Between Life, Love and Lies 2
Since a few weeks I had these dreams already and my meetings with Sheldon were not the same as before. I felt a little bit uncomfortably in his presence, because I kept thinking about what Sheldon did and said. Especially what he almost would have done if I did not wake up again and again. Unfortunately, in nature, Sheldon had not changed at all. He was as aloof as ever, and most of the time I understood nothing, when he talked about his work, his formulas, or nerd stuff in general. The only way to get him a little bit closer was the Halo evening on Wednesday. Since I managed to beat him on a regular basis, he let himself be carried away to the strangest things. In my first win, he actually said, "How can a woman look so good while playing Halo that well?"
I smiled thoughtfully to myself.
"Penny, what are you doing? Everything OK?"
I was startled and saw Leonard standing in his boxer shorts in the bedroom door. He had his glasses on and looked very crumpled.
"I could not sleep anymore, so I got up and cooked myself a tea."
For demonstration, I raised my cup a bit higher.
Leonard pushed his glasses higher up his nose. He came up to me and stroked one of my blond strands of hair behind the ear. He took my head in his hands and looked at me questioningly, then he looked me in the eyes.
"Do you know what beautiful green eyes you have?"
I could not react; he had taken me by surprise with his sudden appearance. Although I saw that his hands left my cheeks and pulled me to him, but I felt like frozen. Leonard seemed to notice that I was not very cooperative and let go to look at me with concern.
"Penny, is everything all right with you? You've been a bit off the track for days now, seem distracted and somehow distressed. "
"Yes I'm fine. Maybe I am just a little bit scared. "
"What are you afraid of?"
He looked at me with his faithful dog look.
"You do not have to worry about the wedding. We have all time in the world, but it can not be wrong if we start planning soon. We need an appointment, we have to take care of the invitations and the seating plan has to be worked out. You know that my parents ... "
He continued to talk about the wedding and was tiggling through the room. I used to think it was cute when Leonard told me about his plans with shining eyes, but now I had neither an eye nor nerves for it.
I was still thinking about the dream and Sheldon. Why did I dream that Sheldon was doing exactly what Leonard's job was? I had to admit that I had not felt repelled by his closeness. Once again, I went through all the opportunities in my head when Sheldon approached me in real life. Christmas a few years ago he had hugged me the first time I had given him the used napkin by Leonard Nimoy. I loved Sheldon's smell of fresh linen and baby powder, and although he did not do any sports, I could feel that there had to be muscles under the many layers of clothing, because he almost crushed me. Still, this hug was the gentlest thing Sheldon had ever done for me.
"Penny?" Leonard waved his hand in front of my face. I blinked and stroked the strand of hair behind my ear, which was already in my face again.
I grinned crookedly and hoped he would not realize that I had not listened to him at all. "What did you ask again?"
"I asked you, if you already have an idea for the motto?"
"Well, I do not think we should fix that in the middle of the night. Honestly, I do not have my head for that, Leonard. "
"Ok, I'm sorry." Leonard looked a little bit hurt, but he did not want to upset me either. "Do we want to go to bed again?"
"Sure"
I gave him a kiss and he smiled back. When he opened his mouth slightly and tried to get his tongue into mine, I took a step back.
It felt wrong and I was not in the mood at all.
"We should really go to sleep now. It's already very late. "I went back to the bedroom without waiting for Leonard and went to bed. The pillow was already dried again in the meantime. Of course, Leonard came after me and turned off the light before he lay down next to me. Finally, I fell into a deep and luckily dreamless sleep.