A TMNT Fanfic

Rating: T

Warning: Tcest and other male slash couples

Summary: Mikey and Don have been acting strange lately. Leo wants to know why and asks Raph for assistance.

To Find the Impossible

Ch. 2

The starting concerns for Donnie and even slightly Mikey was the beginning of everything for Raph, and all of them, before he set foot in this sewer tunnel on this night over a few month later. For the reason behind these strange behaviors was not found out then, or even for a while.

Scooting faintly, the emerald turtle moved away from the sewer wall and towards the line of water that glistened from the moonlight that shown through. A green finger went forth and touched the water lightly. This caused a ripple through the water. The image of the moonlight became wavy and distorted. That was kind of the image he thought of his family right now. They used to be a perfect image that glistened but when one things goes terribly wrong, then it was hard to keep that; it was hard to see clearly.

The next event that the second eldest could think of that truly caused concern was a week after that event. You could say this was the beginning of that distortion…

A week had passed since Raph spoke with Don about getting more sleep. Luckily, he had done that and slept almost all of the next day. The bad thing was that it did not change anything.

If anything, Don was looking worse. His skin became paler during the past week and the bags under his eyes grew. Even Mikey was starting to develop bags but he was not becoming pale like Donnie.

At the moment, the both of them were of course locked away in Don's lab. They would not be for long since evening practice was supposed to begin soon. During the practices, Leo had decided against pushing the genius as he normally would; which Raph was sure the younger was extremely grateful for that.

Pushing these thoughts aside, Raph opened the fridge to grab himself a soda. Usually, he would rather have a beer, but due to the rise of Foot, Leo insisted no one leave the lair for a while without at least someone with them. Casey would usually be more than happy to help the turtle get beer but him and April went on a trip a while back to the Rocky Mountains. Part of the reason for this trip was to get out of New York and away from the Foot for a while. Lucky bastard.

Sitting at the table, the can was opened which resulted in a wonderful hiss and click; meaning freshness. He took a large swig due from thirst, but mainly from just wanting something other than water in his system.

Footsteps were heard entering the kitchen after Raph took his first drink. He didn't look up because he already had a pretty good idea on who it was. Instead, he listened to some of the background sounds behind him; just to guess what he was doing. Rummaging through the cabinet was heard as well as a light clatter of dishes to tell that the particular dish his brother behind him searched for was one he had to dig a bit for. The sound of water then hit the second eldest's ears, which told that tap water was being used but put into the dish since the sound of water was not hitting the bottom of the sink.

Eyes then decided to slide back behind him, and his mental guess was right. Leo was there placing a tea kettle full of water on the oven top. He generally liked to have a cup of tea or two before practice. Something about it helping him calm his mind for full concentration or some other bullshit like that.

While the water warmed, both remained where they were in silence. It was not that they did not want to speak to one another, but did not have much to speak about at present. Leo's mind had been constantly filled with worry over Don and Mikey. Raph knew it was bothering him more and more so he tried not to bother the older brother with light arguments like they usually would in each other's company. Over course, a real argument had not taken place between them for what felt like a long time now; since the changes in their younger brothers.

The kettle began to whistle and Leo took the necessary steps to finish making the tea. Once done, he treaded over to the table. There were four other chairs that Leo could have sat in and chose to sit in the one next to Raphael. Neither complained by any means but continued to sit in silence while sipping their drinks.

Leo's expression, though not holding much, did show his concern through his eyes. Raph always knew this about his brother. The older was never one to publicly show his feelings on his face if he was troubled but you could read him like a book page when you learned to read his eyes. To was odd that the second eldest knew that about his leader, but when he would constantly argue with Leo, he also learned much about him that his two younger brothers didn't know, like how to read him like that. In this case, Leo was gravely worried, more so about Don than Mikey.

"You keep staring Raph," Leo cut through the younger's thoughts. Face heating in slight embarrassment, Raph turned back to the table instead of looking at Leo. He stared at his drink intently. A humorous smile formed on Leo's face from Raph's reaction to his words.

"Ya just look troubled, that's all." Raph grumbled.

Smile fading, the blue-banded turtle answered, "Yes, I am. But there is not much I can do right now."

That phrase brought back last week when Raph spoke to Don about sleeping. While doing that, Leo had managed to catch Mikey and talk to him. However, it did not end in the way Leo had hoped. If anything, it worsened things. The youngest was now always in the lab; he even slept there some nights. The only time he was out was when he either had to use the bathroom, to get some food, or at practice. Other than that, Mikey was never seen. Don was seen less because he only went to practices and used the restroom. Mikey would get Donnie food for him. The whole thing was strange enough and it just went to worse. Neither of the older brothers knew what to do.

"I know Fearless," Raph agreed, "I'm worried too. I hope the two of 'em would just figure out what needs to be and stop hidin'. Kinda reminds of a couple that doesn't want figured out by the world."

The last part had been mumbled and he had not meant anything by it. However, he noticed Leo's shoulders tensed, if only barely. This was like the time he asked if it was Mikey's absence or Don's that bothered him more.

A few years back, the conversation of possible attractions had come up due to Don finding it important to discuss the matter. None of them seemed to care at the time, but now seeing Leo like this, Raph started to wonder if the older brother actually liked one of them.

