AN: some very smart people said that I got the wrong time for the civil war, I forgot to tell that I wanted it that way, because else she has to much time before she meets Ed… and I will tell the reason l8rt because that would be a HUGE spoiler, but I will give you a hint; this story is not only about when she meets jasper, her oh so long lost brother. I combined to story's I wanted to make, oh so badly. Another clue is her power… so sit back and enjoy.

WARNING: i am First going to write about her years before the reunion, not all of it but short peaces or parts about it. If you don't like: DEAL WITH IT

Disclaimer:

Roses are red, violets are bleu

I own twilight just as much as you do

Chapter2—thoughts on the flight

What am I?;

My thoughts are confused, My head keeps spinning.

My mind is wondering, Is this still the game of life?

Because I'm not winning. I'm super strong and I can fly.

But the big question is still:

What am I?

--cute vampire chick 1995--

Ocean 1884 BPOV;

I never thought flying could be so…COOL. I can even fly faster than run, and wit running I am even to fast for the human eye. So with flying, it's just WOW.

I am flying at the moment above the North Atlantic Ocean. And I'm already 1/3 on my way. The peace and the quietly of the ocean, gave me time to think. The wind was in my hair and it feels so good, the speed, EVERYTHING.

Though it does really, really suck when I'm with humans, it feels like I need to go in slow-motion time. But thank the Lord, I am a natural at acting human. I have no problems with fitting in with the humans.

I have seen a lot of humans after I was changed, my throat did burn but it feels more like a scratch when I'm around them. One time, there was a accident and there was a lot of blood, nothing happened. Well my throat did began to burn a little bit, but just a little bit. And in all the books I readed, they all said that my throat will burn like H#ll and that the blood should be the only thing I can think of.

But it's really number 11 on my priority list, right after cute guys and money. So okay, honestly I'm a little proud that I can act like a 500 years old vampire, but I'm also scared, because what else is different with me? I was already a freak as a human, but now I need to be an outcast as a vampire to? Welcome to my life or existence.

That was also a reason I wanted to visit Volterra. Maybe they know what is wrong with me. One book in the library was all about the Volterra. There are 3 leaders; Aro, Marcus and Casius. The book said they are over 2000 years old, so they must have seen something like me right?

The book also said they drink human blood. But I will not interfere with their lifestyles, because I'm almost immune to blood, I can't know what it's like. It must be really hard for them.

When I looked down I sighn, in the ocean I saw myself still with those red eyes. The book said nothing about animal drinkers like me. So I have no idea what to expect, maybe they turn silver, or gold, or purple, or stay red, or pink? Maybe they know.

Sometimes I wish I had all the answers, and sometimes I wish that there were no answers but also no questions. Just me, no worries when I think of vampires, no pain when I think of jasper, no guilt when I think of my parents and no hate when I think of the guy who changed me. I do need to find out his name though, because when somebody now asked me about my story, it will always be weird to say 'the guy who changed me'.

And Jasper. It still hurts when I think of him and I don't think that will ever change, even after a thousand years. I just wish sometimes that he was with me, standing next to me, helping me to figure this out. I really miss him, and I will never forget him, never.

I just realize that I was tearless sobbing. It hurts to much to think about him.

I need a new rule for myself: only think of jasper once a day, nothing more, nothing less and the rest of my time: live my life/existence.

Finally land! Land is great, perfect, lovely and so Goooooooooooooooood.

I mean the sky is great to, so free. But after 17 years of land, you get use to it. A LOT.

Now, I need to go to Italy, Volterra exactly. But where am I now?

It's night so no one can see me, but I can see everything. For me there is no different. But still where am I?

Where am I, where oh where am I?

If I went straight to the east I should be in the United Kingdom, France, Portugal or Spain. If I went North/East I should be in Iceland or Norway and if I went South/East I could be anywhere in Africa. Just Great! Why, oh why didn't I bring a map?!

What are my options?

Uh…

Option one, walk around the whole beach until you reconise which country this is.

Option two, walk to the nearest house and try to recognize which language they are speaking

Option three, fly around until you hear someone speaking with my vampire hearing.

And I chose… option two, else I still don't know in which city we are. And maybe if I speak the language, I can ask where Italy is or in which city we are.

The first house I saw was a small house, but it really looks like a home for the people who live there. I walked to the door and knocked hard enough for them to hear.

The woman who opened the door was small and with a loving motherly face. "Si?"

So I am in Spain. THANK YOU NANNY MARIA! She taught me a little bit Spanish when J and I were little. She only taught me to say; 'le madre ser un zorra and 'Yo no comprendre' (Maria hates my mom) but I do understand what they say, sort of.

And I knew that it would be handy one day.

(okay I'm NOT going to write that part down, because you all will totally kill me, I need to change the address of where I live already with those to sentences, but it goes something like; yes?- hello, I'm lost, which city is this - woman gives a weird look A Coruña- okay thanks-. and then Bella leaves)

That was a lonely lady. Very helpful and nice. They don't have a lot of money, but that is good because money makes you courrupt and greedy. But she doesn't care, because she's happy and very selfless. I wish more people were like her.

Anyways, I'm flying again. It's wáy faster. I see the sea again so that must be the Mediterranean Sea. Just a few minutes and I'm in Italy. I hope they are nice. Oh! And maybe they have some cut eguys on their guard. I hope so.

after a few thoughtless minutes

Yeay! Italy! But wait, where is Volterra?

Oh My God! Why, oh why didn't I bring a map or just looked at one?

Great I'm a klutz, a vampire klutz.

I'm a vampire klutz who speaks to herself. Perfect, everything is just peachy (NOT!!)

But what if I do the same as in New York. Walk until I smell one of them, but it's going to take hours. Búúút I can fly now, that's wáy faster and no one will see me so I can go as fast as I want.

Sometimes I do have my smart moments but the rest of the time, I'm just PMS-ing.

after a few snifs

Wait, what is that smell? I again tried to smell it. Vampire! Right down, under me. I flied down, just like a bullet, very fast and stopped just at the right moment. And fall on the ground with a soft thud. That all happened in 0.001 second, so fast that even the vampire couldn't see it.

"Hi, I'm Isabella. But you can call me Bella".

"Demitri, what do you want and why are you here?" he said trying not to show any emotions , but in his eyes you could see that I scared the crap out of him, and something else… lust maybe?

"I'm visiting the Volturi, I'm a new born and I wanted to know and learn a few things" I explained.

"Couldn't you just go to the library?" he asked.

"jeah but they don't have all the answers I need and how did you know I'm from the United States?"

"Because we are talking English and your accent isn't from the united kingdom" he said to me like I was a idiot.

"Oh, well can you bring me to them? I have some questions, and I'm dying for the answers"

"you're already dead, so it's to late" he said in a humorous tone.

"Oh, shut up!" Demetri is really nice, a good friend I can already tell.

And with some small talk we left, to go to Volterra.

an; I know it is a short one, but I'm already started with the next chap, and this chapter and the third chapter are about different things

DO YOU WANT SMALL CHAPTERS FAST OR LONGER CHAPTERS WHO ALSO TAKE LONGER TO CREATE??

P.S. do you know any cool powers/gifts??

Please review/send them to me, huge virtual chocolate cake who does!!