CHAPTER-2
"Akira's reply"
The words on the screen kept on replaying in my mind again and again. "This is a bad joke, right ? Are you serious ?! " –Akira. Just as I thought. Akira never takes Mami seriously. I am PISSED ! After all these two freaking long hours of wait ! he asks me whether I'm serious or not ?! The hell's wrong with him ?! It took me all my courage to write that confession and send it to him and he thinks I'm kidding ?!
Okay ! I get it ! He's confused and surprised. I'm just over reacting . I texted him back that "yes, I'm serious." My heart's racing. I can feel the excitement n curiosity burning inside me. After about 20 minutes he replied that he needs time to think. He will give an answer as soon as possible. I can clearly see how confused and shocked he is. Well I'm glad that at least he's giving a thought which I least expected after the rejection of Yukina.
I know that he's depressed about the fact that Yukina rejected him but he has to move on. I also know that he still loves her but his decision of thinking about me is making me change my mind a bit. Well I don't really know what his answer would be; all I want is that the friendship between us shouldn't break for my stupidity. I don't want to regret all my life for this. I spent the whole day thinking what would happen if I get rejected, I need to prepare myself so that I can face it properly and try not to break down completely. I wonder what would it be like to face him tomorrow at school.
The next day I arrived at school with Shigure. My classroom was next to Akira's. I was waiting desperately when will the classes end. At last ! it ended ! I went out to look for Akira but instead found something which pierced through my heart leaving a large hole. I saw Yukina lying down on Akira's lap. My chest hurts. It's hurting a lot I never felt like this before, non-stop tears are streaming down my cheeks. I ran away. I ran away before anyone could see me like this. I still don't get it. Although Yukina rejected Akira….. they are still so close. Why can't I be in her place ? why can't be the one Akira loves ? WHY ?!