"Do ya, ya know, like one of 'em?"

Leo turned sharply towards Raph. His eyes screamed alarm but his face remained expressionless. He replied, "I do not understand…"

"Bullshit!" Raph growled. He didn't know why he suddenly felt angry, but he did. Maybe it was because he knew Leo was lying straight to his face.

"Look, I don't care if ya like one of 'em." The hothead replied. A look of bewilderment overtook Leo's face from the comment. "If ya like one of 'em, that's yer business. Yer my brother and I'll love ya no matter what yer interests are."

If anything, Raph was not too surprised. Don did say the rate of a few of them developing interest in one another was very possible, so he accepted the possibility a while ago. He was surprised that Leo liked one of them though. Since this whole thing started, he was sure that Don and Mikey were together and were just too stubborn to admit it. It was a subject he never really tried to think about though.

Looking at his eldest brother, Raph knew he was in deep thought. Leo's face was in the younger's direction but his eyes were far away. He let his brother think. Grabbing the can once more, he took another swig just to feel the rush of caffeine go through him. It felt nice, though, not as nice as beer, but it would work for now. Setting the can back on the table, Raph stared at the Pepsi emblem on it and suddenly wondered why they keep changing the look of it but not really caring that much.

Turning his head to his brother's cup, he noticed that Leo was gripping the cup tightly. Confusion flooded through Raph as he then looked at his face, which was now towards the cup, and saw conflict and… anger in his eyes? Why was he angry?

"Ya ok Leo?"

Turning back to Raph, he could see even more conflict in his brother's eyes than previously. His eyes changed soon after, as if coming to a decision about something.

The older brother's chair slide roughly across a small part of the concrete floor. The hand that had been previously gripping the cup now slid closer to Raph's can. Standing slightly, Leo hunched over the younger and placed his other hand on the back of Raph's chair. Confusion could be visibly seen on the red-banded turtle's face but he did not move an inch.

Leo began to lean down; inching until his beak was barely half an inch away from Raph's own. Eyes widened at the closeness and felt his breath quicken, especially when he felt Leo's shallow breaths spread over his face. His breath smelled of the tea he just previously drank.

"L-Leo?" he asked in a stutter, which he could have just kicked himself for. He hated showing vulnerability in moments of weakness or confusion.

A door flew open. Quick footsteps were heard entering the kitchen.

"Hey, do guys think I can cook…" Mikey asked but stopped dead in his tracks when he saw the close proximity of his two older brothers. His eyes widened in shock. "Um… am I interrupting something?"

Leo stood abruptly and walked away from the table, leaving his cup. Walking past Mikey, he answered, "No. Be ready for practice, we will begin soon." He was gone a moment later as he disappeared into the dojo. Both Mikey and Raph looked shocked at what just took place.

"Did I interrupt something Raph?"

"I have no idea," he answered lamely. Shock and confusion was all he was registering at the moment.

What the hell was that? One minute, Raph asks if Leo likes one of their younger brothers because he acts so weird about the closeness of the two, to acting like he was about to kiss him instead. Don and Mikey aren't the only ones acting strange.

Trying not to think of what happened in the kitchen, Raph had moved into the living and watch TV until practice. Mikey and Raph surprisingly entered together along with Don a few moments later. The Practice that evening was to fight using weapons but they had to switch with their opponents. Leo went against Mikey as well as switched weapons with him along with Raph and Donnie following the same example.

Beginning, Raph ran and swung Don's bo staff while he jumped to the side to dodge the blow. Despite looking like he was about to throw up every time Raph saw Don, he still fought decently. If there was one thing that he admired about his younger brother, he knew how to take pain. Don knew how to function without sleep and was pretty good at taking pain, although not as good at giving it in battles compared to his other brothers. Even during times of sickness, Don knew how to go about his everyday life and not even give that hint he was feeling terrible.

Glancing for a second, Raph noticed Leo and Mikey's fight. Leo was beating the shell out of Mikey. He must really be pissed off about earlier, just not entirely sure which part or if it was the whole conversation between him and Raph.

The fights continued for a while longer. Don was not great with the sais. Try as he might, he really was best at the bo staff.

Swinging down, Raph blocked the attack with Don's staff. Both were very close to one another in this scene. Suddenly feeling Don's breath, it smelt of coffee. Feeling the breath and being this close reminded Raph of the encounter only moments ago between Leo and himself and caused his face to heat up faintly.

However, those thoughts stopped when he noticed the look in Don's eyes. They suddenly became dull and glazed.

"Don?"

Before saying more, Don's grip on the sais loosened and both fell to the floor before he himself followed. Raph's eyes widened as he crouched down beside the genius.

"Don?!... DON!"

Both Leo and Mikey stopped what they were doing and saw Don unconscious on the floor. Raph picked him up a bit to hold up his upper half while trying to awake him. Mikey sprinted over first and kneeled on the other side. Leo joined soon after but stood by Mikey.

Raph could tell Don was not breathing well. His breaths were uneven. Looking up at Mikey, he said, "He's having a hard time breathing. Help me get him to his lab."

Nodding, Mikey did just that while Leo followed them. Don was not waking up and was getting worse by the second. They all hoped they could help and that he would be okay.

*What will happen to Don?... We'll have to see. Let me know what you think so far. Thanks for reading so far!