikita turned to her and shook her head.

"Michael's got it."

Alex grinned and watched Michael and Nikita hug and say goodbye.

"Be careful." Nikita told Michael, kissing him gently. He returned a kiss and headed out of the house. Sonya looked up at the other two woman.

"Seymour and I got this. You two should talk." She hinted to them. Nikita and Alex looked at each other, then Alex nodded. They left Birkhoff, Sonya and Ryan and walked to the couch. They sat down beside each other, but neither said a word.

When the silence started eating away at them both, Alex spoke.

"It's so hard Nikita. Being alone in that place. Sometimes, sometimes I feel like he's just gonna walk in the room at any moment."

Nikita watched Alex sadly, then turned and faced her.

"I know. You feel like they're still with you all the time. Like you can just close your eyes, and when you open them they'll be standing right there in front of you. After Daniel died, I didn't sleep for days. I kept thinking if I stayed awake long enough, he'd come back. Eventually I told myself that it wouldn't happen, and the feeling slowly started to fade."

"Did it ever go away completely?" Alex asked hopefully. Nikita looked away sadly, then wiped the forming tears from her eyes.

"No." She responded quietly. "But I can tell you one thing for sure. Sean would have wanted you to move on. For him and yourself." Alex shot her an almost frustrated look.

"I"m not saying let him go." She added.

Alex felt her cheek become wet. She hadn't realized she started crying. Nikita stared into Alex's crazy blue eyes. The sparkled even when tears filled them. She reached out and squeezed her hand. Alex wiped the tears away with her other one, and gave Nikita a tiny smile. Nikita returned one back.

A few minutes passed and Alex started to feel nauseous again. She swallowed loudly, and Nikita's face filled with concern.

"Alex. What's wrong?" She asked immediately. Alex stood up.

"I'll be fine." She answered rushing to the washroom in the back. Luckily she had been here when they first set up and knew where the washroom was. She ran in and shut the door, leaning against it to catch her breath.

"This can't be happening." Alex whispered to herself. Alex raised her shirt enough to look at her belly in the mirror and placed her hand on it. A sudden wave of anxiousness fell over her, and she closed her eyes. She heard footsteps coming towards the door, and then a light tapping.

"Alex! Open the door!" Nikita called. Alex hesitated, then let her shirt fall and opened the door. "Hey, what was that?" She asked stepping into the bathroom. Alex tried to think of something believable to respond with, but she knew that Nikita had learned to see past her lies.

"Nikita, I..." she started, and Nikita's face automatically fell. She shut the bathroom door and took Alex's arms.

"Are you pregnant?" She immediately blurted out.

"I don't know!" Alex said, barely above a whisper. Nikita took a breath, trying to stay calm so she wouldn't make Alex more freaked out. "Nikita I can't be pregnant. I mean, I can't be a mother! Especially without Sean here, and this whole thing with Amanda..."

Nikita rubbed Alex's arms gently, trying to relax her.

"We don't know that yet. But there's only one way to find out." She said.

After lying to Birkhoff and Sonya, Alex and Nikita ran out and bought a couple pregnancy tests. Nikita waited outside the bathroom door for Alex. Inside, Alex nervously stared down at the pregnancy test she was holding. Just do it. She thought. It could be negative. Within a couple of minutes, the results came. Alex shut her eyes, then looked at the test.

The door opened, and Nikita spun around. The look on Alex's face gave it away. Nikita sighed. Alex stepped out into the hall, holding the stick.

"I'm pregnant." She said, letting out a small, unsure laugh. Nikita held her arms out and gave Alex a hug. "Now what?"

Nikita released her grip and looked at Alex.

"Now, we get through this. Together. Just like we always have." She told her reassuringly. The sister like friends went back into a hug, and stayed like that for what seemed like hours.