ANATA GA DAISUKI DESU, TANTEI-SAN

Laura Balfour

DISCLAIMER : I do not own Detective Conan or the characters, Aoyama-sensei does.

WARNING : English is not my first language so I'm sorry if there are some confusing sentences or grammar errors.

AUTHOR'S NOTE: I think Conan and Ai (or Shinichi and Shiho) is a perfect couple; they can understand each other even without talking. Shinichi and Ran, on the other hand, have completely different hobbies and they don't understand each other as much actually, even though they are best friends since they're little. This is why Ran often cries again and again and Shinichi cannot do anything except saying sorry. Ran is not someone who can stand beside Shinichi and face challenge, Shiho is.

I keep my opinion that Ai suits better with Conan, but being a fan of ConanxAi I have to admit that the chance is so little. I think Aoyama-sensei will make Ran and Shinichi together in the end, 'cause if it's not I bet most of the fans (especially ShinichixRan fans) would be disappointed. Anyway peace, bringing up an argument is not my original intention.

By the way, I noticed that you guys didn't like the ending of my story (me too, actually). So guess what, I decided to change the ending and make a sequel to my story. Aren't you excited? Hahaha okay so here it goes…

Haibara's POV

It was snowing. Again.

Night had fallen. I sat quietly on the chimney corner, staring to the fireplace in front of me. Several blankets were draped over my shrunken body because I felt really cold tonight. A cup of hot coffee held tightly with my both hands, unsuccessfully trying to bring the warmth to my fingertips.

Right now, at this moment, I welcomed the numb feeling that accompanied the chill Beika flurry.

Rejection should be a welcomed companion by now. I should accept that hallow feeling that came with it, like my heart is thumping in an empty barrel. Sometimes the horrible pain I experience is the only sign that I'm alive. But that's okay because I'm getting used to it. I would put my emotion away, shove it and lock it up in a high shelf, out of reach. What was the use of crying when I knew nothing would ever get better? Life was a cruel joke and it was about time that I learned to accept it all.

"Ai-chan, shall we have something to eat?" a voice came behind my back. From the footsteps, I knew it was Hakase.

I broke from my own subconscious and stared at him. "Oh, well," I crooked a smile which came out more like a grimace, "I'm not hungry, Professor. I guess you'd have your dinner by yourself tonight. Is that okay?"

He sighed. "Okay. But don't stay up late, Ai-chan. It's not good for your health."

"Sure." I said with a nod.

Hakase held out his hand towards the doorknob and looked at me. "If you need anything, just call." he said before he shut the door closed.

I drew a deep breath and closed my eyes. I'm all alone once again. For a moment I was just staring to the fire as I sipped my coffee before it got cold. The wind was blowing so strong that made the branches outside hit the window.

Kudo, I thought dryly. Even his name tore a new hole in my heart. Things got steadily worse since I fell for him. It was quite funny actually, since my life had never been better.

Screw life.

Abruptly I got up and walked to the basement, swung the door open, and then turned the lights on. I headed towards a large cabinet and took from it a clear, plastic box barely the size of my palm. It was the other pair of antidote that I gave to Kudo-kun. I felt my heart twitched as I traced my fingers through it, suddenly feeling a bit pathetic.

You have to do this Shiho, a faint voice said behind my head. For you. For him. For your own sanity.

Haibara's POV

Looking into the mirror in my bedroom, I saw my own reflection wearing an overlarge white coat with a maroon sweater—my old clothes when I was Shiho Miyano. I took the plastic box from my pocket and opened it. Inside it was the snow-white capsule, the same capsule I had given to Kudo-kun.

It's time, I thought anxiously. My hands were quivering when I threw the antidote into my mouth then swallowed it. For a second there's nothing happened, but then the warmth inside my body got warmer and warmer. Hotter and hotter.

Uncomfortable now. Too hot. Much, much too hot.

My whole body was burning. Just imagine that your body was in a microwave. Now triple it. The pain shot all over my body running down through my spine from head to toes. I screamed as loud as I could, hoping it would lessen the pain, but it didn't work.

Then I collapsed.

Shiho's POV

"Ugh…" I muttered under my breath as I opened my eyes. My body was sweating and panting like a pig. I found myself lying on the cold floor in my bedroom. No more pain. No more burning body. Everything was perfect.

I carefully stood up and turned around to look into the mirror. The last time I looked into the mirror, I saw a small, eight-year-old girl with her solemn yet deadly cerulean eyes. Now I saw myself in my late teen body, with golden blonde, shoulder-length hair and delicately shaped face. The first thing I noticed that I was taller than I had been for the past two years. Shiho Miyano is finally back.

I smiled genuinely to my own reflection and then made my way to the living room. Hakase hadn't returned yet, which is good because I didn't want him to see me as Shiho Miyano. I looked up to the clock and sighed, it was already 9 pm now. I would only have less than an hour to do the unfinished business here. Hastily I grabbed two pieces of paper and pen and started to write a farewell letter to Hakase, The Shonen Tantei, and of course, Shinichi Kudo.

First, I wrote a letter to Hakase.

Dear Professor Agasa,

I know you really love me like your own child, Professor, but I have to go. You know that I love Kudo-kun so much (even I never admit it until now), and it's painful to see him with Ran-san. I need some time to 'heal' myself, and in that time I have to leave. I'll be staying at my sister's apartment 'til Sunday, and then I'll go to London for a couple years. Please don't tell Kudo-kun about this.

I'm really sorry, Professor. I promise I'll be back soon. I'm no longer Haibara Ai, but I'll always be your little girl. Oh, and don't forget to do some exercise. You don't want to get overweight, right?

p.s. Can you tell The Shonen Tantei my farewell? I miss them already.

Yours,

Haibara Ai/Shiho Miyano

One down, I smiled bitterly to the letter in my hand. I grabbed the other paper and started to write my farewell to the person I loved, Shinichi Kudo.

I read both letters once again to make sure they were perfect. Then I folded those letters, put them inside the envelope and I sealed it. I bit my bottom lip and trying so hard not to cry. No, I will not cry, I won't. I am the girl who always stayed strong.

Before I left, I took a picture-frame that lay beside my computer. It was a picture of me and The Shonen Tantei on New Year's Eve last year. I was wearing my favorite turquoise kimono which was a gift from Hakase on my eighth birthday. Ayumi-chan and Kudo-kun was standing beside me, while Genta, Mitsuhiko, and Professor Agasa Hakase behind us. The boys were smiling widely (and ridiculously if you ask me).

Goodbye, I thought bitterly. I wrenched the door open and disappeared through it.

Well, what do you think? I'm sorry if the characters are too OOC or cliché, and sorry for the sad part, but I have to make it that way. Oh, and don't forget to give your review, xiexie! ;)

Note:

The Shonen Tantei : The Detective Boys

Xiexie : Thank you (in mandarin)