Re-write of SoccerandTwilight-mylife's story - "I Need You Now, But You're Not Here"
Renesmee's POV-
"JAKE!" I was laughing uncontrollably as my Jacob tickled me. He picked me up and threw me over his shoulder,
"Jacob, Put me down!" I said as I was still laughing.
"No way Baby." He walked into our bedroom and laid me gently down on our bed.
He was hovering over me . . . Are we finally going to . . . go all the way? He looked deeply into my eyes and smiled his Jacob smile,
"I'll never leave you, I'll Protect you forever. Renesmee Carlie Cullen, Marry me?"
I was taken aback, he's . . .proposing? I knew I didn't have to think about it. "Yes." I whispered.
He smiled his wide Jacob smile, That I knew so well.
"My Jacob." I whispered against his cheek, holding his face in my small hands.
"My Renesmee."
"I love you." I murmured while looking into his beautiful onyx eyes.
"I love you forever."
"Forever." I whispered again.
He kissed me slowly, deeply, and passionately . . .
It's been a month since our engagement, and I think I'm pregnant . . . No . . . I don't think . . . I know.
Jacob and I were walking in the forest, Hand in hand . . . and I'm going to tell him.
"Jake?" I whispered as I looked up at him, a smile playing on my lips.
"Yeah?" He replied, looking down at me.
"I have some news. . . " I trailed off when I started smiling.
He smiled too, even though he looked confused. "So tell me this news," He said,
"I'm - " As I was about to tell him, someone tore Jacob's hand from mine and threw him into a tree.
"JACOB!" I screamed, The woman looked at me, Red ruby eyes, long blank tangled teresse flowing down her back and riped clothing.
"Get off of him!" I yelled at her. I looked at Jacob who was bleeding badly, and coughing up blood. I looked at his shoulder to see a bite mark . . . She bit him. . . He's dying . . . No!
"YOU FUCKING BITCH, I'M GOING TO FUCKING KILL YOU!" I screamed and took her down to the ground, I ripped her head off fast and started ripping her to shreds, with sobs coming out of my mouth and tears flowing down my cheeks like waterfalls.
I threw her body parts in different places and crawled over to Jacob.
"Jake! No, No, No! Jacob?"
"Ness . . . " He whimpered softly making my heart break even more.
"HELP! SOMEONE HELP ME!" I yelled as loud as I could.
"Don't leave me Jacob, Please - Please don't leave me. You - You said you wouldn't leave me . . . Please tell me you weren't lying . . . Please Jake." I was sobbing and my body frame was shaking all over as I clutched his hands,
"Nessie! What - Oh Jesus . . . Jacob." It was Quil. I started crying harder.
Quil dropped to his knees next to me. "Jacob? Man - fuck. What happened?" He asked, I just shook my head while the sobs tore through my chest,
"G - Go get my f - family. Get every - everyone!" I whispered as I carassed Jacob's face.
Quil disappeared, I heard howls as loud as sirens. I smelt human, vampire and werewolf scents minuets later.
"Grandpa, Can you save him? That . . . That bitch . . . she bit him." I chocked out, trying to erase the memory,
"Nessie, The venom . . . I can smell it . . . It's to late . . . The venom moved extremely fast through his veins . . . There's nothing we can do." He replied softly,
"No!" I screeched as I turned towards him, "You're supposed to be a doctor! FIX HIM!" I pushed the tears away, trying to see through them.
He turned his head away from my wet eyes, I sobbed loudly and threw my body over Jacob. I heard footsteps come towards me and I held Jacob tighter, who was coughing softly, "No! Don't touch him!" I said loudly.
I looked at him, he managed to wipe my tears away as he smiled sheepishly at me. "Don't cry Ness . . . " He whispered.
"I can't help it Jake . . . You - I can't - " Sobs overtook my voice and I pressed my face into his chest.
"Sit me up against a tree, If I'm gonna die . . . I want to have you in my arms." I let out another sob, followed by more tears. My father and uncles helped him sit, He gentlly pulled me against his chest, and kissed my head.
Everyone was here, in the forest. His sister, nieces, nefews, pack members, Billy, and my family. Our family was here.
"Max and Sarah, You guys be good, Okay? I love you kids, don't forget that." He struggled getting through saying that as I saw a tear roll down his russet cheek. I cried softly as I pressed my head back into his chest, listening to his heartbeat.
"Dad, I love you, Thanks for raising me right, Thank you for passing on the wolf gene, If you didn't . . . I wouldn't have my beautiful Nessie." I chocked at a sob, crying another waterfall.
"Rach, You're the best sister any guy could ever have, I love you. Tell Becks that I love her too, okay?" He smiled and she started to cry, while holding on to Paul.
He looked a the pack and smiled "All of you are my best friends,my brother. I've had the greatest moments with all of you, I love you all." He coughed and took in a shakey breath. His heart beat slowed down just a fraction.
"Cullen's, Who would have thought i'd grown to love all of you. . . even you Rosalie." She smiled at him, a sad smile. "Take care of her, Don't let her do anything stupid, please . . ."
"We will take care of her Jacob, We would never let you down." My aunt Rosalie spoke. I smiled as the tears still flowed down my cheeks.
"And you." He looked down at me,
"Don't ever forget that I love you and I'm never going to leave you cause I'll always be here - " He pointed to my heart, He was struggling to breath, and coughing more. "Never, ever forget that I love you. Renesmee, When I asked you to marry me, it was because i'm in love with you"
"Jacob . . . " I trailed off, Trying to get him to stop talking so I would have more time with him.
"No matter where I am . . . I'm always, Always with you." I cried harder into his chest and he held me close.
"Jake! C'mon! No! Please, Just - Just stay with me! Please!" I said with sobs heaving my chest,
"Ness . . . Don't . . . Don't get hurt, Be safe for me . . . " He trailed off, as he started to close his eyes.
No, no, no, no, no, no.
I have to tell him, he'll fight the venom off if he knows,
"Please! Jake, Please! I need you! We need you!" I yelled softly, My whole family, Jacob's pack . . . Were all staring at us,
"We?" He coughed, his eyes half opened.
"Jake - I . . . I'm pregnant, and I can't do this - alone. Please, please we need you." I begged him, grasping his huge hands in mine, the heat from his body was dropping quickly,
"Pregnant?" He asked, I nodded my head weakly as I slumped my body against his to attempt to keep him warm.
He looked so confused, But so weak . . . My Jacob was dying . . . And I couldn't save him . . .
"Yes, I . . . just found out earlier . . . I was going to tell you when she - " I couldn't even make myself say it out loud.
He closed his eyes and rested his head against the tree.
"Damn . . ." He whispered. He put his hand over my stomach and smiled a little.
"Will . . . Will you tell him or her . . . that I love them?" He asked my quicetly, I nodded my head feebly and grasped his hands.
"Of course." I said,
"Tell her or him about me, don't let them think that just because their father is dead that they aren't fatherless." I felt more tears and nodded my head.
"Jacob, I love you."
"I love you too, so much. Be safe, Please." He kissed my mouth softly and his eyes started to close, his heart slowed and then stopped. I let out a giant sob and clung to him, whispering his name over and over, begging for him to come back . . .
My Jacob, was gone forever . . .