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This feeling

Sora woke up the next morning by the sound of his alarm clock. He hit the snooze, sat up and rubbed his eyes. He looked at his arm hoping that what he did last night was only a dream, that this whole retarded life he was living was just a dream; but it wasn't. Everything was real including the pain. He slid out of bed and walked over to the bathroom, dragging his feet the whole way.

He passed his parents room and heard his dad snoring. He couldn't hear his mom, but she was probably in there too with a pillow over her head and a bottle of vodka in her hand. He sighed heavily and continued on to the bathroom. Once there, Sora looked at himself in the mirror and turned the water on in the shower. He pulled off the shorts and oversized t-shirt that he had on and stepped inside. The water slithered down his body like snakes making him shiver at first and eventually, the feeling brought him warmth.

If everything could be this quiet at school, I might not have this problem. Everywhere I look there are teens staring at me and pointing at me and telling each other secrets. I hate it! And I hate them. Why did Kairi have to leave me? Why did she stop writing to me?

He banged his fist against the wall and leaned his head against it, letting the water soak his hair. A few minutes later, he got out of the shower. His wrist was burning from coming in contact with the water.

"Shit", he mumbled. "I should have been more careful." He wrapped a towel around his waist and made his way back to his room.

Once there, he pulled on his black boxers and navy blue jeans. With that, he wore a blood red t-shirt with tomb stone drawn on it in black.

Another day another cut. Another day another bruise. He hurried down the stairs and put a slice of bread in the toaster. After that, he washed a glass from inside the sink and poured himself some orange juice. While he waited, he hummed a song that he had made up a few days ago while playing his guitar.

Whenever I think,

About what might happen,

My head starts to hurt

And I feel sick all of a sudden.

He spread peanut butter across his toast and yawned loudly. He hadn't slept very well and he was sure that he had bags under his eyes.

"The make-up can hide that", he sighed. He ate his toast and images of him and Kairi flashed through his mind. "Shit", he mumbled. "Get out of my head!" He walked back upstairs and brushed his teeth. When he was done, he took out an eye liner and put some on. Is this why everyone thinks I'm gay?

Ever since he was a child, he had been told that he was gay and now the possibility raced through his mind. Am I gay? Am I what I've tried to deny for so long?

He left the house after brushing his hair and biked to school. When he got there, he could see all the people staring at him and he tried to ignore their looks. He tied up his bike and entered the school. The bell had just rung and he was late for class.

Sora entered his classroom and everyone looked at him at the same time.

"We changed the seating Sora", said the teacher. "Please sit next to Riku, the new student."

Sora's pov

That's the first time I saw him; that silver-haired boy with blue eyes. I don't think I'd ever seen someone as…well… beautiful as him. I stared at him for a minute when I sat down.

"Hey", he said with a smile. "My name is Riku. Nice to meet you."

"Right back at you", I replied and at first I wondered if he had heard the rumors about me. But the way he smiled at me, if he did know, he didn't care. "My name is Sora."

We didn't talk for the rest of the period. I left quickly when the bell rang to avoid being annoyed. Just then, I saw him following close behind. He grabbed my shoulder and made me face him.

"What did you do to your arm?" he asked me. I looked at him and for reasons unknown I replied.

"What does it look like?" And I walked away quickly.

The rest of the day seemed to last forever. Riku didn't talk to me for the rest of the day and I couldn't help but feel bad. Or at least I felt bad until I saw him talking with the gang of guys that fucked up my life the most. I could seem him there, standing with them and laughing as they pointed and glared at me. Was this punishment for what I had said? What did I do this time?

Normal Pov

Sora got home later that afternoon only to see his mother crying on the couch and his dad standing over her with his hand pulled into a fist. He stood at the doorway for a minute, unable to move and then hurried over to help. This wasn't the first time that his dad got drunk to the point of being violent, but Sora had never been home to witness it.

He grabbed his dad's arm. "Stop!" he yelled. His mother put her hand up against her face and cried. She watched Sora and only half understood what was going on because she too was drunk.

Suddenly, the teen cried out in pain and fell to the floor with his hand on his face. He couldn't believe what had happened, but little did he know, that wasn't the end of it. Just then, his father kicked him in the stomach making him fall to the floor. He did this repeatedly, even if Sora was crying and his mother was screaming for him to stop.

"Fucking kid!" yelled his dad. "Don't you ever tell me what to do! You fag don't even look at me!" After the 6th kick, his father left the house cursing and his mother ran over to her son.

Sora cried in agony and held his stomach. His hair fell over his face hiding his bloody nose and the scratch that was bleeding above his eye. Her mother wrapped her arms around him, but he pushed her away and made his way upstairs and to his room. Once there, he sobbed heavily and took his knife out once again…
Save me please...

Alrighty! There's the end of the second chapter…hope you guys like….please review even if you didn't like it! I will accept criticism! Happy reading! I'll start working on chapt.3 soon!

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Hikari