(Nessie's POV)

After a while of beach time, Jake and I left to go get some lunch. We went to the diner and I ordered a salad while Jake got steak, A rather large steak.

"I forgot how much you could eat," I said with a laugh as I ate my salad slowly.

"I haven't," He said while laughing with me. It kind of seemed like forced laughter - things were seriously awkward and I couldn't figure out why. "I'm kind of surprised Edward didn't throw a hissy fit about going to the beach."

I nodded my head, understanding why he would say that. "They know I can take care of myself, I've been a serious bitch for the past two months though - I can't believe I acted like that."

He looked at me like he didn't believe me. "How?"

"I wouldn't let anyone help me with anything - I would do everything on my own, I hardly came out of my room or uttered more than a sentence to anyone." I said shamefully.

He laughed, "Maybe your teenage hormones are getting the best of you," I looked at him weird. He said it as if he was some 30 year old man enlightening his teenage daughter - not my best friend.

I didn't say anything, I just kept eating.

"Jake!" I heard a female voice call from behind us. I looked up to see a gorgeous woman with the same colored skin as Jake, she must have been from the rez.

"Abby...hey." He dragged out his greeting. His eyes kept darting to me, then to this Abby chick.

"Jakey, you're not gonna stand up and give me a hug?" She giggled and playfully slapped his shoulder. The fork in my hand was about to snap if I held it any tighter. I don't know why this was upsetting me.

"Hi, i'm Renesmee." I said in a snarky tone.

"Abby," She said with a sweet smile. She turned back towards Jacob. "Who's this pretty little thing?"

This fork was definitely never going to survive my clenching fists.

"Ness, this is my - "

Before he could finish I got out of my chair and calmly left the diner, I was seething - my own best friend hadn't told me a peep about - about his girlfriend!

"Ness! Nessie, Ness!" Jake grabbed my hand and turned me around. "It's not what it looks like, she's just - "

"Your girlfriend? Jake - I thought we were best friends here! Best friends don't not tell each other when they have a girlfriend!"

He sighed in relief, I swear I heard him whisper "Oh thank you Jesus."

"No, Ness - She's not my girlfriend." He awkwardly rubbed his neck. "I dated her back in high school."

She's his ex - girlfriend.

Great, makes things even more awkward - I had a fit of rage about an ex - girlfriend.

"Oh." I said softly.

I was so embarrassed I just wanted to go die in a hole. I can't believe - god he must think I'm insane!

"Jake - Jacob, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to get so upset," I said softly, my cheeks were pink. What a screw up moment.

"It's fine, look honey - you had no clue." He pulled me into a hug.

I hugged him back and got a weird feeling in the bottom of my stomach. I pulled away, he looked hurt.

"I'm kind of tired, can you take me home Jake?" He nodded and went back inside to pay for our food, I crawled back into his car and rested my head on the window. I closed my eyes, trying to figure what just happened out.

First off; I flipped shit at the possibility of Jake having a girlfriend.

Second; He hugged me, and It made me feel weird.

Third; I was going back into the downward spiral of not wanting anything to do with anyone.

He tried to talk to me the whole way home, I only mumbled feeble responses. He didn't even bother coming in with me, he just dropped me off and hauled ass out of the driveway and away from the house. I went back to my room and proceeded in taking a hot shower.

Maybe it was hormones, I mean - I wasn't entirely to sure on what to do or what they were. But they couldn't be bad.

I put pajamas on and laid on my bed. I took my laptop and Googled hormones.

I squeaked, "Period? I've never...will I?" My eyes widened, I was kind of horrified.

The more I read, the more freaked out I got.

I then Googled feelings, which led me to love feelings.

Now I was confused.

What was infatuation?

Google was seriously becoming my best friend.

"Infatuation; is the state of being completely carried away by unreasoned passion or love. Short lived relationships are usually called infatuations." I blinked a few times.

I had no clue what any of this meant.

I just wanted to know what the feelings in the bottom of my stomach meant and what was wrong with my hormones!

I hated Google.

This is what happens when you're shielded from every little thing basically your entire life - because you're not normal.

This did not turn out to be a good day.